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aw ok <333

dear girlfriend,

i don’t even know what to say. i have a very hard time believing that this is at all what you wanted or what you expected from me. i’m sorry i’m so out of control all the time, but at the same time i’m glad you put up with it. you temper me and i’m so grateful for it. remember when i said i have a self destructive impulse? i think basically every relationship or weird engagement i’ve ever been in has been an extension of that. kind of like a “this will be fucking weird, why not.” but you’re not like that. so dating you isn’t crazy or chaotic. it’s easy and simple and beautiful. you bring out the best in me, which is weird for me sometimes, because the person i want to be for you isn’t always the same as the person i am, or the person i think i am. 

this is getting really pseudophilosophical and confusing, but basically you make me happy. in a non-chaotic, non-destructive kind of way that i’m not really used to. you really do bring out the best in me. 

dear future me,