Bivirās character questionaire
Ā 1.Ā Ā Ā Ā What is your name?
Biviristuon of the Metias Tribe
2.Ā Ā Ā Ā Do you have any nicknames? If you do, who gave it to you and why?
Bivir ā Solange had a great amount of difficulty pronouncing my full name, so I shortened it. It caught on, and it grew on me.
3.Ā Ā Ā Ā How old are you now?
4.Ā Ā Ā Ā Where do you call home now?
5.Ā Ā Ā Ā To what social class do you belong?
In my tribe, there are none of those, really. We live as a community. Here? I suppose my social class would be āFaraveni elfā
6.Ā Ā Ā Ā What is your eye color?
They are grey, like my motherās.
7.Ā Ā Ā Ā What is your hair color?
Black, like my motherās, but straight, like my fatherās.
8.Ā Ā Ā Ā Do you have any distinguishing facial features?
I have a birthmark on my lower lip and a deep scar across my nose. Also, I think being beautiful is a very distinguishing feature.
9.Ā Ā Ā Ā Do you have any birthmarks? Where are they?
A good amount ā some on my hands, arms, torso, one on my face ā many to count.
10.Ā Do you have any scars? How did you get them?
There are the shackle marks on my wrists and ankles, and thereās the scar across my nose from harassing a merchant. There is also a deep scar on my lower back, from a situation four and a half years back.
11.Ā Do you have any tattoos or other markings? How and why did you get them?
No, but I cannot wait to get some.
12.Ā Do you have any allergies, diseases, or other physical weaknesses?
I am allergic to strawberries! And having lost fingers has sucked thus far.
13.Ā Are you right or left handed?
14.Ā What does your voice sound like?
My voice is a little on the low side, and my accent is pretty thick when I speak common. I speak with firmness and decisiveness.
15.Ā How do you dress most of the time?
As little as possible, haha! It intimidates those who would be apprehensive, and intrigues those who are interested.
16.Ā How do you dress up?
A vest to hide the scar on my back, some pretty jewelry. I think that will be fine.
17.Ā How do you dress down?
Putting on a shirt. It makes me much plainer.
18.Ā What do you wear when you go to sleep?
Very little! Usually just underwear.
19.Ā Do you wear any jewelry?
There are ten piercings on my ears and one on my nose. I also have some necklaces I sometimes wear. I try to consider my bracers jewelry.
20.Ā What words and/or phrases do you use frequently?
Variety is the most lovely gift that can be given to someone ā I try to make each word new. It is difficult, in Commonā¦.
21.Ā Do you have any quirks, strange mannerisms, annoying habits, or other defining characteristics?
I would rather not think I do, but I suppose it might irritate people if they think I do not take anything seriously. I do ā I just choose what I consider actually important and take that seriously. Other things ā if you take everything seriously, then you will live a life stressed and joyless.
22.Ā Do you have any bad habits? If so, what are they and how do you plan to get rid of them?
I tug on my hair ā but Iāve learned to instead tug on my clothes. Sometimes I forget, though, you know?
23.Ā Do you have a lifelong dream or aspiration?
An elven life is a long thing ā I must first take my short and long term goals and make them reality, for if I abandon my simpler goals in order for a lifelong aspiration, then everything between now and itās completion will be so empty and meaningless. I would rather be happy with my current goals.
24.Ā Do you own a car (or other form of transportation)? Why or why not? Describe it.
25.Ā What is your current state of mind?
Bad! Very bad. But it would be much worse without my friends here. I cannot imagine what Iād do without them.
Ā 26.Ā How close are you to your family?
My whole tribe is my family ā and I know them all very well and care for them deeply. I wish they did not place so much importance in me ā they expect the greatest things of me, they believe I am fated for greatness, but I care for them all deeply.
27.Ā Do you have a spouse or significant other? Describe them.
Ah, no, Iām afraid not. But one day I will, yes? And that lucky, lucky person will know how loved they are every moment.
28.Ā Have you started your own family? Describe them if you do. If not, do you want to? Why or why not?
One day, perhaps. If who Iām with would like one, of course. Otherwise, I will simply bolster the raising of my cousinsā children.
29.Ā Who was your Father and what was he like?
