Summary: Whatâs it like being best friends with Ryan Bergara?
A/N: In my Ryan mood and I canât resist not writing him anymore! I barely see any Ryan x reader fanfics so I had to write one myself!
If you were not already a Boogara, he would absolutely do anything to try and convince you to become one.
Sends you videos and calls you at 3 am to share âevidenceâ that he had.
âRyan, I am trying to sleep!â
âIâm sorry, I just needed to show this to you before I forgot to!â
You forward the videos to Shane and he always responds either with a âđâ emoji or just full on making fun of Ryan.
It is funny either way.
Shane is your shared best friend.
He likes to tease you and Ryan.
But he loves when you gang up on Ryan with him.
And you both tease him.
Ryan acts like he hates it but he secretly loves that both his best friends get along and are besties đ„čđ„č
Shane sees you like an annoying loving sister.
Ryan is definitely the more protective out of the two of you.
You are super chill, and one thing everyone can agree on is that you are one of the sweetest people ever.
But it does lead to you letting people walking over you sometimes.
But you have Ryan!! And he does not let that happen. He doesnât hesitate to step in and check a bitch if he sees you uncomfortable.
He hates seeing the people he cares about being hurt or treated like crap.
When you are with Ryan you both feed into each otherâs recklessness. You might be calm and chill, but when you are with him, it is like all your fears go away and you can let go of responsibilities and common sense!
It also helps that you trust each other with your life, so you know the other would never lead you to getting hurt.
It does lead into both of you doing stupid shit, though that Shane makes fun of you for.
One time you convinced him to do the handcuffed for 24 hourâs challenge for a video, and you both lost the key within an hour đ
You are also the scriptwriter for Buzzfeed Unsolved/Watcher, so Ryan sometimes will come to your house with the both of you and staying up late until 2 am searching for information about a case/ location and cracking stupid jokes
You once woke up to him laying on top of you, you in his arms and laptops and papers scattered across the desks, and your legs tangled together and him snoring in your ear.
You grabbed your phone, took a picture, posted it on your story maybe knowing the internet would explode, then snuggled into him and went back to sleep.
You are not on camera that much, usually you are behind it with the crew, but Ryan begs you to at least do the Postmortems/Debriefs with him and Shane.
You are hesistant at first, what is the fans donât like you? Or they think that you are trying to get in between the ghoul boys?
Ryan assures you that they will love you.
And he is right!
They end up loving you and your dynamic with Ryan and Shane!!
Which gives you the confidence to go with them to ghost and crime sites.
Every time Ryan felt anxious and fearful, he would look at you and see you behind the camera and that makes him feel 1000 times better.
And if it got to the point that he was freaking out and panicking(like that ep where Ryan was laying on the floor and Shane was trying to comfort him) youâd get out from behind the cameras and hug and comfort him.
Because you canât stand to see him like that
âBreathe Ryan, youâre good. Youâre safe. Just breathe.â
If you were staying at a haunted hotel, if everyone was sleeping in separate rooms, heâd FaceTime you the whole night
Thereâs no way in hell heâd sleep through the night, and Shane would make fun of him if he called hum throughout the night
You didnt even have to talk to each other, your presence was enough for him
Heâd wake you up randomly though if he thought he heard something in his room đ
âY/N! Y/N, Are you awake??â
You groggily woke up, moving your phone away from your ear at Ryanâs screams.
âWhat?? What happened?â
ââŠâ
You let out a sigh at his silence. âIt was your shadow, wasnât it?â
ââŠ..Maybe? But I swear I thought I saw something move!â
You rolled your eyes at the camera. âGo to sleep Ryan.â You ignored his voice as you went back to sleep.
The internet ships you guys a lot
They tend to do that with most male and female friendships online tbh
And it doesnât help that the both of you canât help but be naturally affectionate to one another.
Whether itâs wrapping an arm around the others shoulder, jumping on Ryan, scaring him and forcing asking him to give you piggyback rides and him throwing you onto his shoulder as revenge, the fans will eat up every moment.
You guys just find it hilarious đ It becomes a game between you guys to try and make the fans go insane đđ
You guys are honest with each other all the time and are open books with each other. If you are feeling down, he can tell just tell, no matter how hard you try. If someone is not good for Ryan, you will straight up tell him. He trusts your judgment because he knows itâs coming from a place of love and you rarely steer him in the wrong direction.
