#bhells

            it’s   not   quite   a   smile   .   mouth   is   twisted   up   ,   even   a   quick   flash   of   white   teeth   ;   he’s   gone   through   all   the   motions   of   smiling   .   each   and   every   step   .   it   still   doesn’t   work   /   doesn’t   look   or   feel   right   .   too   BITTERSWEET   .   too   guilty   .   haunted   by   actions   and   mistakes   and   ghosts   .   by   a   pile   of   letters   on   a   countertop   as   they   left   before   dawn   even   broke   .   some   had   been   THICKER   than   others   ,   and   even   he   can   admit   there   hadn’t   been   enough   in   @bhells​   .   some   part   of   them   is   surprised   she   even   came   ...   and   some   part   of   him   just   can’t   find   the   words   .   to   reassure   (   lie   )   that   she   hadn’t   or   deliver   the   blunt   truth   .   he   lost   himself   too   .   those   words   SCARRED   into   his   hand   were   a   contradiction   ,   a   lie   themselves   ,   the   unseen   lesson   a   reminder   that   he   must   not   tell   the   truth   .      “   better   or   for   worse   ,   you   thought   WRONG   .   i’m   right   here   .   forever   this   time   .   ”      

we’re back to watching s.cream season 2 and yeah maybe smth happened to noah that gave me randy war flashbacks what abt it

independent  and  canonphobic   cedric diggory  ,  harry potter  ,  and katie bell. written by   lynn  ,  kita  ,  and lo.

         "   then   you   expected   too   much   .   "      words   are   sharp   ,   cold   ,   compared   to   the   soft   tone   .   hari   almost   wonder   if   they   CUT   .   almost   regrets   speaking   them   at   all   .   but   it   had   been   choking   him   ,   clawing   at   his   insides   in   a   desperation   to   get   out   .      "   why   do   YOU   get   to   talk   about   abandoning   people   ,   @bhells   .   "

cedric  blinks  ,  then  glances  down  toward  her  ,  shifting  to  try  &  see  the  look  on  her  face  better  .  "  the  anti  hero  ?  "  he  repeats  ,  words  drawn  out  to  highlight  the  unfamiliarity  of  them  .  the  corder  of  his  lips  raise  into  a  confused  smile  ,  waiting  for  an  explanation  for  a  moment  before  continuing  ,  leaning  toward  her  to  bump  his  shoulder  against  katies  .  "  it's  not  you  you  mean  ,  right  ?  because  i  don't  know  if  something  changed  since  i  was  gone  ,  i  don't  think  i'd  describe  you  like  that  though  ?  "

               grimmauld   was   too   quiet   ,   far   cry   from   the   over   full   house   he   had   been   introduced   to   back   when   it   was   a   base   of   operations   .   harry   still   can’t   decide   whether   it’s   a   GOOD   THING   ;   both   ends   of   the   spectrum   had   their   own   kinds   of   memory   .   often   bad   .   maybe   that’s   why   he   leaves   @bhells   the   entire   couch   to   herself   whilst   he   curls   up   on   the   armchair   .   all   in   silence   .   it   was   one   way   to   avoid   the   clawing   urge   to   shout   or   kick   her   out      (   reminder   to   self   ,   he   notes   ,   send   an   apology   to   hermione   for   choosing   the   second   option   .   )      “   i   just   don't   wanna   talk   about   the   way   that   it   was   ,   ”      not   much   of   an   apology   for   the   shitty   mood   she   was   being   subjected   to   ,   even   harry   can   admit   that   .   talking   about   anything   seemed   to   look   back   in   the   end   ,   at   hogwarts   /   kids   who   didn’t   quite   understand   what   was   coming   .      “   we   all   know   it’s   not   the   same   /   will   never   be   the   same   as   it   was   ...   so   why   talk   about   it.   ”

                           -----   the   pillow   makes   CONTACT   only   seconds   after   he   hears   the   words   .   unfortunate   timing   ,   to   say   the   least   .   he   really   did   throw   it   before   she   started   to   speak   !      harry   sinks   deeper   into   his   chair   ;   maybe   out   of   shame   for   the   assault   with   a   deadly   pillow   or   maybe   to   make   himself   a   more   defensible   target   .      “   what   have   i   ever   done   that   isn’t   loving   ?   ”      a   quick   complaint   ,   huffed   out   ,   and   once   again   he   realises   his   mistake   only   seconds   later   ,      “   besides   that   .   ”      that   buys   TIME      -      not   much   of   it   ,   he’s   sure      -      there   are   two   POTENTIAL   outcomes   here   .   this   turns   into   war   ...   or   @bhells   cries   .   unsure   which   is   worse   ,   he   resorts   to   prayers   to   higher   powers   .      “   really      -      and   i’m   just   saying      -      us   hanging   out   RIGHT   NOW   is   an   act   of   love   .   ”   

8)      sender   kisses   receiver’s   palm   after   receiver   cupped   their   cheek.