#bria rants

It's my son's birthday and he requested hibachi and shopping afterwards instead of a party because he's mad at his friends for not telling him happy birthday at school yesterday. He's so dramatic but that's my boy.

I could listen to Yunho talk forever. I only understand about half of what he's saying because I stopped studying Korean for like the 5th time. But his voice is really soothing.

All I want for my birthday is as fucking job. I miss working

Kinda wanna post my stories here but I feel like they suck. Idk maybe I'll post a new one here. I have hella stories I could post I'm just nervous I guess

Not that anybody actually cares but I'm sad as fuck and have decided to get a hysterectomy for instead having multiple surgeries to take care of the same issue.

First my dad dies outta nowhere in July. I spent most of August arguing with his side of the family because I wanted his ashes. In September I got the nexplanon implant to help regulate/stop my horribly painful periods. Go have a vaginal ultrasound only to be told i have fibroids on my uterus and most likely won't be able to have more kids. I tell my family. My brother and mom are freaking out my best friend and coworkers are worried. My own sister hasn't responded at all. Everything fucking hurts I wanna cry but I don't have the time to break down because I have to keep working and going on like nothings wrong.

An old friend found me on a dating site right. Cool we're talking reminiscing and be asks about my hobbies so i said "i bake and read/write smut." He asks to read something so i send him one. Tell me why he then proceeds to ask me when we'll do the things the MC did in the story i sent him. I don't fuck i just read/write about it. He then gets mad after i said he's tryna guilt trip me into sex because i wrote a story about it. Like bro you knew from the beginning and by beginning i mean 12 years ago i wasn't gonna fuck you. Bullying me isn't gonna get you any closer to coochie either.