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Down For You (Returned to Ao3)

As well as/ Before the Act - Make it Quick & Green Room

Down For You (Teaser)

Chapter 19: (Flashback pt. 3) teaser.

[yeah it’s been a hot ass minute, but hey…imma finish what I started - new chapter up soon( the real truth behind Cam and Bo are about to start surfacing and as always...imma fuck y'all up 😎but until then…the teaser)

One Week Before Camille’s Birthday...

 Camille and Haley’s Apt

Bo hadn’t seen Haley since the night he took her home from the bar several weeks ago. The thought stirred uncomfortably in his head when he heard the faint sound of her voice trickle in through Camille’s bedroom door. It was like a splash of cold water, extinguishing the heat rising between him and Camille, who’d managed to pull him into another heavy make-out session after he’d insisted he needed to leave over an hour ago.

“I thought you said Haley wasn’t here?” He asked, pulling his tired, swollen lips from hers.

“She must have just gotten in,” Camille sighed in heavy frustration. “What the hell does it matter anyway?” She pushed him onto his back and leaned over him, studying him through narrowed eyes.

He shrugged. “It doesn’t—just asking.” Camille shook her head in disgust and sat up on the bed. “Jesus Camille, it was just a question,” Bo snapped, although he knew her annoyance had very little to do with his inquiry and far more to do with the fact that they both still had their clothes on.

It didn’t take long after he started dating Camille for her to figure out he was a virgin. And although her initial reaction was a giggle fit, it quickly became her laser-focused mission to change it. That much was evident to him. But although the why behind her determination was still unclear, he knew it was either classic sexual frustration or some kind of need for validation—or both. But his argument that he just wanted to ‘wait until the moment feels right’ was losing its luster as the days and weeks passed, and even he was starting to grow tired of his own hesitance. Camille was a classic example of a hot girl that any guy would want to get with. He wasn’t nervous about it, and his body was giving him the full greenlight, so it certainly wasn’t a physical hang-up. He’d taken more cold showers than he could stand at that point. The problem was all in his mind. The closer he edged towards letting go and giving in, the louder it became, jumbled with thoughts, clambering one over the other. None of which were profound by any means. Just a congested mess of ‘Stop’ – ‘Don’t’– ‘Not now.’

“Look, I’m sorry, all right?” Bo said quietly. He sat up, resting his back against the terribly uncomfortable iron post headboard of her bed as he brushed the sweep of his hair to the side, noting that he desperately needed to get it cut. “I think I’m just distracted with trying to write the show and everything.”

Camille rolled her eyes but leaned in, resting her head on his shoulder as she gazed up at him. “You still have like, an entire month before you have to have it done,” she pouted.

“Yeah, and it’s arguably the most important thing I’ve ever written,” he replied.

The morning after he left Haley in tears, he met with a major network, interested in making him a new headliner. If what he wrote was good enough, his act would be filmed and released nationwide. This was the big break.

Camille grinned. “You know what I think?”

“What’s that?”

“I think it would do your writing some good if you let me help clear that head of yours. And if that doesn’t talk you over the edge, then how about this?” In one quick move, she straddled his lap and leaned in, planting small kisses on the side of his neck. “My birthday’s next week, and you’re the only thing I want.”

He laughed quietly under his breath and pulled her face into his hands. “You know what I think?” Camille tipped her head in question. “I think you’re a spoiled fucking brat.”

She grinned wildly, “Yeah? So what?” Brushing his hair from his eyes, she continued. “Whatever stuck-up moral code you’re holding onto? Let it go. Stop following your own rules because it feels so damn good to break them. So just do it. Break the damn rules.”

“Astounding wisdom, Cam,” he grinned before glancing at his watch. “I gotta go.”

As they emerged from Camille’s bedroom and rounded the corner, Bo was caught off guard when he realized that Camille’s loud pack of friends were all scattered around the living room. Several pairs of eyes, all of them landing directly on him. But what really got his attention was the particular pair that belonged to Haley as she gazed up at him from the couch. Her expression was tight, unsettled. But Bo was relieved that, if anything, they didn’t have the hurt or the tears settled in them like the last time he saw her. And after quietly mumbling goodbye, he left.

Two Days Before Camille’s Birthday…

Nick’s Comedy Stop

Bo moved methodically around the stage, wrapping cables,  gathering mic stands, and packing them into their hard-shell cases. The theater was empty and quiet, and for that, he was grateful. The show at Nick’s Comedy Stop that night was a packed house, and although he felt fairly confident in his performance, he couldn’t shake the urgency to get back to his apartment so he could get some more writing done. He still had a few weeks before the network execs would be returning to see what he had to offer, but the pressure was on, and it was all he could think about.

