#blossoms.rambles

i love phil SO MUCH like oh my godidididid he is the Achilles heel someone could use to defeat me in battle idk what it is like it goes for both of them but phil specifically it just makes me so emotional seeing how much he’s grown into himself as a person a video of him just talking or moving or laughing in a particular way that reminds me of a version of him in like 2014 is just like an arrow to the heart every time especially when he talks about feeling more confident and comfortable in his own skin i feel like we talk about dan in terms of the hiatus a lot but I think it was really good for him as well even if he admitted to feeling slightly lost he brought back the gaming channel when they were ready and when we all needed it most I need to rewatch more Phil and phriends I just love confident pretty phil talking about random things and the way he writes in cactus club posts he is so smart and cool and funny and silly I love his laugh and the perfect phlondie

imagine being dan and phil… like imagine being two little guys and finding someone your person who just gets you for w everything you thought you were different for… figuring life out together and riding out crazy fast growing careers and public scrutiny and living together less than 2 years after you met and after like 7 or 8 years of all those days deciding that you want forever together and actually being in love the whole time and taking a much needed break from all those years of being a Brand together but still being together and branching out to do different still important things but then deciding to take another crack at it… for that audience that is smaller but still so fiercely loyal and real and deciding to do something again with it because you never do anything halfway and pouring your hearts and souls into this show that just says so much everything really about your relationship with each other, with us… making silly videos in your home together and just doing so much and always having something up your sleeves bc you’re crazy but having FUN so much fun doing it again bc it might not be that career Peak of a decade ago but it’s peak in so many other ways bc you’re happy and doing it authentically and engaging in foreplay on stage with your partner who you love but also travelling the world for the millionth time together and birthday brunches and coming home to order food and open packages and make coffee in your kitchen together and play video games and choose each other and a future with us as an audience again and again and again and

guys I can’t do this anymore I keep rewatching the tiktok like. dan really posted a video of phil who didn’t know he was being filmed walking through a door with a sign that says the most talented people walk through here with married life from the up soundtrack as his chosen background song. there’s no joke to be found there that’s simply some earnest shit that comes with the comfort and freedom and peace they feel now. this is the door being open, in my humble opinion. they’re not going to kiss in front of us (probably) or tell us actual personal details about their home and family but. they can and want to share the silly domestic anecdotes and make gay jokes about themselves and each other and can post orange hearts and little stories on their days out exploring and we’ll know. they know we know they’re real best friends companions through life actual soulmates ranch metaphors on their third world tour together just having fun because they can. for the joy of it all.

i know that I know and you know and we know that I know that you know that we all know but is anyone else dealing with remembering the fact that this is dan and phil. the same dan and phil from pre 2009 as little boys as chronically online as you could be in that era. to the dnp that met each other and got on amazingly in person and shared all the same interests and decided then and there they were gonna be intertwined for the rest of their lives the same dnp that moved into that flat in manchester the same dnp that were normal young adults that went to uni and were maybe a little lost about their futures the same dnp that were just tiny nerds but people liked them being themselves enough to host a radio show the same dnp that moved to the big city with no money just each other and a dream the same dnp that built a media empire through merch and books and tours but always doing everything for their audience and wanting to cement this crazy thing they’d built in history the same dnp that were maybe struggling on the inside but still committed to giving us the people what we wanted the same dnp that took time to themselves to learn who they were outside of the internet but always chose each other over and over again the same dnp that committed to a lifelong home together the same dnp that wanted to do another one of these tours and decided to come back to the gaming channel for the love and whimsy of it the dnp of today who are so lovely and special and cute as a matching pair of buttons maybe a little freaky but ultimately doing whatever the hell they want and putting so much love into it and at the end of the day it all comes back to their story. without the internet they never would have met. dan and phil against the world. even if that’s not the name of this tour and they’re terrible but also wonderful influences it’s always gonna be just the two of them

ik we joke about the incessant hand on shoulder moments and I genuinely can’t pin down either of their love languages bc their love for each other manifests in like every single way possible to me but. post near death experience i feel like they’re being so fr about the not taking anything for granted and just living life which has catapulted their comfort and open affection for each other and for dan that’s constant comforting touches or just being close to phil when he thought he would lose him at one point recently. they just absolutely light up around each other and i feel like dan got his time with wad but this will be phil’s first time really being out in the world and doing something post coming-out, post covid, and the way he’s emphasizing being more comfortable and confident in his own skin now i know that man is going to be absolutely glowing on stage, in m&gs, etc and dan (to a reasonable degree lol) won’t be able to keep his eyes off him. he absolutely shines with affection and pride any time he talks about phil’s blonde hair or phil believing in himself and I just. they’re made for each other and l can repeat it until I’m blue in the face but I’m just so excited to experience this new era with you all. they’re so so special and I feel so lucky to have witnessed their growth over so many years and how openly they love each other

thinking about how ever since they met there was a time period of a handful of months where the longest they would go without seeing each other was a week or two at a time and they publicly longed and yearned for each other every time they were separated and then their visits were defined by hometowns and train rides and then phil moved out and dan showed up and kept him and the longest they were apart from 2009 to 2022 was two and a half fucking weeks and then dan went on tour for 2 months and travelled across the world to make it back for phil’s birthday and oh god they’re literally inseparable

me personally I love seeing dnp be a little mean to each other sometimes bc. that’s what relationships are like. when phil was like “I kind of just wanna slap you rn” in the final dvp and they just start playing that game and having so much fun bc no matter what everyone thinks they are quite literally best friends first and we’ve established that that is so much more meaningful and important to dan who lacked that for most of his life, the (confirmed) romance and lifelong companionship part is just extra and fun. there’s literally dozens and dozens of examples of them being sickeningly sweet and expressing commitment to each other for the people who didn’t like this video bc it felt “forced” do people really think relatable has a gun to their head? they chose to do this. everything they’ve done since the comeback has been an intentional choice and this is pushing the door open a tiny bit more. you guys try thinking on your feet (when we have a whole archive/lexicon of phan knowledge but as they’ve said it’s a lot harder to remember tiny details of your own lives) being sincere to your partner of 15 years knowing there’s a camera on you and everything you say in whatever context is going to be zeroed in on, I think they’re allowed to cringe at themselves/each other a little bit when they spend all their time together anyways and know that they could spit out 15 compliments or make fun of each other but no one wants to be that earnest when they could just slip out at any other point of the day