You tried to teach him to cook once and he almost burned your house down đ So he just randomly comes to your house to eat your food because he swears your cooking is the best.
Makes fun of your height. You're taller than him? It doesn't matter, your still getting attacked lol. You're shorter than even? Even worse for you, you can't make fun of him at all without him calling you a dwarf at least once.
He is a gymhead (He's not Biceps Bergara for nothing) and makes you go with him all the time. He claims you need to get stronger in case someone tries to attack you but you think it's cause he likes to see you suffer.
You take the ugliest pictures of him known to existence. He tries to delete them but you just keep getting more (Shane sends a lot to you but Ryan doesn't need to know that)
Acts like he hates your music taste to annoy you but secretly loves it
He drives you everywhere because you are quite literally the worst driver he has ever seen.
"Slow down, slow down, you almost hit that car!"
"It's not my fault they were in the way!"
"The light turned red and it was their turn!"
You force him to do Tiktok dances with you, and he's surprisingly not that bad at them?!! đ
Whenever one of you needs comfort, no words are needed. You just wrap each other in your arms, the hugs and comforting presence silencing the outside world for as long as you both want.
All in all, Ryan would be a loving, playful best friend who holds you and your friendship close to his heart. He'd do anything for you to see you happy, he would make fun of you ( he is the only one allowed to do that) but would defend you in that same breath if anyone messed with you. He is truly grateful for you, and even though you guys joke and make fun of each other all the time, he makes sure you know it every single day.
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âą Shane leads an interesting life
âą Er, afterlife, I suppose, considering he had only sprouted his black, fluffy wings after being plucked from the land of the living
âą But I digress
âą Besidesâhe was happy
âą He had never been the kind of demon to engage in all that blood torture and acult shit anyways. Instead, he took pleasure in harmlessly scaring assholes or the occasion teenager that he would stumble upon durring the witching hourâalthough that was mostly code for a three am dunkin' doughnuts run
âą "The munchies are a serious thing, Ryan. What can I say?" He had shrugged nonchalauntly once, grinning goofily down at his friend that had just been asking about the bags under his eyesâwhich resulted in tales of his midnight snack runs. You stood with your arms crossed not too far away, shaking your head slowly, but Shane could see the hint of a smile tugging at your lips
âą "You really meet to get better sleep, dude. I'd hate to postpone filming for TMS, but you know I will if you aren't up to it. Doesn't mean that Steven won't give you hell for not letting him do his bit with Ricky though." Ryan had just sighed, rubbing at his own eyes as if the conversation itself had tired him out. But just like how Shane had noticed with you, he could see the ravenette resisting the urge to smile
âą "I mean, insomnia is the first sign of possession after all. Can't have a supernatural being living inside of the company, our fans would give us hell." At last came his joke. It earned a snort from you, pleasing Ryan, whose eyes crinkled at the edges pleasantly
âą Shane just grinned sharply
âą If only you two knew
âą That was another fun thing about his chosen predicament
âą I mean, come on. A demon who's best friends with someone terrified of them? All the while pretending he doesn't believe anything of the sort? At this point, he should just up and leave for Juliard. A degree in acting was a shoe in for sure with how he had been living the past few years of his eternal damnation
âą And it was all the more fun with you there as well, the yin to his and Ryan's yang. Always ready with just the right thing to say in the moment or a shitty pun you had heard the other day. Throw Steven in the mix and the four of you were thick as fucking theives
âą There were some downsides though. With life (er, death?) there always was
âą Ghost Files was one of the things Shane looked forward to the most at Watcher. Doing Buzzfeed Unsolved had been amazing, and even though he was an inhuman being that could crumble businesses with a flick of his pointed tail if he wanted toâdemons did play a part in evil corporations after allâit felt liberating to build Watcher from the ground up with Ryan, Steven, and you.
