today I want to tell you something about my false puberty.

All started when I was ten I think because then I’ve recognized that my chest started to grow and one year later I got female period. I’ve never been so depressed like at this time because I hated my body, my social role as a girl and so on.

But I wasn’t able to understand for a long time that I’m trans because I didn’t know that I could be a homosexual boy and I try to fit in the role of a heterosexual girl which I always wish to be but I could not be that because all the time I know that I’m a boy and not a girl.

I hated wearing dresses because I associated that with woman being. Today I would like to wear also girly or female clothes because I’m a boy and clothes doesn’t have a gender.

I could wear a dress and other people would still know that I’m a boy.

When I’m alone sometimes I’ve wear a dress of my mum and I like this feeling but I haven’t able to wear that outside because our society isn’t really friendly to homosexual and feminin men.