#blueraspberryrodimus

So, I feel like I need to explain myself:

Im sorry that one day I just sorta disappeared. Covid took an insane mental toll on me and I had no creativity and ultimately tldr; had to start anti depressants and a lot of super not fun stuff. While I love each and every one of you for all your kind words and support, running this blog completely burnt me out. I didn’t write for almost two years. I constantly felt like there was an expectation for me to keep this thing going or I would have so many of you lovelies upset with me. I haven’t even consumed any TF content since the first season of WfC because I would kind of just shut down. And something that’s such a comfort fandom like this one is, I couldn’t let myself come to associate it with stress. So this break has helped a lot. I’ve recently started writing again (albeit for other fandoms but I’m writing nonetheless) so I can’t make a promise that this blog will become active again.

It’s really heartwarming that I’ll still get emails from my ao3 of people leaving kudos and the occasional bookmark. I’m glad people are still enjoying the pieces I’ve left behind. I miss running this blog, I really do. And maybe one day I will come back and finish all the requests that were left in the inbox before I closed off those a few years ago. It was a hard and fast decision I needed to make, and I hope you all can respect that. Sometimes I come back here and I just read all the nice things you all would say to me, and it really makes me feel human. Don’t ever forget that content creators are indeed human (as much as our OCs go against that lol) and being a human sometimes is hard.

But thank you all so very much for all the love you’ve left me on this blog. Maybe one day activity will resume. If you’re interested in reading anything I’ve created outside of TF or just keep up with future things I’ve created, my ao3 link is in the description/bio here.

As always, thank you so so much. You all are wonderful. Please be safe and take care of yourselves, okay?

Love,

1. Autobots or Decepticons

If we're talking about who I'd join it'd be the Autobots because they wouldn't try to kill me the moment they saw me. Buuuuut if we're going with who I like more/who has most of my faves... the the Decepticons!

2. Alt-Mode: Ground vehicle or Air Vehicle

Ground! Jets and planes are cool and all but I'd wanna be either a motorcycle or a pickup truck!

9. Soundwave or Shockwave?

Surprisingly, Shockwave. I love Soundwave too but I just really admire Shockwave because I, too, love science and would like to not feel things sometimes. Unless we're going with Cyberverse then it's Soundwave cause that version of him is absolutely feral.

You liked to come here to read. The docks at the marina were always quiet around dusk once all the fisherman had come back by mid afternoon. Right around sunset you’d find yourself balancing on the bouncing boardwalk over the gentle waves and enjoy the soft breeze and the ease of the slowly ending day. There was just something about relaxing alone with the sound of water against the plankton-covered docks and the soft sound of pages turning as you got lost in another of your favorite books. But you were never really alone.

Drift knew he loved you from the moment he first saw you. And every new book you read he wished he could follow along. Keeping out of sight he loved to wait under the dock and watch your bare feet kick mindlessly into the water and listen for your soft gasps and chuckles as the story unfolded in your head. He liked to make up his own scenarios of what you must be reading. Maybe a handsome creature like himself would whisk off a curious adventurer on a journey they’d never been on. He knew you would read of fantasy; he could tell by the pictures on the books you’d bring. And he’d thought it over many a time to reveal himself to you. Perhaps you already knew he was here and were just respecting his choice to stay hidden. Either way, he was afraid that you’d reject he that was so different from yourself. 

But still his heart grew warm and beat quickly every time you’d come to the docks, and he longed for these moments every time the sun would set. And when you’re chuckled turned to tears when the story was too compelling, he wanted to hold you in his arms and bring you to a new home where you wouldn’t be hurt. He knew pain in a way that no one else should know. One day the time will come where he would have to face you. But he was afraid to risk his own heart breaking.

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hewwo anon! i wanted to say thank you for the kofi support! 

as a message to everyone here: my ko-fi is reserved as a tip jar and not for requests (since requests are closed) and commissions should be DM’d to me so we can negotiate the scenario and happenings for your piece! commissions are always open so be sure to message me for this directly! be sure to go through the correct avenues for your paid writings! :) there’s no way for me to refund this since everything from ko-fi directly deposits to my bank, so i will fill it for you here. i worry for future “kofi requets” because i do have absences from this blog (although i’m trying to be more active again!) so if i didn’t check in on my kofi or the blog, i would have missed this and you might have been out $15 :( so just be sure that next time (or for anyone) that y’all send me a message before paying as i don’t even take payment until the commissions is finished anyway. i hope all this makes sense? i appreciate the support (especially in these trying times for me) i just want to make sure that both sides benefit from it! if anyone is just leaving a tip for tip’s sake, those are always welcome! ;)

anyway, here’s your fill! hope you enjoy~

request: “May I request a scenario where G1 Wheeljack is stuck to a wall and is trying to confess to his very concerned human crush who’s currently trying to free him?”

You had just returned from you daily doings and decided to take a trip to the Autobot base. You had nothing left to od with your free time so might as well go check up on your friends. And Wheeljack. You were eager to see him, but you couldn’t be over eager. You always tried your best not to be obvious about the way you felt about him. Plus how could he put you before his science? It just did not seem plausible. But still, even if you were just to remain friends, you could live with that.

