#bh;num

I swear, I've never met somebody so arrogant, stubborn, and frustrating as you are! Are you even real? 

.... But what do I do. It seems that I've come to like you a little bit. Do you perhaps know magic? I'm only kidding.

While you have your... Quirks, I guess... I suppose I could honestly say that those things that frustrate me so much are the same things that make me like you. Because you are different, I was easily attracted to you. And you look at me as someone who is desirable, and up until now I had never experienced that--as much as I get upset and insist that you stop, I actually... Kind of like it... A little bit... Maybe. Yeah. Ahem.

I saw a whole other side of you. Maybe you remember, or maybe you don't. You were in pretty bad shape; I wouldn't be surprised if you've forgotten it by now. I never would have expected you to let me help you, but I guess you really needed it. I was really worried about you, you know. I still am, to be honest. I don't know what it is, but I feel as if I need to look out for you. 

It would be weird if I said that I consider you a friend, right? Yeah, probably... But I do, so I guess you'll just have to deal with it. 

But I didn't start having these sort of thoughts so frequently until I met you. 

You see, you're just so intelligent, and level-headed, and even if your career path was already chosen for you in a way, you know what you are going to do with your life and how you're going to get there. My occupation is one that could easily be changed, and it doesn't always have to be my decision. Someone could just decide that they don't want to hear me sing anymore and then I'm out. What am I going to do when I no longer have my voice? I never used to think like this. 

Not that this is a bad thing.. I've been leading a pretty immature lifestyle up to this point. Even still... I'm pretty much the child that I was ten years ago when I was nine. But life is just so exciting, and sometimes I worry that if I plan too far ahead then there won't be any way for me to live freely. Sure, there is a lot of uncertainty, but that also leaves a lot of room to be hopeful, right? And I'm bound to make mistakes--and trust me, I've made a lot--but I learn from them... So in the end my lifestyle can't be that bad, don't you think? 

I'm glad that I met you, that you made me think. I should do that more often. Hah. Even though we haven't talked since then, I've wanted to meet with you. If I thought you were interesting before I became more interested after we'd spoken. 

Just like I told you, I had been more or less admiring you for a while before I got the courage to actually approach you--and even then I did so in a cowardly way, wouldn't you say so? From the moment that I saw you I thought to myself, "this is a girl that I have to get to know". You seemed so interesting, and I felt a sense of familiarity.. Maybe because we're from the same country? -- Oops, I hadn't told you that yet. But now you know, I guess.

I was very relieved that you weren't weirded out by my message. And honestly I felt weird sending it. I even used the word "admire"-- Ah, how embarrassing! 

But there's one thing that I really want to know. Is my Korean name really that boring? I thought really hard about it before changing it!