feel like i'm gonna cry but i guess i'm gonna make some really stiff coffee and take a crack at this New Student Scholarship Application instead
(wish that meant i'd actually been accepted, dunno anything yet, just gotta jump through hoops like a sad manatee and hope it pans out in the end)
Other Mother scolded me earlier (pretty gently tbh, but i am a fragile flower) about failing to call her back last night or this morning—'if you want to go back to school, you have to be more responsive'! which, yes, i totally do, i am so hugely aware of that and i so hugely regret standing her up when she's already dealing with enough rn. it's just that now i feel overwhelmed by guilt as well as overwhelmed by the (few, easy) things i have to do, sigh, story of my life really. cried a little after we hung up.
anyway i dunno, sorry for getting my braingunk everywhere, sad manatee out :/