âą Plus, there was the added bonus of more shows nowâone of which included puppets. He particularly enjoyed that one
âą But Ghost Files was the crowned jewel. The one thing everyoneâcrew, audience, staff, even cameramenâlooked forward to
âą What can I say. Old habits die hardâand most of these people had been doing Buzzfeed Unsolved since they could properly hold a mic. It felt good to do something familiar
âą And that's what it had been like for Shane. He was excited, no, downright giddy, to be back in the element of ghosts and ghouls
âą It was fun to watch you and Ryan skirt around an entirely ghost free house, nerves on end as the two of you jumped every little noise. Most of which Shane made
âą That's not to say that the three of you didn't find haunted places. Oh no. You most certainly did. The Sally House was the most memorable of them
âą That demon really had been ready to kill Ryan and you that night. Right on the pentagram in the basement. But Shane had been able to coax (read: threaten) it into not doing anything but flash a flashlight once or twice
âą But sometimes, his true form wasn't enough to spook off the spooks, so to say. It was rare, but occasionally some brave, or incredibly stupid, ghosts would try their luck at laying a hand on you or Ryan
âą That got them a one way ticket to the second death they would ever have the pleasure of experiencing. The one delt out by Shane being arguably worse than anything that happened in their mortal lifetime
âą He cared for his people. It was as simple as that. So what if that made him unethical as a demon. He played around with hand puppets half the time for fucks sake and he enjoyed it. He was far from an ethical demon at this point, and he was fine with that
âą Didn't mean that having to ward off spirits didn't put him into a bad mood though
âą Shane would probably never admit it, but the idea of something hurting you two while he wasn't there to protect you left a taste as bad as brimstone in his mouth
âą "Shane? Dude, you're looking pale. Well paler than usual." You had stopped in the middle of filming once to comment on his appearance, trying to hide the way you sucked at your cheeks with anxiety. "Don't tell me you've finally cracked and begun to get scared by all this."
âą Ryan had smiled at your joke. But the smile slowly slid off his face as he took another look at Shane, who was not laughing in the slightest
âą "That Taco Bell we ate earlier didn't settle well, that's all." Shane's excuse was flimsy, but he couldn't care less right then. He just wanted to stay as close to you two and the crew as possible in case another spirit tried anything
âą "Alright. But if you need to say the word and we can take a break." You said steadily, jabbing Ryan in the gut playfuly when he didn't automatically back you up
âą "Yeah! Yeah, what they said. And jeez you didn't have to hit me so hard. Assholeâ"
âą "Oh you wanna go Bergara?" You had laughed, comically winding your arm up like Popeye used to do in the cartoons. Ryan scoffed, donning his Ricky Goldsworth voice as he began to fake fight with you
âą The sight was enough to bring a small smile to Shane's face. The two of you always managed to do that
âą "Nerds." He chuckled, bad mood already begining to lift a little
âą "Loser." Both you and Ryan threw back the insult at the same time, laughing all the while
requested by anon âhiiiii âŒïž local unsolved simp here, i wanted to ask if you could maybe write something with prompts 74 and 75 with shane x reader? maybe like thereâs some mutual pining and they kinda flirt but deny their feelings and ryan is kinda just there like BRO PLEASE. remember if you donât want to write this itâs completely fine and i hope you have a lovely day đđâ
im ending my writing prompts,, feel free to rq before theyâre gone
imagine flirting back and forth with shane madej
âha-ha,â you sounded plainly, staring up at shaneâs twinkling gaze boringly. ryan had just entered the break room, almost rolling his eyes when he saw the two of you together. typical.
âi know im hilarious, you donât have to pretend,â shane waved, raising his coffee cup to his smirking lips.
âbite me,â you mused, raising your eyebrows at him tantalizingly. shane just shrugged.
âif you insist.â
you scoffed as you finished stirring your tea, flinging some warm droplets from the spoon at him. he just quietly snickered before you left the room, giving ryan a quick greeting as you passed.
ryan looked to shane, who nodded at him in greeting. âwhenâs the wedding?â shane gave him an unamused look as ryan moved to make his own drink. âyou two get flirtier and flirtier every day, huh?â
shane rolled his eyes with an insistent, âweâre just friends.â
âthatâs not what it looks like,â ryan laughed out. âeither youâre oblivious as shit, or the bet we have going around the office is a figment of my imagination.â
shane furrowed his brow. âthereâs a bet going around the office..?â
âyou didnât hear it from me,â ryan clarified, and shane nodded respectfully, âbut im about to win twenty bucks from kelsea.â
âGhost In Action -BFU Shane x Reader x Ryan (Platonic)-
Pairing: Ryan Bergara x reader (Platonic) Shane Medej x reader (Platonic)
Gn!reader
Warnings: Language, slight innuendo
Word Count: 1,491
"Back to where it all began" Ryan announced to the camera. I stifled a laugh and followed him as he did a dramatic slow walk towards the house. Shane just gave the camera a look and picked up his bag while shaking his head and walking ahead of us.
