#brokenmemory

🌒 Gulzar — the loneliness that hums quietly

My memories of this one place are becoming so vivid, i know i lived there 14 years ago. But I am not sure if my memories are even real anymore.I wonder sometimes, are they just thoughts i used to cover up a painful past or where things ever that pretty. I remember so little but then i can still think of myself being older living there so it is like time is broken in my mind. I know there is no way i could have ever been older there it was 15 years ago i was a child. So why do i have vivid thoughts of this place, the smell of the rain, and the sunflower that would randomly bloom, the dandylions under the tree. The sunsets. I remembered a room with lights hanging that apparently never existed and i have had many dreams of that room with the wooden walls , door  with a glass window and then the different colored ornament light that hung down from the ceiling , but that wasn't real it was just a reoccurring dream. The mother that threw flowers in my hair , i sometimes wonder if i made her up just to cope as a child. Apparently my sister and i where so close, but i dont really remember her. All i remember is that place.