#binary mind

whatever you thought of her I have already nothing surprised me  but I wonder how tonight how she will feel in the future  she is focused on the feeling  feeling of escaping

gratifying it is  sweet it is  tasting him and feeling never more alive feeling him inside her and never feeling more real than that moment 

this escape has never been more awesome for her, forget her realities this is everything….

or perhaps it was inevitable  or perhaps she didn’t want it  she wanted to escape and maybe he took it too far

tell me the story of a girl that’s in lust and I’ll show you her two sides that once was  once innocent and careful, assertive and confident

now guilty and carefree  vulnerable and dismayed 

the ecstasy subsides  her eyes open she sobers up  would it be could it  a catharsis?

but even if you would call her a slut,  she doesn’t deserve to get fucked like she did tonight  this hurt is going too far for me and her  and I ask myself on why do I still care for her she was never mine to begin with and I can’t see her the same way anymore

worst of all, I let her go  I knew what was going to happen  and I didn’t do anything to stop it 

yet I knew what she was going to say  I’m only existing in a place where she wants me to be  nothing more  nothing less

I’m stuck now waiting for tomorrow  done with the idea of her