"We came here as boys, now we return as men.. and woman." Shane added, receiving a look from me as he glanced back at us.
"I'm glad to be back. How's it feel being your first time here Y/N?" Ryan asks, turning to me as I gaze up at the mansion.
"Gotta be honest, not looking very haunted from out here. In fact, it's really just beautiful." I say, turning to face the boys. Shane chuckles and nods. "Yeah, it wasn't very haunted last time we visited, on account of the fact that ghosts aren't real." He adds pointedly.
Ryan rolls his eyes at the tall man and picks up the sleeping bag he had dropped at his feet. Shane and I follow suit and the three of us walk through the doors of the mansion for a dramatic shot.
We all leave our belongings in a room and gather in the living room where the crew is setting up. I pull up a chair while Ryan rustles through his script papers.
After getting the mics and cameras set up, Ryan begins his reading for the history of the house. It was only 3pm, so we had plenty of time to get the narration done before we went hunting for the footage. "This week for the season premier on Buzzfeed Unsolved, we reinvestigate the Winchester Mystery House in San Jose, California, as a part of our ongoing investigation into the question, are ghosts real?" Ryan recites to the cameras, earning the usual shake of the head from Shane. I smile at the camera and turn back to Ryan as he continues with the history of the house.
"Avid fans of the show may remember that this is the site of our first paranormal investigation ever, and tonight, we return to once again tangle with Sarah Winchester and her cast of ghouls. This time stronger, faster, and more prepared with Y/N on our side. And tonight, we're actually gonna sleep here unlike last time." Ryan narrates as Shane and I make faces and gestors at the camera.
"You guys are lucky you brought me, because I brought snacks." I grinned, holding up a small backpack that crinkled as I let it drop the the floor.
"I'll stop by your room for concessions when Ryan's crying wakes me up then." Shane says while clapping his hands together, earning a glare from Ryan.
Upon nightfall, we head into our investigation. "You think you will talk to any ghosts this time? Maybe make some friends?" I tease Ryan as we head down a windowed corridor. "Shut it pip-squeak." He snaps back, shining his flashlight at me. "I'm literally like 2 inches shorter than you. If anyone here is short, is you, bite-sized bitch." I retort while panning my light over his figure.
"Could you two can it? You are both miniatures, no point in fighting about whose smaller." Shane says as he walks between the two of you. "Yeah? Says the walking fucking tree." I say, poking his back and sticking my tongue out at him. "Wow, real original, Shortcake." He scoffs while ruffling my hair. I reply by acting like I was going to bite him, and he laughs and keeps walking.
As we reach a peculiar set of stairs, Ryan tells a bit about them. "This is one of the stranger additions the the house, a set of stairs that leads to absolutely nowhere." Shane butts in "You know, if you walk up those there stairs, you'll find God!" He mocks in a crazy old man voice as I approach the steps. "Let's test it out and see!" I yell as I start dramatically climbing the stairs.
Once I was up as far as I could go, Ryan comments "Oh go on, you can go further than that!" I roll my eyes and turn around, curling up on the top set, squished against the ceiling. "Happy?!" I yell. "Sure am." Ryan says, laughing at my contorted body.
We continue touring the house, stopping to yell at ghosts and listen to Ryan talk about various facts. We eventually reach another door. "More rooms? I swear this house goes on foreverrrr." I whine. "Nope, this is a door you wouldn't want to go through." Ryan comments while tugging it open.
On the other side is a courtyard and a sheer drop. "That wasn't very well planned." Shane quips. I chuckle at him and Ryan just looks disappointed. I ignore them and carefully point my camera down to get a scary shot of the drop.
As I lean forward a bit, one of the boys nudges my back and I struggle to grab the doorframe. I turn and look at them and glare. "Not funny assholes." I growl as they look at me confused. "What are you talking about?" Ryan asks. "I'm talking about whichever one of you just fucking tried to push me." I hiss back. They give each other a look and I shake my head and turn back to the courtyard.
