Exhaustion was setting in- a new feeling for Biker. Heād been running around the city for days now under his new bossās orders, looking for something he would generally not give a fuck about. Some briefcase carrying something extraordinarily boring, most likely. But what the boss said was what the boss got...
Heād had a lot of time to reflect on his and Lebedevās agreement. What had started as an adrenaline fueled suggestion had become a legitimate job offer after the shootout in the alleyway; the mobster knew his men were practically useless at keeping him safe and, although he could take perfect care of himself, he could do with the extra muscle. Biker could do with the protection, too, now that he felt like a target for those heād been jerked around by. He was no coward, he was simply cautious.
Or thatās what he told himself, anyway.
The job didnāt come without its insecurities, of course, and thatās what had been keeping him on edge. Lebedev still had no idea who he was, what heād done. He worried one night heād drunkenly admit to being with the Blessings, to killing all those men, and that heād find himself in hotter water than before. He worried heād have to fight his new boss for his life, which wouldnāt be a problem if the man werenāt so unpredictable. Heād fired a hail of bullets upon men with an injured hand, for fuckās sake.Ā
Not only that, but heād begun to sort of like the guy.
Fear for his own safety was accompanied by his fear of failure, as well as feelings that came close to guilt. Did he regret killing all those men? Not exactly, it had been his thrill fulfillment at the time (putting it that way almost made him sick). Did he regret blindly getting involved with a bunch of fascists and almost losing his life due to it? Yes, that he regretted. He regretted his own stupidity, and he regretted that now said stupidity could threaten the only stability he had in his life at present.
That was the positive. Lebedev had unknowingly pulled Biker from a dark place, a place where heād be consumed by paranoia and boredom and lack of self worth and would drink himself into a coma. Now he had purpose, and it was the dumbest purpose in the world- protecting a man who hardly needed it, running stupid errands for him, aiding the Russians when heād been unknowingly trying to ruin them before- but by god, it kept him busy.
He didnāt want to lose that.
Walking into the building as the last rays of sun warmed the tiles, he made his way past the henchmen littering the hallways (colleagues, he thought to himself, and nearly laughed about it), briefcase in hand, before heading right into his employerās office, doing his best not to lean on any surfaces.Ā
Three days without sleep looking for this stupid thing. He threw the case right onto the couch. Whatever was inside could suck it.