#briannahill

I hate how I’m happy and I don’t care anymore than I see you, I see the one person I wanna be with and do everything with but doesn’t wanna do the same.

I hate how I care so much about you and you care so little about me and you show me that.

I hate how I drop everything to be with you and you can’t even drop a thing to answer a phone call or a text.

I hate how at night when I’m not with you I feel so alone, but when I am with you it’s no different.

I hate how I can’t hate you, how I can’t let you go, how I can’t just not care like you do.

I hate that your all I think about when I first wake up and the last thing I think about before I go to bed.

I hate the fact that I don’t hate you. That I can’t hate you, no matter how much I wish I could.

I hate that no matter what I do anymore all I ever think about is you.

I hate how you don’t notice the little things about me yet everyone else does.

I hate how you don’t give me the attention I deserve, like the attention I give you.

I hate how you give everyone else attention and drop everything for them but not for me.

I hate how your the only person I wanna be with but that doesn’t matter to you.

I hate how many excuses you have and how it’s so easy for you not to care.

I hate how you don’t believe me or trust me anymore when I haven’t given you a reason to lately.

I hate how I try to prove myself to you and show you I changed and I care but you don’t.

I hate how I’m losing myself trying to be with you.

I hate the fact that I can’t hate you.

I hate myself for letting you effect me like you do.

I hate myself for being so weak and vulnerable when it comes down to you.

I hate myself for giving my all to and still fucking treating you good when you don’t deserve it.

I hate myself for loving you and caring about you.