#bleeehhhhhhhhhh

I wish I could laugh and be myself around them again...

I wish I wasn't myself so they would like me again.

I wish they didn't hate me for doing nothing wrong and just expressing my thoughts over how I'm currently feeling at the time.

Ah well, can't help it that people just get tired of me I guess...just kinda miss 'em sometimes...

But then I remember that they're all probably better off without me and don't even remember me anymore. Everyone kinda forgets me after a while, it's a given. And I'm used to it, I really am. If they hate me and don't want to remember me anymore I'm completely okay with that, I've moved on. I no longer blame myself and no longer put myself down.

I'm thankful for them giving me a helpful push out of who I used to be. I really wish I wasn't afraid to tell them that though...

welp welp it's okay I guess