The base was quiet. Odd. Normally this time of day there was a bustling amount of action about the base. Whether the bots were getting their afternoon briefing or free time racing around the area, there was always something going on. Nothing. It almost worried you. But you decided to go looking for whatever trouble you might find. Afterall, they might just need your help.

If the bots are in trouble, that could mean Wheeljack is also in trouble! you thought, heart beginning to race in your chest. You needed to keep calm. Whatever has happened, you could help. It will be okay. Your footsteps quickened as you beelined it for Wheeljack’s laboratory. If he was going to be anywhere around here, it would be in there. Carefully rounding the corner, you peered into the room. Again nothing. Nothing but the sound of whirring machinery and the slow beeping of the technology inside.

“Hey! Who’s there?” you heard call out from in the room. You gasped, covering your mouth to keep from making anymore noise. “I can hear you, I know someone’s there.” Wheeljack’s voice. You let our a sigh of relief and showed yourself to the room.

“W-wheeljack?” you hesitantly called out.

“Yeah, it’s me! Is that-? Ah! It is you! Hey, I could really use some help over here…”

“Uh…?”

“Oh, don’t mind the mess. I was in the middle of doing something when all of a sudden I’m stuck over here now.”

You eyed the scientist stuck up on the wall. He didn’t seem to be hanging from anything, and he didn’t seem to be struggling either. You folded you arms and quinted up at him.

“How did you even get stuck like this, Wheeljack?” you said, pacing back and forth, fingers drumming on your chin. You contemplated over and over how to get him down, so maybe figuring out how he got up there would show a solution.

“I just don’t know. One minute I’m working on an experiment and the next, poof, I’m up here. Ya know, I’ve actually been up here quite a while before I asked you to come help me. It was almost relaxing at first,” he chuckled. You rolled your eyes. Of course there wasn’t an explanation for this. When it came to Wheeljack, his experiments were always ones of spontaneity. But in the end, they always worked. Well, mostly always.

You surveyed the wall again. Metal, as was everything else on the base. Could it possibly be a magnetic response?

“And it’s not magnets either.” It was like he could read your mind. “Listen, I’ve thought of everything before you came in here. A sticky situation to say the least.”

“Oh boy, okay. This is going to take some major work. We are really going to need to think outside the box on this one,” you muttered to yourself. You looked up to meet his optics and you knew that behind that face shield he would be wearing a sheepish smile. “We will figure this out. Together.”

And it took all day. You learned so much about his current research and experiments. You learned that the Autobots got called to a mission and that the Decepticons were causing yet another commotion. In a weird way it was nice to spend some quality time like this with Wheeljack, despite the current situation. You didn’t understand some of the vocabulary he was using when he tried to coerce you to do different things to help him get unstuck, but he had all the patience in the world to help explain it further. After all, he had no where he needed to be in the near future.

You both got to talking about so many different things that you’ve never shared with each other before. Wheeljack told you about his old home of Cybertron and how the streets were always bustling with life, how the engex at Maccadam’s was always the best in town, where he got his finish polished at. So many different aspects of the life and times on another planet. And you shared with him some things you never thought would be worth talking about, too. You didn’t think anyone would be interested in the domestic life on Earth or where you went to school or the pets you had. You never had someone get so excited to learn your favorite color before, at least not since preschool. All of these things intrigued Wheeljack, and he promised once he was able to get down from this Primus forsaken wall he would indulge in this Earthly life of yours.

“You know…actually, there was kind of something I wanted to talk to you about,”  his vocalizer staticked out a bit.

“I’m all ears. What’s on your mind…er, processor?” you asked, looking up at him from the desk.

“Maybe I’m not exactly in the right position to be saying any of this, both literally and physically, but uh…there’s something about you that, well, it just makes my spark swell…” The brightness of his optics were low, like he was trying to look away. He truly had your full attention now. You got up from where you were kneeling and approached him.

“What are you saying, Wheeljack?”

“Ah, nevermind. Just forget it. It was dumb anyway.”

“No, really. It’s okay, just say it.”

“I’m just saying that I guess I kinda like you in a way more than just being friends. You make me really happy when you come around and see me, and I know you and I are very different but, maybe, we could, uh…make it work?”

“Oh! Wheeljack, I-I don’t know what to say, I-“

“No, it’s alright. You don’t need to say anything. I should have just kept it to myself.”

“That’s not it at all. I like you, too. In a way more than just being friends,” you could feel the blush prickling at your cheeks and ears. “I just didn’t want to say anything in case you thought it was weird.”

“Me? Think something is weird? Nonsense! Have you met me?” He laughed and your laughter joined in.

“Well, before we can do anything about that, we still need to figure out how to get you down,” you said, smile wide on your lips.

Finally the fills have begun!! *triumphant fanfare*

(tfp bots and cons - sent in a second ask)

Smokescreen: He’s just eager to be able to me close to a human like this. He never realized that they were just so soft, especially...this part of them? Are all humans soft here? He’s a bit handsy with you just because he can’t get enough of just how soft, and squishy, and fun humans can feel. You scold him while laughing and he pulls your whole body closer to his warm frame, nestling his helm into your breasts. You’re afraid he’ll fall into recharge he’s so comfortable like this. You find that you really wouldn’t mind that one bit.