I crouch down to avoid them pushing me out and point my camera back down to finish the shot. As I'm panning my camera up, I get pushed again. This time I wasn't fast enough to grab the frame and I toppled out to the ground below. The boys shout as they and the crew rush out as fast as they can.
When they reach me in the courtyard, one of the crew members calls an ambulance. "Not.. funny." I grumble as I try pushing myself up. With a pained groan, I let myself fall back to the concrete.
Once the ambulance arrives, both the boys frantically ask them questions. The paramedics push them back, letting them know only family is allowed in the vehicle, and they will have to drive to the hospital. Shane convinces them to let him ride with me under the excuse of him "being my boyfriend". Ryan hops into the car and follows the ambulance to the hospital.
After a couple hours, a nurse entered the waiting room and informed the boys that they could come get me to be discharged. They both jumped up and followed her to my room and were greeted by the doctor.
"They have a concussion, fractured hip, a some scrapes and bruising. We got them all patched up. They'll be perfectly fine with some rest, just keep an eye on them." He says and looks up from his clipboard, directing his attention to Shane. "Try to hold off for a few weeks. Maybe more depending on how long the hip takes to heal." He comments, giving Shane a 'dad look' through his glasses.
Shane almost jumps to defend himself, before remembering telling the paramedics that he was my boyfriend. Instead, he just forces down a blush and nods at the doctor. The doctor just chuckles at him and looks back to his clipboard. "It looks like they are safe to leave. Remember to make sure they don't try to walk on their own and keep an eye on them." He says with a smile.
After getting back to my apartment, the boys helped to settle me in my bed. "So we talked to the producers on the way back, and they said we can schedule some time to go back if we need to, but I think we will have enough footage." Ryan explains while helping to grab some pajamas for me to change into. "And I sorted out your medical leave for you so you don't have to worry. I told them it was my fault."
"Wow, thanks for fessing up and telling them the truth." I said sarcastically as I rolled my eyes. Shane is quick to defend Ryan. "It wasn't his fault. Neither of us even touched you. You must have just fallen yourself." I scoff at him with a glare. "Then I'm gonna need to see that footage because you two are a bunch of lying assholes."
Ryan's eyes widen as he realizes. "OH MY GOD WE CAUGHT A FUCKING GHOST ON CAMERA." He yells causing me to cringe and cover my ears from my headache. "That or they are just clumsy as hell." Shane comments, earning another glare from me.
"Can I just get some sleep and have you assholes leave me be?" I half-joke as I reach for some water. "Nah, we've gotta keep an eye on you. Doctor's orders." Shane says cheekily. I throw my pillow at them and they laugh, bidding me goodnight.
Let's just hope they are liars, and I didn't just get pushed out of a door by a ghost.
Yin and Yang -Three Horrifying Cases of Ghosts and Demons pt 1
WC: 383
Summary: Shaneâs a demon. (Y/n)âs an angel. Ryanâs a human. When these three begin a ghost hunting show, who knows what will happen.
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âSo weâre going to see Father Thomas, a Vatican approved exorcist,â Ryan says while staring at the camera. As they walk into the church Shane gets a really bad feeling in his gut, but he knows thatâs just the demon in him. (Y/n) on the other hand, she is basically glowing. Shane looks at her and knows if she was showing her wings, theyâd be fluttering excitedly. As they sit down and Ryan begins asking his questions, Father Thomas kept looking at (Y/n) and Shane. âIâd like to give these two some advice alone, please.â Father Thomas says to Ryan. Ryan nods and exits the building after all the cameras had been packed up. Father Thomas looks between the two. âIt is very odd to see a demon in the company of an angel.â He says at last. (Y/n) smiles sheepishly, and Shane rubs the back of his neck. âHow did you know?â Shane asks at last. âShane, Father Thomas is an exorcist. Did you really think he wouldnât notice?â (Y/n) asks. Father Thomas nods at (Y/n)âs statement. âYou have a good soul. The both of you. I donât believe you intend to harm Ryan.â Father Thomas says. âI donât have a soul,â Shane says, laughing slightly, and the sound is a bit mocking. âNo, I suppose you donât. But that does not mean you donât have a heart.â Shane smiles a bit. âIf these places youâre going to are as dangerous as Ryan believes, I assume you two are going to attempt to protect him.â Father Thomas says. âThatâs originally how we became...friends I guess? I didnât exactly like him when I first met him.â (Y/n) says. âI was a bit curious as to how an angel could look so relaxed in the presence of a demon.â Shane smiles at that. âBelieve me Father, when she first met me, she was not as trusting or relaxed around me,â Shane says. âIâm assuming Ryan doesnât know that you two are not human.â Father Thomas says. âYou would be right to think that,â (Y/n) says. Shane nods. Father Thomas nods. âGo, keep that boy safe. If the places you three are going to have the spiritual attachment like he says, heâs going to need it.â
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Summary: You are in college and for the past eight months you have been wrapped up reading books from a mysterious recommender that is only identified as âSâ in your look bookstore. You have been trying to piece together who âSâ is for month to no avail- but when you meet a handsome and helpful sales clerk you think you might have found your man!