He is a quiet, calm city elf. And he is alive! He cannot hear well, and he likes plants. He brought some seeds from his faraway city, and he grows them in little pots. He is not the most productive member of the tribe, since he gets stressed easily and breaks down, but he does what he can when he can.
30.Ā Who was your Mother and what was she like?
She is also alive. She is very pretty and full of life, and she is the tribeās woodshaper. We do not have much wood available, but she makes do with what we have and trade for.
31.Ā Who are you closest to in your family?
I have no siblings, so my mother.
32.Ā Is there someone in your family you wish you were closer to?
My younger cousins ā they look up to me, but it is hard to get close to them when they expect me to be the most important person the tribe will ever produce.
33.Ā What was your parentās marriage like?
They never got married, but they are still together.
34.Ā Did they remain married? If not, how did that affect you? When did they split?
They were never marriedā¦.
35.Ā Do you have any siblings? What are/were they like?
36.Ā What is the worst thing one of your siblings ever did to you?
37.Ā Whatās the worst thing youāve ever done to one of your siblings?
38.Ā Whenās the last time you saw a member of your family? Where are they now? Ā
Some five years and change. They are likely to still be in the hunting grounds ā they do not have a particularly large range, since Faraven is small.
39.Ā Did you meet any other family members? (Aunts Uncles, etc) Describe them.
My entire clan is my family ā how would you describe your entire world?
Ā Part Three: Friends and Relationships with Others
Ā 40.Ā In general, how do you treat other people that you have just met?
Treat strangers very well, with open arms and heart ā that is how you will make friends and allies. Otherwise opens yourself to making enemies.
41.Ā Does your treatment of people change depending on how well you know them and if so how?
Of course ā once I am someoneās friend, I am their friend for life. I give everyone my trust, but to know someone well is to have my loyalty.
42.Ā Who is the most important person in your life and why?
I think of my friends as the most important people in my life.
43.Ā Who is the person you respect the most and why?
Myself. Because if I do not respect me, who else will? And I am worthy of respect.
44.Ā Who are your friends? Describe them.
There is Vita, moody but smart. She is full of determination, very intelligent, and incredibly firm. She isnāt great at having fun, but she seems to like making sure everyoneās taken care of. There is Solange, beautiful but horrifyingly serious. She rarely has fun, and seems to disdain trying to have it. I worry for her and keep a close eye. Alex is good fun, impulsive but sweet, and he is probably the only of my friends who I need to be sure to rein in, out of fear for his health. He does get difficult about that, at times. Evania, his sister, is a good balance to me, she is determined and just, though I do not know her well yet I am eager to know her better.
46. Do you have a best friend? Describe them.
I would say Aster is my closest friend ā together we can have great fun, but we can also support each other when we need it. It is good to have him!
47. Who would you turn to if you were in desperate need of help?
Depends on the trouble. If I needed healing, Aster. If I needed defense, Solange. If I were in economic trouble, Alex. If I needed more practical help, Vita. If I needed someone to back me up, Evania.
48. Do you trust anyone to protect you? Who and why?
I would trust any of my friends to.
49. If you died or went missing, who would miss you?
I certainly hope everybody would! It would make me very sad if they did not.
50. Who is the person you despise the most, and why?
51. Do you tend to argue with people or avoid conflict?
I avoid arguing ā I prefer to talk through the logic of the other and deconstruct it if I need to.
52. Do you tend to take on leadership roles in social situations?
53. Do you like interacting with large groups of people? Why or why not?
I love it! To be surrounded by people gives me great energy.
54. Do you care what others think of you?
Of course I do ā if you are hated by all, what is the point of being where you are? When that is just ruining everyoneās time.
55. What habit do others have that annoys you the most?
I do not like people who whistle. It hurts my ears.
56. What is the most important quality you look for in a friend?
A good heart. That is vital ā if there is poison hidden there, that can spread to those around you.
57. What do you most value in your friends?
I value their individuality. They are very different, and their difference makes me love them fiercely and differently as individuals.
Ā Part Four: Growing Up (Childhood)
Ā 58. Where were you born?
A little hut on the northern coast of Dimp. I didnāt survive, but I was alright afterwards.
59. Where did you grow up?
The northern coast of Dimp!
60. How would you describe your childhood in general?
Ah, it was very pressured. They expected great things from me, since I survived death itself.
61. What is your earliest memory?
My mother, telling me how important I was.