Wheeljack: Taking some time from his adventures had Jackie curious about these earth species his fellow Autobots have working with them. A liking to you most of all, probably because the two of you are just curious about each other. But Jackie isn’t as dumb as he appears to be, he knows exactly what he’s doing. He just wants to put his servos on you in any way he can. Learning how much fun human breasts are has him practically motor-boating you. He makes a comment about how they’d probably make great pillows. And if he gets his way later, he may just be taking a snooze with you and find out.

Soundwave: As a mech of very few words, Soundwave will show his curiosity in the way of actions. Still, he hesitates before moving any farther along to find your consent. His tentacles wrap around your body, holding you more still and yet closer to him. His visor shows no sign of emotion, but you can feel his curiosity in the way his frame runs hot and his tentacles more daring. His arms reach out to feel you, massaging into your hips and stomach until his servos find what they were looking for. Tentacles then pulling you close and he snuggles into you like you’re his own personal teddy bear on the berth. His helm rests between your breasts, a silent thank you for letting him be close to you like this, while his frame plays back some soft soothing music.

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(in another message) “ Could I also add the the s/o specialises in hot smut in their work and Megs love every part of it? -romance writer ask anon “

- Megatron, being a writer and admirer of good poetry, loves to hear your drabbles in writing and proof read over your latest work.

- Sometimes he likes to imagine that he is the muse of your writing, that all these romantic and steamy stories come from your fantasies of him.

- He’s also not shy to ask you to make these written fantasies a reality.

- He also likes to find other stories that are like yours and found one that was particularly spicy and hurries to tell you all about it.

- While not wanting to burst his bubble, you refrain from telling him that it’s really you under a pseudonym. You find it quite adorable that every time a new chapter updates, he comes to you to tell you all about it.

- You’ll let him know one day. Probably by writing a very explicit scene incredibly detailed after one of your sexy nights with him to see if he can connect the dots.

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- Max would be extra careful when he was handling you. He knows he’s big, even for a Cybertronian, and he really doesn’t want to hurt you.

- It’s inevitable, but you’ve gotten used to the bruises. You know he doesn’t do it on purpose. Size is hard. Mass displacing can get uncomfortable and difficult sometimes, though he tries his best for you.

- Size can sometimes come with a positive impact. Traveling anywhere is always fast and easy. And you have to admit that sitting up on his shoulder and cuddling into his neck cables or kissing his cheek is always fun.

- Though being two different species and sizes and backgrounds, Fort Max is so emotionally gentle on you. His job isn’t an easy one, and he sees a lot of dark stuff when he’s out in the field, coming home to you is like a fresh vent of atmosphere. Your smile is always big, your touches always soft and gentle, and the love you express to him warms his spark to the very core.

- He loves your laugh and the way you talk and the sweet voice you can sing with. It reminds him of the happier, lighter things in life. Even on his hardest days, he just thinks of these unique qualities that on you can compose like this, and it helps him out of the dark spots.

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Megatron: is taken a back a little bit. He’s pretty bold and fore running when it comes to things, especially since he’s co-captaining a ship that’s over 10 miles long. He didn’t expect someone so shy and reserved to have come onto him like this. He does accept your advances though,  but it a little resentful. He hopes that his past and his more forward ways aren’t a displeasure to you. Maybe he can ease your shyness away a bit when you’re more comfortable with him? Either way, he accepts you the way you are. He also wants to make sure that you’re okay with the fact that he’s your captain. He doesn’t want to think he has some sway over your personal decisions. Work life and home life are two things he can easily separate, so he wants to make sure the two of you are on a level playing field when it comes to the more intimate aspects of your relationship.

Rodimus: has enough extroversion for the two of you. He doesn’t mind one bit that you’re on the shyer side, but it’s not going to stop him from being the big personality that he is. He understands if you being the center of a social situation isn’t ideal, that’s okay! He will make sure that you stay comfortable, but he isn’t going to give up being the life of the party. He has his time, where he draws his energy from being around people, and you have yours when your energy is pulled from alone time or just alone time with him. As long as you’re okay with him not changing much of his lifestyle, because he won’t change, then he’s a-okay with taking whatever-this-is-that-you-have-together to the next level.

Ultra Magnus: looks at this from a more logical stand point. He’s a man more driven by the outcome than the process, mostly because he needs to factor in if things are worth while. Judging by how he, too, loves having quiet time and attention to smaller details. He also hopes that he isn’t stepping over any boundaries as a leader of yours of sorts by accepting your advances. He wants to make sure that you are totally on board with everything and not just agreeing because you think you have to. Your introversion and shyness have no effect on him, if he even sees it at all, but he isn’t one for crowds or big parties in the first place. He enjoys sharing new reads that he finds with you in hopes that maybe on a date the two of you could just read together and then discuss the latest chapter with in depth conversation.

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