Part 1 of 5 ; Part 2Â (I will link the updates as they come out!)Â
You woke up at the sound of your alarm. It was six am- which wasnât any cause for excitement- but it was also Friday. Fridays were the best days. Fridays were when a new book would appear on that certain aisle, beyond the landing of the second floor of Calypsoâs Bookstore, cradled within the wire holder that said âRecommendations ~ Sâ in chalk letters.
âSâ you always had liked how that letter was turned, not quite cursive but not quite print either. It was crookedly curved and yet- yet at the same time it was perfect.
Imaginative? Artsy? Creative?
It was crazy how easy it was to attach a personality to that âSâ- to someone you didnât even know. You see Calypsoâs was a busy place- a community- filled with university professors, students, employees and hipsters. âSâ could be anyone of them and you had reluctantly given up long ago trying to seriously figure out who it was. You could ask- thatâs true- but then what if they werenât who you expected- what if it somehow it got awkward and things turned wrong- what would you even say if you met them: Â
âI noticed that you were having a crisis back in September?â
Because you had noticed. They usually liked the classics- history too- and every now and again a few excellent thrillers. But in the middle of September the flow changed to âThe Myth of Sisyphus,â âOn Death and Dying,â and âNotes from the Underground.â No one reads those back to back by choice. Unless, of course, the choice is made for you by some existential panic...
Maybe you were reading too much into it. But there was something fantastic about trying to piece together who they were and what was going on with them. It was like a secret conversation- a private and personal aside with a stranger. And that didnât just happen every day- well- except on Fridays.
Breakfast that morning was quickly hurried through, as even though the shop didnât open till ten, you were impatient. Grabbing a stack of your class notes, you shoved them in your bag and wrapped up your in coat and picked up your umbrella. It was nearly summer- but the clouds were still going to have their final say before vacating for the hot month.
The rain was warm and steady as you walked down the campus side street past the Arts buildings and into the coffee shop that was across the street from Calypsoâs. As you drank your favorite drink and half read through your assignments, every so often youâd glance through the foggy window of the shop, letting your eyes drift across the street. You could feel yourself hoping- hoping almost beyond your own acknowledgement- to spy movement on the second floor- like a child peeping down the stairs on Christmas Eve. But no movement was seen, to your expected but still irksome disappointment.
Returning, more earnestly to your work, the hours ticked by and soon it was 10:30. Quickly, you packed up your things and waved goodbye to your favorite Barista. In a half-skip half-jog you splashed through the rain and bounded up the curb to the bookstore. Pushing through the weathered door, the bell rang above you, a nice and familiar sound.
Inside the store was already bustling with the regulars- who were already taking up their common haunts. While you were an avid patron, you couldnât beat the dedication of some of them. The romantic lit professors practically ran their office out of Calypso's and could, without fail, always be found nesting in leather armchairs with stacks of papers and red pens by their side. Near them were the groupie grad students, mimicking every word the professors said and eagerly shuttling coffee back and forth across the street. They were all on the first floor today- as always.
You shuffled your way by them and around the displays of best sellers towards the back, passing the Wiccan Craft Club- they gathered here every Friday too. Today it was Sigil cross stitching. Spooky- but fun. One day you had the notion to join them and see what it was all about. Maybe they could help you find who âSâ was you mused.
