#bloominglix

"A clear sky after a rainy night". ( Photos not edited.) Santiago, Chile 🇨🇱 - 05/10/2025 18:30pm~ 🕡

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been trying to do something to earn some money, but my health conditions aren't good enough to find a job, or for anyone to hire me. my dysautonomia is fucking me up, my brainfog is messing up with my confidence, and making me forget so much abt things i used to know how to do on my own. i'm even trying to sell my barely worn shoes, to at least have some money on my bank account, but no one wants them.

(and no, this isn't only abt Bubble)

i know english as if it were my first language, when i'm ESL, but even though i'm great at translating texts from spanish to english <--> english to spanish, no one will hire me bc i didn't study translation (was pushed to study gastronomy). wanna try tutor for english, but idk how to organize it.

tomorrow is the general sale, and the show will be the 1st show of the 2nd leg of the tour next year, 1st latam show, just after Hyunjin's bday and SKZ's 7th debut anniversary 😭😭😭

it will be MY FIRST CONCERT EVER!!!! I NEED TO GET A TICKET ㅠㅠ

(Yes i'm still a stay dw)

My life's been getting harder and harder. I'll tell you a bit. If you read this, please do it until the end. 🧸🩹

I've been feeling super sick for no apparent reason since i was very young, all my blood tests and medical exams in general showing that nothing's wrong with me. This year the doctors just told me i have "Chronic Gastritis", and that my vitamin B12 deficiency has no relation to it.

So i had to start doing my own research, and investigating while considering all my symptoms, i reached the conclusion (that i'm 99,9999% sure of) that it might be a form of Dysautonomia, a chronic condition.

It's super hard to get diagnosed for this, since there's barely a few doctors that know about Dysautonomia well enough to do it.

What 's making it worse for me, is that because of my symptoms I can't find a job in the areas i'm good at. Can't work a job related to what i studied (international gastronomy) because i would pass out for standing for too long.

Even though I'm really good at speaking English (2nd language), can translate things easily and I'm good at proofreading and editing documents, people won't hire me because I couldn't study translation. I can draw! good??? i don't think so, though i try my best, but i don't think it's worth selling or doing comissions.

Can't find a job in a supermarket, small store or a convenience store, since i can't carry heavy stuff, and they ask for experience for a cashier gig. I can get dizzy and dehydrated in any moment, and pass out, throw up, and my body starts to tremble.

Yes, i get tremors from it, my body and limbs start shaking all over the place no matter what i'm doing. It's hard to even put on my shoes, my legs start shaking and i can't push my feet into them, i have to literally grab my legs to control the tremors and take my time to put on the shoes and slippers.

My mom just found a job after job hunting for over 9 months, and my dad's been unemployed for a year now. I need to make money so i can help my mom pay for things, and i'm really getting annoyed at how people think i'm jobless and resting because i want to and that i'm "faking being sick" 😐

Also, this might sound stupid for some of you, but for the first time Stray Kids are coming to Chile, and it might be the only chance i have to see them in concert here. It'd be my first concert ever. I have money for a ticket, but I'd be using all my savings on it (already spent some of it on medical bills). Skz have helped me so much through this and through hard times, I can't not see them, I'd regret it my entire life if I let this chance pass.