#bhmhhcheck

- Maximillion Harris

I've discovered how much I hate lockdowns. And how intimidating and scary they are. Sure, its kind of quiet for once, which is nice. But after a little while, the quiet becomes too much. Almost deafening.

I've been feeling a little more at ease here. That kind of scares me. Im usually alone all of the time but since I came here I've slowly been spending a lot more time with other people. I met a really nice girl called Sierra. Despite the fact that she is a serial killer, she is actually really sweet. Its nice to have a friend. Well, I think we are friends.

I don't see the point in being forced into writing in this. Do you people honestly think that I am actually going to write how I'm feeling in here? If I was going to keep a journal, it would be a private one. I prefer my thoughts to be kept private.

This week I've been trying a lot of new things. Its scary, but Im really happy. I feel like I've finally started growing up. Stopped acting like such a child and realised that I can't stay this way forever. Sure, I had an anxiety attack this week, but I can deal with that. Im used to dealing with that. If it means that I can start getting better, then so be it. There are a lot of new people that I've met, and some of them are really nice. Im sad that they have to come here for their various reasons but Im also really happy that I get to meet some of these people.