As he packed the last few things away, he heard the familiar clank of the door closing towards the back of the theater. Squinting past the bright stage lights and out into the darkness, his hands froze on their way to closing the case when Haley appeared at the edge of the stage, offering a quick wave and a timid smile. She was the last person he expected to see, and after a few beats of astounded silence, he managed to speak.

“Mystery girl…”

“Help me up?” She said softly, holding her arms out.

“Uh—Yeah, of course.”

Just like the night they first met, he moved to the edge and pulled her onto the stage. But this time, it took a little longer to drop her hands from his, and as much as he wished he could stop staring, he couldn’t, even after she laughed shyly and looked out towards the stage lights.

“I just wanted to say congrats,” she explained after a few quiet moments. She turned her eyes back to his. “I heard about the network.”

“Oh—right. Uh, thanks. I mean, it’s not official yet but—”

“It will be—I have no doubt about that.”

Bo nodded, and although he was thankful for the compliment, it was genuine confidence in her delivery that he appreciated most.

She turned her eyes back once more to the lights, and a few quiet seconds passed.

“Haley…I’m sorry again—about the other night.”

“Don’t be,” she replied quickly. “I mean—I probably wouldn’t have been able to remember it anyway.” The sound of her nervous laugh struck a smile on Bo’s lips, even though he felt a tug of hurt because he wasn’t necessarily apologizing as much as confessing—that he was actually genuinely regretful that he didn’t let her kiss him. “Anyways,” she shrugged. “I should probably get going. Let you get out of here.”

“It was really good to see you,” Bo returned. “I’m glad you came by.”

She gave him a soft smile and a quick nod. “Kay, well—goodnight.” Turning on her heels, she moved to the edge of the stage.

Suddenly the only thing Bo could think about was Camille’s words. ‘Stop following your own rules. It feels so damn good to break them. So do it. Break the damn rules.’ He didn’t remember taking the steps to get there but suddenly, there he was—right behind Haley as he reached out and took her hand. Her soft blonde curls danced around her shoulders as she turned, her bright eyes lit with question.

He’d thought about this moment plenty of times before. Life’s “firsts” are hard to ignore. Especially the big ones—like losing your virginity. But every time he thought about this moment, he’d try to imagine HER. The one who’d find it.

With HER— he didn’t want it to be a matter of giving in. He wanted to NEED her—like oxygen. WANT her—like survival.

But really, more than anything, he wanted to LOVE her. Even if it was never meant to last forever, he wanted to at least—in this moment—believe that it would.

             ***Down For You (Soundtrack)***

[The following list are the collection of songs I’ve been listening to while writing Down For You. Notes and lyrics noted below! Let me know what you think! Enjoy!]

Youtube playlist:

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLzl9R-ec0Fn95BcDN21hLAAuio56LJ3S7

Individual Links Below:

Heartlines – Broods

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3vuK1WFa3CI

Basically the main theme song in my opinion.

Notable Lyrics: “We could fool the datelines - we could jump the state lines - I don’t always play nice - But I wanna feel your heartlines”

“Have you been let down - by the ones before? Do you leave to soon to know? Never fell in love - cause I just cut loose - but not when it comes to you. Ill pick you up at midnight - we’ll run to beat the sunlight - we only get the one life - and I wanna feel your heartlines.

Dress To Kill – New Found Glory

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gz0qyYtcJb4

(Mentioned) First song Bo plays, drumming his fingers and singing along on the way to Salem.

Leaving On a Jet Plane – The Macarons Project

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wT8ExwD6aUU

This is what Emma performed with the Ukulele at the open mic night on her birthday.

Wrong Direction – Hailee Steinfeld

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ncV1TlNl9B8

Shallow – Tommee Profitt

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vePCsBD-CHk

Notable Lyrics: “Tell me something girl - are you happy in this modern world? Or do you need something more? Is there something else your searchin for? Tell me something boy - aren’t you tired tryna fill that void? Or do you need something more - aint it hard keepin it so hardcore?”

Place In Me – Luke Hemmings

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7AibF6pGM_4

Notable Lyrics: “I never meant you any harm - got no legs to stand on - I was just dancing in the dark - now with my eyes wide open - it’s heaven in your arms.” 

