#blushingheart

Like I said earlier, my name is celeste. I go by all pronouns but I tend to stick with she/her since that is what I am addressed as most of the time. I don't label my gender tbh since it's pretty fluid, but I tend to learn more towards the feminine side of the spectrum. I am pansexual, I don't have any preference when it comes to gender.

my birthday is July 26 and below this is my birth chart. I have tropical position calculation and whole sign house system on this chart because personally I find them to be the most accurate and straightforward. Feel free to analyze it if you want!

I tried to research the myer-briggs personalities (not just take the 16 personalities quiz LMAO) and see which one I am and I belief I am an INFJ. I am pretty sure I am a 3w4 for my enneagram type. I wish I could say wether or not I am introverted or extroverted, but I can't tell because honestly I might just have social anxiety. My instinctual variant is sx/so I believe.

I live in america in the south east coast area. I am still in high school and intend on going to college, perhaps becoming a lawyer or something in business, idrk it's tbd honestly. I go to private now, but before high school, I had always gone to public. The only reason I switched is because I wanted a better education and more targeted environment. I realized a lot of people switch over because they were bullied or like geniuses who were too good for public school, but I just wanted to because I fell in love with the school.

I play soccer, used to do cross country, and plan on starting lacrosse sometime this year. I have been always involved in athletics, practically my whole life. Recently I have been feeling major burnout with soccer, so I hope lacrosse is fun for me!

my family is okay relationship-wise, in my teenage years, they have been hit-or-miss. my mom is a stay-at-home mom and my dad is military, we were lucky we didn't have to move around as much as some other folk but that was because my dad would leave by himself most of the time, but the major move we had to do was leave my home town of 9 years (age 3 to 12) to a new place and where we currently live. It was weird because we moved while I was in middle school, from where I knew everyone in the school bc it was a such a small town and where I grew up to a big city where I knew nobody in the angstiest years of our lives, the dreaded pre-teens. I also have a sister we used to be close, but we went to different high school and she just graduate so whatever.

I drabble a little bit in spirituality and magick, but I am very well a beginner. If knowledge of the spiritual was a body of water, I am not just-dipped-my-toes-in-the-pool beginner, but more like I am sitting at the edge with my feet in the water, waiting for the temp to warm up before getting in further beginner yk? So maybe intermediate ig? I would consider myself a witch and I can't wait to learn more!

cw: afterlife philosophy! (skip this next paragraph is the concept of death makes you uncomfortable or you have a belief system in place where you don't feel comfortable listening to someone else <3)

My opinions on the afterlife and the universe are kind of conflicting? I believe in the spiritual while I incorporating science as well (this isn't why I think my beliefs are conflicting btw just a general consensus ig, just because my beliefs are fluid) my beliefs are the universe is at least semi-sentient being. I believe everything is made of energy and is apart of a huge universal cycle. I believe when we die our energy is released and just like the water cycle or rock cycle, there is many paths our energy can take and there isn't a set one. I believe energy can do many things after death, like disperse with no direction among the universe, join to an objects or persons energy, recycle into another body like in reincarnation, collect in a certain area as a form of heaven or whatever, stay in the death place as a ghost, transverse dimensions or realities, perform many of these options, or none, etc. I believe even things we wouldn't consider like touchable or observable have energy, like things we wouldn't consider 'real'. Like I believe that every god, every devil, every entity, every person, every fictional character, every place, every object have energy and existence (even if its not a physical one, or observable) because the universe is giving it energy. what I mean by this is for example, people in the world believing in the christian god makes it real because all that energy is amassing for that concept. To be 'real' is hard to define because what makes me more real than someone else? (I try to incorporate the multiverse theory here as well) What if this person existed in another reality where I do not, what happens then? who is more real at that point? Moving on from that, I actually don't have a belief on the origins of our universe tbh, besides the obvious scientific explanation of the Big Bang. In this case I mean more of like a reason and not a cause, like why we came about and by who/what? It hard to wrap my head around nothingness void to the whole expanding infinite universe. My beliefs after the start of the universe is that is when matter and energy were introduced and is when everything was created. From then all that energy has recycled, for example my beliefs on soul: I believe that at the beginning of the universe a set number of souls were made of like pure *soul energy*, as time has gone on souls have changed and transferred, like split original souls are what makeup soul mates, souls that have picked up an objects or places energy are what make people drawn to certain things in life, or soul energy being lost among the universe is what makes seemingly inanimate have 'human'-like qualities, or how some people have the same energy as someone else is just made up of some of their soul energy or their energy comes from like a similar area in the universe, etc. It just gives you a lot to think about yk? I believe the consciousness is extremely powerful and I believe in the law of assumption, it plays on 'I think therefore I am'. It bases itself on the question can somebody prove they are conscious to you, like can it be proven that you and me are conscious in the same way. The answer to that is no, you can't prove it, because anything they come up as evidence can easily be disproven by your own brain. LOA plays on everybody is you pushed out, as in (my interpretation) your consciousness is apart of every person you encounter, every object, every concept, every aspect of your life is shaped by yourself, as in the way you perceive it and assumptions you have around it since you are the only 'prove-able' thing in existence. Your reality is shaped by you, this is why every afterlife belief is correct in my eyes because you assume it is, then creating your reality. Yet even after this, after all my calming explanation of death not being the end of your journey, I am still scared of death, ironic.