62. What is your fondest childhood memory?
Hmm, I would like it very much when there would be soups and we would wrap ourselves in blankets and my mother would sing. It happened many times, but each time was a good time.
63. What is your worst childhood memory?
How harshly I was punished after faking difficulty reading for thirty yearsā¦.
64. As a child, what did you want to be when you grew up?
I have always wanted to be an artist.
65. As a child, what were your favorite activities?
I took to dance like birds take to air, but I also loved helping my mother with her woodworking.
66. As a child, what kinds of personality traits did you display?
I was very serious! It made me miserable, but seriousness was what was expected of me.
67. As a child, were you popular? Who were your friends, and what were they like?
I wouldnāt say this question is very applicable.
68. As a child, what was your favorite toy?
I had a wooden bird my mother carved me. It was made of such thin, lightweight wood, that on windy days, I could fly it like a kite.
69. As a child, what was your favorite game to play?
My father would always play signed word games with me. We would make silly stories by slurring signs together and whoever laughed first lost.
Ā Part Five: Growing Up (Teen/Young Adult)
Ā 70. How much schooling have you had?
I would not call it schooling, but I was taught.
71. Did you enjoy school?
No! I hated it, especially at first. But as I grew, I got more and more intrigued with what knowing things was like.
72. Where did you learn most of your skills and other abilities?
From the individuals most advanced in those skills, within the tribe. My mother taught me her woodwork, the master hunter taught me the weapons I learned and how to work with animal corpses. Our master herbalist taught me medicine, and our ceremonial dancer taught me dance.
73. While growing up, did you have any role models other than your parents? Describe them.
Role models are to be found in almost everyone. I would think itās foolish to limit yourself to oneās parents, or to only specific people around you. Most everyone has traits worth emulation.
74. While growing up, how did you get along with the other members of your family?
The pressure was difficult. Ā But I loved them all the same.
75. How old were you when you went on your first date? Describe the date.
I wouldnāt really say Iāve been on any real dates. Though not for lack of trying.
76. What is your favorite memory from your teen years?
I would say my happiest memory from adolescence was being bequeathed an herbalistās pouch and tools of my own, having been deemed finally good enough with the tools of the trade to have warranted my very own.
77. What is your worst memory from your teen years?
I had made a foolish mistake while hunting, and was nearly run off a cliff by a large boar. The master hunter tore into me verbally, so loudly they heard it in the village ā how I was their hope for the future, and how I could not die without performing my destiny. Everyone was furious at me. I left not long after. Iāll return when theyāve forgiven, I suppose.
78. When and with whom was your first kiss?
Some five years or so ago, on the top-top of a clock tower, with my friend Solange.
79. Are you a virgin? If not, when and with whom did you lose your virginity?
Not terribly long after the kiss, with Solange.
80. Describe any influences in your past that led you to do the things you do today.
Everything was shaped by my death. It made a strong impression, apparently.
Ā Part Six: Past Influences
Ā 81. What do you consider the most important event of your life so far?
My decision to leave to seek a lover certainly made a huge difference. Well, more specifically, being captured shortly afterā¦
82. Who has had the most influence on you?
My mother ā it is not hard to tell.
83. What do you consider your greatest achievement?
NHAAS. I am proud of what itās become.
84. What is your greatest regret?
I am currently regretting needing to leave NHAAS ā though I will never regret doing what Iāve done to get it where it is.
85. What is the most evil thing you have ever done?
Evil is a manner of perspective. From some peopleās perspectives? Destruction of property. From mine? Stealing a peach from the NHAAS pantry after a long dayās work.
86. Do you have a criminal record of any kind?
Certainly. But I do not consider what I have done very bad.
87. When was the time you were the most frightened?
It is either when I was captured by slavers, or when I was restrained by Merab city guards, or when I was captured by Jeanā¦ I seem to get captured often. That is something I need to work on.
88. What is the most embarrassing thing that ever happened to you?
I consider it very embarrassing when I am sleeping platonically with a friend and wake up with a raging erection.
89. If you could change one thing from your past, what would it be, and why?
Hmmmā¦ Not sure. I happen to like my life, and everything has a ripple effect.
90. What is your best memory?
When I first started getting a good grasp on Common, I decided to go with Vita to help shopping, and her face lit up when I told the grocer exactly what she needed in perfect common. Her face lit up and that is not a gift I often see.