Taking the steps two at a time, you wound your way up the spiral staircase to the second floor. The worn rugs that lined the upper aisles softly gave way under your steps, as you followed the familiar path. Your eyes lit up.
âThe Spy Who Came in from the Coldâ
Well, that was an interesting selection. They usually didnât pick espionage books. Excited, you picked up the book and began reading the summary- even though you knew you were going to buy it anyway. A wry smile formed on your face. It was about East Germany. Two months ago âSâ had recommended a nonfiction book âAnatomy of a Dictatorshipâ that was all about the Soviets involvement in East Germany. You could put some of the pieces together.
Tucking a copy under your arm, you went back downstairs to the checkout. It was 10 till 11:00 and your lecture began at 11:20, so you couldnât really linger any longer. Placing the book on the counter, you began to shuffle distractedly through your bag for your money.
âGreat choice,â Hummed an unfamiliar voice.
Your attention quickly redirected to the register. Leaning over the counter, happily scanning the book, was an unusually tall and lanky guy with bright eyes that shone right through you. You had never seen him before, and you were sure of that because you would have remembered it. As he moved his long unruly swirls of chestnut hair made a bob and you could feel your ears turn red.
âHave you read it?â You managed to say, your mouth suddenly dry.
âYes, actually, I have read that one- and I venture to think that youâll enjoy it too,â
He smiled. His face was by no external metric perfect- but it had wonderful sort of charm- a charm that was making your brain go all fuzzy.
âYâknow,â He mused putting the book in a bag, âIt is surprisingly hard to actually read when you work in a bookstore.â
âToo many choices?â You laughed- a nervous god awful laugh- but he didnât seem to notice.
âItâs the agony of my existence!â He exclaimed with comedic air, âSometimes- yâknow- Iâd rather walk into the sea then make a decision.â
You giggled, pressing your hand up to your mouth to stop it from running away from yourself.
âThatâll be 13.95,â
âOh!â You jumped, forgetting that there was an actual transaction going on, and swiped your card. In between the digits of your pin you stole several glances upwards at his name tag.
âShane,â
Your ears got redder with the realization- Shane! Was âSâ for Shane? The anxiety of being around such a cute guy soared- neigh skyrocketed- in an instant.
Taking the bag from him you blurted out a shaky: âThank-youâ
âDonât mention it-â He beamed, âCome back soon!â
You nodded. There neednât be any worry. You would be back- and on more days than usual. Ripping your eyes away from him, walked out of the store and into the rain. Putting your umbrella up, you began to walk slowly towards your lecture hall- and for once you were thankful that it was on the other side of campus. The long walk there would give you time to cool off from whatever had just happened.
He might not even be âSâ you told yourself. So what- he had read the book- he works in a bookstore- of course he is well read- of course he reads things. On top of that, you had never seen him before today and you had been reading the recommends for almost eight months now. In all likelyhood it wasnât âSâ and to think so was just wishful dreams⊠dreamsâŠ
A smile formed on your mouth. Even if he wasnât âSâ he was still something- you could feel it- definitely- definitely something. As you rounded the sidewalk and strolled up the library lawn, âCome back soonâ replayed in your mind and you knew that you wouldnât hear a word of the lecture. And you didnât.
TW: The reader is a murderer, and they and the boys are hunting a serial killer, so mentions of death.
Read it on AO3
âThis place sure is⊠Woodsy.â
You could feel Shane and Ryanâs unimpressed stares burning into your back. You smiled anyway. You knew they secretly found you funny.
âGood eye. This place is pretty woodsy. Itâs a forest. To be more specific, a forest that a body was found in this morning.â Ryan deadpanned. âCome on, we have some walking to do.â
You blinked, taking a moment to process. Out of all of the reasons youâd anticipated for this afternoon walk, that had been pretty far down the list. You figured Ryan was just taking a hike to stretch his legs- gotta stay fit, after all.
 So had the killer struck again like youâd predicted? Or was this unrelated business that they had dragged you along for? I suppose they could still have other facets of their jobs they have to take care of. And they canât exactly leave me alone at the hotel.
