#billmclain

"what i want, more than anything…more than dope, or sex, or money, or travel…more than immortality…more than the sweet hand of death…what i want the most is that feeling you have when you have just weeped for an hour without stopping to rest…the kind of tears that just come whether you want them to or not…the tears that can’t be stopped…that empty feeling you get because you have grieved everything you have been carrying around inside of you so thoroughly that it just disappears….and for a moment or two peace comes like the silence after a bloody war…your soul just sits, clean and pure, waiting for something new to replace all of that pain you just expelled…"