don't mind the fact that i have no idea how to make comics :D

bonus panel:

does a trauma cycle start over again? or does he jut kinda move on like nothing happened-

This is a good ask to talk about how dragonkasa's trauma has been haunting him for years till present time.

For starters, Tsukasa has always been aware that his relationship with Rui (Past) was going to end at some point because they are from two different worlds, he is an immortal god which job is to fulfill human's wishes and grant fortune, while Rui is a merely counselor. Their paths get crossed because wants to archive a dream, Rui wants war to end and people from his town and the whole country to feel safe and smile everyday because he's grown seeing people being scared and suffering on their own. Obtain happiness through working hard for it was what firstly caught Tsukasa's attention on Rui, eventually he falls in love after spending more time with him and understanding what a human life means. He has already got attached to other humans (Saki and Touya) but the attachment he had with them and Rui is totally different. I didn't fully show how detached Tsukasa is from humans in the past and how now, present time, he is totally different but that's what ends up being his downfall and provoked his trauma in the end.

Tsukasa has never really socialized enough with humans, never developed feelings for them besides the "I need to protect them" "it's my duty, I was created to this purpose." but always putting a distance because humans and god shouldn't be allowed to get together, that's rule that never allowed Tsukasa to actually get close to humans. Saki and Touya break a bit this rule, Tsukasa starts to get a glimpse of what a human life is and after he meets Rui, he realizes how different they are and how fragile is a human life.

Now in present, Tsukasa is a bit lost like he isn't totally sure why he can't move on, it happened a long ago already and he meets Rui's reincarnation. At first he thinks this is a punishment, because all the people that has been in touch with him previously, forgot about him (he isn't a god anymore, literally speaking, just a divine creature) so seeing the love of his life being reincarnated and not being able to remember him, it's painful.

But it's painful not being able to move on from all those sweet memories he has with him. Tsukasa is fully aware that Rui isn't the one he fell in love but there's a lot of factors that make him believe, there's something in there and he still can't move on. The whole au is about that, how Tsukasa is going to move on from this state of perpetual "grief" he ignored over the years and just "lived" to a one where he can truly find his own answer and happiness.

There's a lot of things I want to show but I want to focus specially where Tsukasa struggles with how to stop feeling bad for being "happy" with this Rui instead of the one he swore to love for the rest of his days.

the bm yuri never ends