i am absolutely awful with words & this you are aware of, but here's my lame attempt: i wanted to thank you again for always being by my side & supporting me in all my endeavors. it's been four years now that we know each other? & you've never once stopped supporting me or listening to me & i cannot express how much it means to me. you are also such an amazing & inspiring writer, it's been a pleasure seeing you growth & your style evolve throughout all these years to become what it is today. (1)
the amount of research you make for your muses & the complexity they have is amazing & i am always in awe of whatever you produce, & i will keep telling you how amazing you are until you accept it as fact ok, both as a writer & individual. i deeply cherish all our conversations, be it daily ones, or about our muses, angst or floof (mostly angst because we’re monsters) & just having you as a friend… wishing you all the best things & more for 2020 because you deserve them. you’re the best. (2)
damnit. i’m too tsundere for this rn. ( @blutlied / @blutkrone )ahem with all due respect, THESE ARE NOT FACTS. but i agree with the monster part, we truly are two masochistic demons who thrive on the illusion of soft content and then break it with the harsh reality of terrible fates. i hate this. and how can i be inspiring if it’s you who inspires me ? a writer with so much insight and perspective and empathy for your portrayals carefully woven from analysis and love and presented in unfiltered art. sorry but you won’t argue with me about this. not today !!! ( however, i think what we both should be trying next year is to give less of a perfectionistic and over-critical fuck against ourselves, and just be having merely fun again, if situational circumstances and other conditions permit us so. ) anyway blog & writing stuff aside ; i’m getting a little bit emo here ( again ) because it really has been a good chunk of years and not a single day does pass in which i don’t wish for your absolute happiness, and also wish that i could do more for you than i am presently capable of. but fuck it, 2020 will hopefully, hopefully be a wonderful year for once and will be full of opportunities for you !! you deserve a whole lot of good things. i will never cease to tell you i am so proud of what you already achieved. and i gotta say i am grateful, too, you know, that you have accompanied me through all these obstacles that i otherwise don’t really mention here, and even now at this low point of my health, you’re still very caring, and i appreciate that wholeheartedly.i love you a lot. you with your cute morning links to adorable pet videos which i painfully cannot watch except when i’m on phone. you with your character ramblings and your nerdy self, and horrible enablements. you who is just blatantly honest and yet so very loving, and you who just stubbornly bites herself through her day, good ones or bad ones. you with your wonderfully imagery and symbolism heavy writing. y O U !!!!!!!!!!!!!