91. What is your worst memory?
Ah, probably the surgery after the situation nearly five years back. I was not allowed anesthesia because they wanted to save that for non-elves, and when I pulled out my own numbing medicines, they refused to treat me if I used them. It was very painful.
92. When and where were you the happiest?
I am happiest among my friends, where I can be happy and free.
Ā Part Seven: Beliefs and Opinions
Ā 93. Are you optimistic or pessimistic?
94. What is your greatest fear?
What is fear but an extension of insecurities? I am afraid that I am not enough.
95. Have you told any one your fear before?
No ā because then they would feel they have not done enough for me.
96. Who would be the one person youād never tell your fear?
Solange. She is, in part, one who has caused it.
97. What are your religious views?
It seems overrated, but many think I am special on a religious level. I do not really approve or agree.
98. What are your political views?
All should have as they need. Hierarchies for the sake of hierarchies need to be dissembled. Thatās all there is to it.
99. What are your views on sex?
If it is mutually desired, go on and have it. Keep it safe, and continuously check in.
100. Are you able to kill?
Iā¦ do not know. Recently I came close. The thought puts a bad taste in my mouth, but I have killed animals before.
101. Under what circumstances do you find killing to be acceptable or unacceptable?
I need to reassess how I feel about the thought.
102. In your opinion, what is the most evil thing any human being could do?
To disempower someone in any way.
103. Do you believe in the existence of soulmates and/or true love?
Of course I do ā and I cannot wait to experience it.
104. What do you believe makes a successful life?
To, when youāre finished with it, be at peace with the decisions youāve made.
105. How honest are you about your thoughts and feelings? (Meaning do you hide your true self from others and in what way?)
I do hide how I feel ā frequently for the sakes of others.
106. Do you have any biases or prejudices?
I grow more and more afraid of humans every time I have a run-in. From what Iāve seen ā they rarely stand up for their fellows.
107. Is there anything you absolutely refuse to do under any circumstances? Why?
Under any circumstances would limit me.
108. Who or what, if anything, would you die for? (or go to extremes for?)
If I had to die for NHAAS to continue, or get stronger, I would.
109. What is your best feature, in your opinion?
Well, once, it was my hands. Now I suppose it should be my eyes.
110. What do you think of drugs and alcohol? Are there any types that people should never do? Why or why not?
Everything in moderation ā and with care taken. I do get weak at times, myselfā¦
111. What is your idea of perfect happiness?
To have a simple life, to be satisfied with your direction, to know who you are and where youāre going.
112. What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?
When everything is complicated, to feel like you have not, and will never, do enough, to be filled with questions, and to be alone.
Ā Part Eight: Likes and Dislikes
Ā 113. What is/are your favorite hobbies and pastimes?
Dance is my passion! I also enjoy woodcarving and being social.
114. What is your most treasured possession?
I treasure my herbalism pouch.
115. What is your favorite color? Why?
I like soft, light greens. They are calming and serene.
116. What is your least favorite color? Why?
I do not like mauve ā it is a very violent feeling color.
117. What is your favorite food? Why?
A Thuvian dish called bouillabaisse has grown on me ā I love fish very dearly, and find soups and stews comforting.
118. What is your least favorite food? Why?
Strawberries! They make it very hard to breathe.
119. What is your favorite sound? Why?
I like the sound of waves on the shore. It reminds me of home.
120. What is your least favorite sound? Why?
People whistling. It hurts my earsā¦.
121. What is your favorite smell/scent? Why?
The smell of soap. If I am close enough to someone to smell soap, then everything is going well.
122. What is your least favorite smell/scent? Why?
Anything regarding restrooms. It makes me nauseous!
123. What, if anything, do you like to read?
I enjoy a good book ā nonfiction, usually, if itās something entertaining, little-known, or medical.
124. What is your idea of good entertainment?
All you need is good company and a good mood. Anything else is an added bonus. To salvage a bad mood, all you need is me and a song.
125. How do you spend a typical Saturday night?
Hard working for the NHAAS ā or dancing. Depends what is needed.
126. What makes you laugh?
Just being in a good mood is enough!
127. What makes you laugh out loud, hysterically?
I enjoy a good joke as much as anyone.