I have many many interest that hope I get to share on this platform, so speed round on basic topics and I'll get deeper later! I like anime/manga, I like literature, I like documentaries, I like video games, I like YouTubers, I like movies, I like researching, I like art, I like painting, I like print-making, I like history, I like economics, I like civics, I like politics, I like fashion, I like philosophy, I like cosmetics, I like beauty-related things, I like photography, I like cinematography, I like animals, I like shaping my aesthetic, I like sports, I like moral dilemmas, I like tons of shit!

I like anime and manga. I like cheesy romcoms, sports, and slice of life. I like shonen and shoujo. My favorites are horror, adventure, sci-fi, and (most importantly) psychological. Some of my first animes were Ouran Highschool Host Club, Sword Art Online, Haikyuu, Maid-Sama, Saiki K, etc. I love Death Note, Great Pretender, Jujutsu Kaisen, Erased, HunterxHunter, Attack on Titan, Sk8 the Infinity, Beastars, Demon Slayer, Viral Hit (How to Fight), Tokyo Ghoul, Jojo's Bizarre Adventure, Danganronpa, Promised Neverland, Yuri!! On Ice, and much more! I plan on watching/reading Lain, Blue Period, Neon Genesis Evangelion (and all its movies as well), Tokyo Revengers, One Piece (eventually LMAO), Naruto, Blue Lock, Blue Flag, and more! Please recommend things to watch or message me to talk about some that I have already watched.

I like literature. I stick mostly to fictions, but I am not opposed to non-fiction every so often for research on history or science. I love fantasy and mystery, thrillers and horror are super cool as well. I love books that make you think, books that build a foreign world so well and truly absorb you, books that play on historical events, parallel universes, or completely magical realms, books that incorporate philosophy subtlety, books that have a bit of every thing relationship-wise (romance, friendship, family, parental figures, enemies, rivals, strangers, or more obscure relationship types). Off the top of my head there's no books that come to mind but please give me recs if you feel like it!

I like documentaries. I find I tend to slide to the darker topics and I find tragedy one of the most interesting concepts. But I also love stupid little nature documentaries like from Disney (LMAO). I love behind the scenes documentaries of famous films, video games, music, and more like The Movies That Made Us. I like military and political documentaries as well like How to Become a Tyrant, I like the reenactments of historical scenes. I LOVE true crime documentaries, they are some of my favorites. I like watching the behind the scene of corrupted business like Blackfish. I like watching cult documentaries too, like Keep Sweet: Pray and Obey. Again recs and discussion are welcomed!

I like video games! I love complex, decision-based games like Until Dawn, House of Ashes, Life is Strange, Best Month Ever, Detroit Becomes Human, etc. Those are so of my favorites! I love horror: I like the fnaf games and like watching people play them. I like maze-like horror games like At Dead of Night or Dark Deception or Baldi's Basics. I like puzzle horror games like Little Nightmares or House or Inscryption or Twelve Minutes or Franbow or Danganronpa. I like crack comedy games like the Henry Stickmin Collection or West of Loathing or Totally Accurate Battle Simulator. I like survival games based on strategy and decisions like 60 Secs or Oxygen Not Included. I like comedic thought-invoking morality games like Stanley Parable or Paper's Please or Mind Scanners. I like story building horror games like Fears to Fathom or Chilla's Art. I like 3rd Person Adventure games like Spider-Man Miles Morales or The Hitman Games. I like general survival games like Raft, Subnautica, or The Forest. I like combat games like Sifu, Sleeping Dogs, Elden Ring, Mortal Kombat, or GTA. I like indie games a lot! I like rhythm games like Friday Night Funkin. The general games like Minecraft, Among Us, First-Person/Third-Person Shooters, etc. I like a full range of games! recs and discussion welcomed!

I like YouTubers! I love markipler, jacksepticeye, coryxkenshin, berleezy, dashiegames, poiised, britani, ricothegiant, game theorist, lordminion777, muyskerm for gamers. I like bob the drag queen, trixie mattel, safiya nygaard, simply nailogical, nikkietutorials, hyram for beauty related stuff. I like good mythical morning, team edge, try guys, brittany_broski, sarah schauer, drew afualo, bailey sarian, buzzfeed unsolved/watcher (ryan and shane) for more general content.

I love movies. I love marvel and superhero movies. I love horror movies. I love Disney and Pixar's animated films and cartoons. I love claymation films. I love psychological movies. I love comedies. My top movies are Coraline, Ratatouille, Princess and the Frog, Tangled, Spiderman: Into the Multiverse, Black Swan, Gone Girl, Us, Midsommar, Blair Witch Project, Dunkirk, Knives Out, Ocean's Eight, Etc.