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Only two more days till the weekend, but I dont think there will be as much exploring as I did last week! I like to try and fill my time as much as I can, I dont want to feel like I'm wasting time (even though I am really good at binge watching a full tv season in a day... 😂) . . One thing I want to try and improve on, and be productive with, is my blog life. I have let things slip really bad in the past 3 months. The more I dont post pics, write tweets, or upload blog posts, the more I feel like I shouldn't? I need to kick the weird negativity and take the plunge again. So maybe this is me returning to the life of a blogger? Hopefully see you all soon! #nonsuchpark #bloggingthoughts #scottishthistle #flowersoninsta #chattycaptionsclub #earlymorningthoughts #tryingtobeproductive #seeyousoon #bloggingreturn #sheffieldblogger #minitravel #lavendertintedworld #mltwcorner #travelbloggers #lifestyleblogs #happythoughtsonly #s8photography (at Nonsuch Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/B2BKNOBBTv8/?igshid=14lt18bbkm4t7

I don't know why...but I started to watch tarot readings about my star sign. Maybe because its accurate in a sense that 1 reading made me cry. Maybe I'll always do the tarot reading... kind of thankful a bit. It doesn't solve my personal problems though..but it gives me an idea on why this is happening to me. No wonder I'm obsess with anything about the stars.

After constant pleading for attention, love, caring, support and understanding of my situation now. He never even listen to it like me not listening to his. Until the day comes. He finally said the words I'm so afraid to hear. ''You always say what you feel but do you know what I feel? I feel like I live in four walls everywhere. I know, I've hurt you and I'm sorry for that. Please leave me alone.'' It became a silent arrow pierce in the middle of my chest. I can't say any words. It left me silent. I suddenly shutdown and began to hide again. No words to say or any attention to be given anymore. All gone and its because of my anxiety.

Someone says your lucky when you got a chance to work in a library or in a bookstore, but to me it's more like a never ending dust and paper cuts, book pyramiding, sorting, and soul draining job. Yeah there are pros too mostly you get to read any book of your choice in your free time. Buy books of your choice with an employee discount. You get the first dibs on the most beautiful new stock of book you like. Learn to cover it the professional way and the next time you go to other bookstore or library you already know the categories of books without asking the tenants or librarians. One tip I can share you can use Lighter oil to clean the book front and back. Regarding sides use sand paper. 🙈🙈🙈 やばい〜 しまった.

It's 4:05AM and I'm not sleeping. I'm just reading some articles and facts. Some random post online and also check how to get a certain random country visa for my country. I was so so random. Then I decided to cook some Kimchi Fried Rice (my favorite) this isn't too spicy coz I ran out of Gochujang(sadness). Sorry about the bad photography. I ruined the sunny side up egg. Which is errrrr. The coffee on the side...lets pretend I didn't make it. Oh well... I rarely drink coffee and this is the day I called rare. This random post is getting longer and longer. I hope everyone was ok. After this I don't know if I will sleep or not anymore.

Sorry if I feed on Code Blue posts. I'm just addicted to the series. Anyway I hope you had a good day. If not, do yourself a favour and sleep it out tomorrow is another day. Can't sleep? Eat sweets. There's a reason why it was sold in pieces anyway. To treat unhappy days. To feel a bit better...atleast

It's already 4:00 AM now and I'm listening to BTS... Save Me.. I guess I need someone to save me to sleep?! Don't usually listen to a lot of Korean Songs *I can't understand anything they say. My playlist is 98% Japanese Songs and 2% foreign Songs. I'm taking advantage of the time now coz I don't need to wake up early tomorrow. Well others are having holiday trip I was like maybe staying at home and watch pending Japanese Series and Play Tekken with my brother again. Or maybe sleep..deep slumber.. This post is so random. oh well Let's call it a night. おやすみなさい 皆さん！（*＾-＾*）ノ~~ﾏﾀﾈｰ