I do not cry. Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā
129. What makes you cry, hysterically?
130. What, if anything, shocks or offends you?
I am shocked most by violence.
131. What would you do if you couldnāt sleep and had to find something to amuse yourself?
132. How do you deal with stress?
133. Are you spontaneous or do you always need to have a plan?
I can come up with a plan spontaneously, if need be.
134. What are your pet peeves?
Whistling! And also people not washing their hands.
135. Where do you go when youāre angry or depressed?
Anywhere where I can dance the night away!
136. What do you do when youāre bored?
137. What type of music do you like? Favorite bands or musicians?
Anything Aster plays is the best in my book- because not only is it good, it was made by a friend, and then I am also proud.
139. What song is āyour songā? Why?
142. What is your favorite stage play? Why?
143. What is your least favorite stage play? Why?
Still havenāt seen any.
144. What is your favorite book? Why?
Mmm, I generally enjoy a little pocket guide to birds, because it is always nice to knowā¦ Birds.
145. What is your least favorite book? Why?
I do not like books about the Thuvian machines! I tried to learn so I could also help Vita, if she were hurt, but they hurt my head and were far out of my realm of experience.
149. What annoys you more than anything else?
Have I mentioned I hate it when people whistle.
150. What time of day is your favorite? Why?
Around 11pm! A great time for sex ā you can just go to sleep after cleaning up and everything feels very good when you wake up.
151. What time of day is your least favorite? Why?
3am ā if I am awake then, it means Iāve had a particularly bad nightmare and am exhausted enough that I cannot sleep.
152. What kind of weather is your favorite? Why?
Rain! It is a good time to gather everyone and simply talk.
153. What kind of weather is your least favorite? Why?
When the sun beams down! It is miserable.
154. What is the most beautiful thing you have ever seen?
I have seen all around Merab from the top of itās clock tower ā it is stunning, especially on a clear or foggy day.
155. What is the most awful thing you have ever seen?
Likely, my own severed fingers.
156. What is your favorite drink? Why?
I like a good red wine, and fruit juices as well. Then again, from a certain point of view, wine is fruit juice...
157. What is your least favorite drink? Why?
Beer. It is horribly bitter.
158. What is your favorite animal? Why?
I find the cutest things to be Chinchillas. I would maybe like one as a pet, given the opportunity.
159. What is your least favorite animal? Why? Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā
160. What sorts of things embarrass you?
Morning wood is triply embarrassing when you wake up from a nightmare.
Ā 161. Describe a normal day for you.
I do not have much of a routine ā I do what needs to be done, when it needs to be done.
162. How do you feel when your routine is disrupted?
Once it is disrupted, I find a new pattern to settle into. No big loss!
163. What is your greatest strength as a person?
164. What is your greatest weakness?
I amā¦ incredibly loving.
165. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
Changing perfection seems like a great folly to me.
166. Are you generally introverted or extroverted?
Extroverted. Itās a bit obvious.
167. Are you generally organized or messy?
Pretty organized, Iād say.
168. Name three things you consider yourself to be very good at.
Ah? I would say that I am good with people, good with art, and good at thinking through things.
169. Name three things you consider yourself to be very bad at.
Being straightforward with feelings, arguing, and pulling myself together.
170. What are your reasons for being an adventurer or heroic? Are your real reasons different than the ones you tell other people in public? If so, detail both reasons.
I would not consider myself an adventurer or heroic ā only someone who goes where they will go and do what needs doing.
171. What three words best describe your personality?
172. What three words would others probably use to describe you?
Extroverted, personable, artistic?
173. What about you is heroic?
Did I mention I do not think of myself heroic? I did.
174. Are you a better leader or follower? Why?
I am a leader ā I make decisions when decisions need to be made, and I am good with people.
175. What is your responsibility to the world? Why?
It is everyoneās responsibility to do anything they can to contribute to the wellbeing of all.
176. What do you like about yourself?
I have a good heart, Iām, physically speaking, stunning, and I am a good artist.
177. What donāt you like about yourself?
I think that I am possibly, probablyā¦ difficult to love.
178. What do you find most relaxing? (not stress relief, but something that actually calms you down.)
Dancingā¦ It is what clears my mind.
179. What talent would you most like to have?
I would like my woodcarving talent back.
