#brebabbles

Like from the few scenes we see from kags and oikawa's povs/chapters, as a first year, he appeared shy, quiet, earnest, and very respectful. And while I'm only assuming that Kazuyo started getting sick around his second year and dying sometimes in his third year, how did no one notice this switch?

Not Kindaichi, Kunimi, teammates, or even the coaches when it's there jobs to watch and take care of the children trusted under their care. How did no one notice or question kags becoming sullen, angry, impatient, and more?

Just thinking abt it messes me up bc it's implied his parents and miwa weren't there (often?) so he was really alone most of that time with silence and grief as his main companions, deciding to throw himself wholeheartedly into the one thing that brought his happiness: volleyball

Bc he was alone in the silence I also think he'd low-key disassociate without realizing until someone from karasuno noticed and were like hello!?? Are you good? (It was probs suga, yachi, or yams, so now they don't leave him alone [a head cannon])

Anyways I noticed he is often quiet and very polite (esp to authority figures like he is so well-mannered idk how y'all look at him and think he cusses out everyone and they mama) and more than being polite he low-key only speaks when prompted too like a general discussion, in response to someone, or smth he is passionate abt (ex: volleyball, setting) thus making me believe kage only really speaks when he feels the need to not randomly (unless with Hinata tho most of that is responding to what Hinata is saying to him)

Now listen I personally see shoyo as a extrovert and due to being a big brother, someone who is observant when needed and quite emotionally intelligent which helps him become friends with so many people

However due to this emotional intelligence towards other people I think when it comes to himself he may fall behind, not understanding certain feelings he has unlike a friend who is telling him abt how they feel. In my opinion it isn't until the Brazil arc where he faces great introspection towards himself and emotions and feelings both in volleyball and others close & dear to him does he realizes how he feels about kags is different than tsukki or yams or yachi

In contrast kags is seen as a more private, sometimes quiet person, who is definitely more introverted. It is hinted towards that his parents aren't around often if at all and with Miwa being much older than him and likely moved out he spent much time alone training and teaching himself about volleyball and the world.

It is also known that kags is the youngest and in some of his closest friendships or team dynamics people unintentionally hover or go near him, while kags may not understand why they're talking to them he knows to respond and how he wants to respond plus adding in his habit of journaling, actively analyzing his past decisions and thoughts I imagine he knows (even if it annoys & frustrates him) how he feels very well. He might not be able to put direct names on these feelings but he can recognize them better than shoyo

But yea long story short kags knew he was in love with shoyo before shoyo knew he was in love with kags which makes their reunion on court so good bc at that point they both have recognized their love for each other and both are chasing and catching the other simultaneously

Like they made team Japan from the Olympics and are doing a photo shoot and the entire team is watching Hinata, who is watching kageyama without blinking or breathing with wide eyes, muttering to each other "there goes shoyou's crazy eyes" "oh there he go again with the crazy eyes"