Colour Me In – Damien Rice

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WkO931f4huA

Notable Lyrics: “I tried to repress it - then I carried it’s crown - I reached out to undress it - but love let me down - love let me down / And all these useless dreams of living alone - like a dog-less bone. So come let me love you - and then - colour me in.

Last Lines - AKW

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AxnXYy_8leA

This is America – Childish Gambino

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q6DlcfacMos

(Mentioned) Playing in the car on the way to Emma’s mother’s house in Buckhead.

Hiding Bottles – Bears Den

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wg7x7ZiF0P8

Birthplace – Novo Amor

Down For You (ch13) The Consequence - posted

Warning (language, adult content)

Down For You ch:14 Party In Laurel Canyon Posted! 

https://archiveofourown.org/works/35350264/chapters/88903831

[The door opens and Bo slips into the room, freezing for a moment when his eyes land on me. I watch him through the mirror, not sure what to say. His expression seems heavily guarded as he sweeps his fingers back through his hair and continues toward me. I turn, looking up at him when he appears at my side. His eyes run down the length of the dress, his brows drawing, and he lifts them back to mine.

“I know this is—umm.” He looks away for a moment, rubbing his beard, and looks back at me. “You look fucking beautiful, Emma.” Between Rose and him, I lose my strength and lower to the floor, sitting in a puffy cloud of silk and lace. He lowers down next to me. “I get it now,” he says quietly, reaching over the pile of white, nearly up to my shoulders, brushing the back of his fingers across my cheek. “I understand why this is hard for you. She’s a really good lady and she’s the mother you deserve.”

           ***Before The Act (Soundtrack)***

[The following list are the collection of songs I listened to while writing Before The Act. Most of them are overall favorites throughout the story, and some of them are specific to a chapter. Notes and lyrics noted below! Let me know what you think! Enjoy!]

Youtube Playlist:

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLzl9R-ec0Fn9QnxDgbwnXtyMas2Qc_qYf

Individual Links Below:

Atlas:Heart – Sleeping At Last 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G6R2O5JxFSM

Notable Lyrics: “Go ahead and laugh - even if it hurts - Go ahead and pull the pin - what if we could risk - everything we have - and just let our walls cave in.”

When The Party’s Over- Billie Eillish

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pbMwTqkKSps

Exclusively for Chapter 11: Fever Pitch (New years Eve Kiss)  “I know, I know,” Bo said, breathlessly, kissing down my neck. “No strings, Sidney, I swear.”

Kiss The Girl – Brent Morgan 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SRK4RLocQHM

Exclusively for Ch:3 When It All Changed (First Kiss) & Ch:19 Welcome to the Burnhams pt 2 (wedding)

Do It Alone – Sugar Cult

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=93AkTbLtd5U

Ch:5 Thunder & Lightning (“Summer of Love” Segment – “I forgot to lock the door”)

Crow- Bears Den 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CtdkqvdIwiw

Notable Lyrics: “I think of you much more than I - would like to admit”

“My Daedalus, My wings to fly”

Cant Help Falling Inlove with You – Tommee Profitt

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bon37lZ5ZYA

Also used during wedding scene. This version will break your ever lovin heart. You've been warned.

The Greatest Bastard – Damien Rice

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=70T_C4RUTKI

Notable Lyrics: “I made you laugh - I made you cry - I made you open up your eyes - didn’t I? I helped you open up your wings - your legs - and many other things - didn’t I? Am I the greatest bastard that you met? The only one you cant forget - am I the one your truths been waiting for?”

500 Miles – Sleeping At Last

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vU81DihqD0c

Be Still- The Fray

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5nUuBjz4Vhc

Till Kingdom Come- Coldplay

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E0UN-pVTLf4

Notable Lyrics: “Steal my heart and hold my tongue - I feel my time - my time has come - Let me in - unlock the door - I never felt this way before. For you I’ve waited all these years - For you I’d wait till kingdom come - Until my day - my day is done - say you'll come - and set me free. Just say you'll wait - you'll wait for me.”

Listen Before I Go - Billie Eillish

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P4z1O3miesI

Used in Ch:13 Fallout pt 1 (Christmas Eve Love Scene in the Pool House)

I love You- Billie Eillish

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sB4iOw62R3I

Snow - Sleeping At Last

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jLKmcSuMeCI

Used in Ch:14 Fallout p2 (Christmas Day - before and after all hell breaks loose)

Putting a Spin on Payphone - Egg