Ā Part Ten: Occupation & Finance
Ā 180. What is your occupation? (If you donāt have one, where does your money come from?)
I do odd jobs for my friends, most of the time. There are not many in Thuvia willing to hire a Faraveni elf, and I prefer doing things for people I like, anyway.
181. Do you like your job?
Yes. It is very flexible, and I prefer working for those I trust.
182. What is your boss/employer like?
183. What are your co-workers like?
184. Do you get along with your co-workers?
185. Which co-workers donāt you get along with and why?
How dare you imply I donāt get along with my friends.
186. What is something you had to learn that you hated?
Ah, working with the forge is a real pain. It is unpleasantly hot and needs cleaning oftenā¦
187. Do you tend to save or spend your money? Why?
I tend to give my spare to NHAASā¦ So.
188. If you were to gain an obscenely large sum of money, what would you do with it?
Hm. Well, there are some magical objects Iāve always heard of and wanted to acquireā¦ But other than that? NHAAS.
Ā Part Eleven: Drug & Alcohol
Ā 189. Do you smoke, drink, or use drugs? If yes, why? Do you want to quit?
I do drink, and I have managed pain with herbs in the past. But only socially and medicallyā¦ Mostly.
190. How old were you when you had your first drink? Did you like it? Why or why not? I was roughly 94, and I did like it ā weād gotten it as a bonus for having a good trading relationships with some merchants, and we split it among everyone. I was not yet accustomed to it, and spat out my sip. However, I liked the smell, and proceeded to sniff it until my mother confiscated it.
191. How old were you when you first got drunk? What was the experience like?
Much older ā 119, and it wentā¦. Alright. I was a bit of a lightweight, so it happened quickly. A drinking contest with Solange, yes? Well, she drank me under the table, and I blacked out in short order.
192. Do you drink on a regular basis?
193. What kind of alcohol do you prefer?
194. Have you ever tried any kind of āmood alteringā substance? Which ones? Describe the experience.
Weed, certainly. Mostly for medical reasons.
Ā Part Twelve: Sex & Intimacy
Ā 195. Have you ever been in love? What happened?
196. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes ā one doesnāt need to be in love to feel heartbreak.
197. Would you consider yourself straight, gay, bi, or something else? Why?
198. Who was the first person you had sex with? When did it happen? Describe the experience.
It was Solange, again, and I would rather not describe it given recent events.
199. Have you ever had a same-sex experience? Describe the experience.
200. What is your deepest, most well-hidden sexual fantasy? Would you ever try it?
I ā what? I donāt really consider it hidden, but Iāve always been interested in the possibility of a session that is entirely me going down on someone. Just to show I care, yes?
201. What was the wildest thing you have done, sexually? Describe the experience.
The wildest thing Iāve ever done is try reading some of Alexās porn. It wasā¦ bad. As an experience. I did not enjoy it. I do not ever want to repeat that experience. I got a little nauseous.
202. Is there any sexual activity that you enjoy and/or practice that can be considered non-standard? Why do you like it?
I wouldnāt know what is and isnāt standard, given that I havenāt really explored overmuch.
203. Do you currently have a lover? Describe them, what you are attracted to, and what the relationship is like.
I would currently say no ā I suppose Aster might qualify, but I donāt really think, at this point in my life, that Iām quite recovered enough to continue having one at the moment.
204. What is the perfect romantic date?
To spend an evening together, eat, dance, talk! Then go home and spend more time together. End the night with some form of passion ā I would most enjoy simply to kiss. Anything else can come after.
205. Describe your perfect partner.
Someone firm and grounded, but not unkind. Someone reliable, who I can open up to, someone who really, sincerely does want me. Someone who isnāt upset at how much I like to lay back and enjoy life.
206. Do you ever want to get married? When do you see this happening?
I would like to, certainly. The timeframe entirely depends on fate, I suppose.
207. Do you want children? Why or why not?
Eventually, certainly. I very much enjoy having family, and would like more of it. I think I would be good to have, as a parent.
208. What is more important, sex or intimacy? Why?
Intimacy. I know that answer will surprise, but it is true. I do not see much point in sex other than children or as a vessel for intimacy or passion. Or as a vessel for attempting intimacy or passion.
209. What was your most recent romantic relationship like? Who was it with?
I would not categorize any relationship Iāve been is as romantic.
210. Whatās the worst thing youāve done to someone you love?
ā¦Hrm. I have not been in love, but I love those I surround myself with. I have probably spent a disproportionate amount of time telling Alex in far from privacy that no, eggs are actually pretty gross.
Ā Part Thirteen: Morality
Ā 211. What one act in your past are you most ashamed of?
To feel shame is a wasted day.
212. What one act in your past are you most proud of?
I am proud of forming NHAAS.
213. Have you ever been in a physical fight before? Over what, with who, and who won?
Of course ā Iāve won some, Iāve lost most, but I fight for what I consider important.
214. What do you feel most strongly about?
I feel strongly about my place in the world ā to go where I am led by my own nature and by things out of my control.
215. What do you pretend to feel strongly about, just to impress people?
I have, many times, pretended to have a very cultured wine palate to attempt impressing Thuvians. Turns out that you can fake it until you get there.
216. What trait do you find most admirable and how often do you find it?
Good people are rare, it seems, but Iāve found many, especially recently.
217. Is there anything you think should not be incorporated into the media or arts? (i.e., sex, violence, etc). What and why or why not?
For art to be violent is, in itself, a form of violence, and I would like there to be less of it.
218. Do you think the future is hopeful? Why or why not?
Yes ā there is always hope, and things are not irredeemably bad yet. I suppose itās in my name.
219. Do you think redemption is possible? Why or why not?
Redemption is always possible unless it is not desired.
220. Is there something you think is absolutely unforgivable? What is it?
I consider torture or bondage of any form to be unforgivable.
221. Is it okay for men to cry?
Whatās a men? Also, certainly.
222. Is it okay for you to cry?
223. What do you think is wrong with most people, overall?
They do not care enough about others.
224. What is the worst thing you could ever do to someone you hated?
ā¦.I do not fully understand the question. I suppose, within my own ethicsā¦ Ask them to a date and stand them up.
225. Do you have feelings that disturb you? What and why?
Of course. I find my own sorrow quite disturbing.
226. On what occasions do you lie?
To ask how I feelā¦ I find that very personal.
227. Do you think it is okay to lie?
Ā Part Fifteen: Goals and Future
Ā 235. What goal do you most want to accomplish in your lifetime?
Ah, I do not like setting imperative goals. Though, finding someone so that I can return home is beginning to sound good.
236. Where do you see yourself in five years?
Such a short time? That is hard to say.
237. If you could choose, how would you want to die?
Hmmā¦ That is hard to say. Something quick, but I would be conscious and know. I would not want to die unaware that I am dying.
238. If you knew you were going to die in 24 hours, name three things you would do in the time you had left.
That is frightening! A day is far too short to get anything done at all!
239. What is the one thing for which you would most like to be remembered after your death?
To have been really, and truly good to have had.
Ā 240. If you could, what advice would you, the hero, give to the villain? Or If you could, why would you, the villain want the hero to be at your side or part of your team?
I would not call myself a hero.
241. What was the worst injury youāve ever received? How did it happen?
I was stabbed in the back, very painfully, and I do not enjoy talking about it.
242. How ticklish are you? Where are you ticklish?
I am ticklish in the feet. Do not touch my feet!
243. What would you wish for if you ever found a genie?
Wishes? I suppose this would be the classic three wishes. Hmmā¦ I would want Giselle LaRue to die, I would destroy the concept of capitalism, and I would use my last wish to bring back my fingers ā I do not agree with how they were taken.
244. If your house burned down, what one thing would you want to save?
245. Describe yourself sitting in your favorite spot.
I lean back with horrible posture, one knee on where I sit, an arm slung on top, one over the edge of the chair. I am alert and attractive, and my eyes are bright.
246. How do you go to sleep and how do you wake up? (position, routine, etc)
I do not enjoy talking about sleeping.
247. What is a dream (during sleep) that you have often?
248. What is a day dream that you have often?
249. If you were to die and come back as any person or thing, what or who would you want to be?
Myself? Iāve done that before, I can and will do it again.
To repeat yourself is trite.
251. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be and why?
Back in Faraven! I havenāt been many other places, and Thuvia isā¦. Terrible.
253. If you could go back to any point in history and change something, what would it be?
I do not wish to change the fated course of history.