âSo. A body, huh? You wanna give some more details on that, Ry guy?â You slammed the car door shut behind you and sprinted to catch up to Ryanâs head start. You didnât worry much about leaving Shane behind to lock up. He had long legs, he would catch up just fine.
âIn due time.â He kept his focus ahead, face wiped clean of emotion. Behind you, the easily distinguishable sound of boots in mud made itself apparent.
âCome on, Ryan. Stop with the weird âmysterious facadeâ and tell us why weâre walking through the woods.â Shaneâs voice was good natured, as usual, but you could easily see that Ryan was only growing more tense as he spoke.
âYou got the same report I did this morning. How about you read it?â Ryan snapped, and you cringed. When you turned to see how Shane took it, he was already facing you, eyebrows raised and expression incredulous.
Ryanâs shoulders were tensed, and you could hear him mumbling under his breath. You sidestepped a bit until you and Shane were only a few inches away, walking in silent, concerned solidarity.
Beside you, Shane pulled out his phone. You momentarily debated whether or not to peek at his screen, but before you could decide, he passed it over to you.
On the screen was a brief but official police report, and you instantly knew that you probably werenât supposed to see it. You also probably werenât supposed to be heading to the crime scene, being a wanted criminal and enemy of the law and all, but alas.
You skimmed over the report, taking note of the rather graphic photos and descriptions. This time was less sloppy than the last, if only a little.
âThink itâs the same killer?â Shane asked, keeping his voice quiet enough to stay under Ryanâs radar, lest he go off again.
âWithout a doubt.â You could already see the pattern beginning. You guessed the first kill had been an accident, although what type of accident you werenât sure. Had they accidentally killed the victim in a fit of rage without realizing what they were doing? Or had it been more of a freak accident involving something sharp?Â
Either way, you deduced from the pictures that the killing blow had been a stab to the right lung. The same as todayâs victim. An odd trademark to be sure, but definitely a trademark.
Shane didnât question your answer, and you wondered if he picked up on the same thing you did. Probably. This is his job, after all. Youâd be a little disappointed if he didnât notice the obvious parallel between the deaths.
Shane tucked his phone back into his pocket, and you both turned your attention back to Ryan, who looked no less tense than he had before.
âIs it me, or is something up with him?â you whispered. Shane shrugged.
âI donât know. Heâs usually like this when we have to deal with bodies or messy crime scenes, but he does seem a bit worse today.âÂ
From Shaneâs tone, you gathered that âa bit worseâ meant âconcerningly worseâ. You were almost endeared by how much worry he seemed to have for his friend and partner, but you were a bit too distracted with avoiding tripping over debris and tree roots to really appreciate it.
For maybe half a mile, the three of you hiked in silence.
âAlright guys, wait here.â It was the first time Ryan had spoken since heâd flipped out, and you were surprised by how subdued he sounded.Â
You watched as he straightened, standing taller and more confidently. He didnât even turn to face you and Shane, just marched into a clearing a few yards ahead.
âSo. This is the place, huh?â you toed at the ground, attempting at casualty.
"Yup, our first stop on our way to catching a murderer."
"Besides me, you mean." You teased, going for a joke to lighten things.Â
"Yeah," Shane looked away, and you followed his example, practically able to taste the awkwardness that had suddenly risen like a fog, "besides you."
You and Shane stood in silence for a moment. Clearly, the joke missed.
How long is it gonna take Ryan to get the clear to bring Shane and I down? You thought, bitterly. Normally Shane was easy company. Not today, apparently.
Honestly, why did you have to remind him that youâre a serial killer? Great job, making things awkward.Â
âAlright.â You nearly jumped out of your skin, whipping your gaze up to see Ryan, tapping his foot impatiently and looking tired. âCome on, we only have a few minutes. They arenât too keen on having another serial killer on the scene.â You felt the venom in Ryanâs tone at the word âkillerâ.
You bowed your head a bit, playing up your shame at being called a serial killer. In truth? You couldnât bring yourself to dislike it. It was a bit exciting, really, having your hobby recognized, and by a lead detective nonetheless. Here he was, one of the highest authorities in town, and he had dubbed you practically untouchable. Heâd gone so far as to ask for your help.
âDid you explain that Iâm helping, orâŠ?â
âNo. I donât need to explain myself.â A bit of pride filtered through Ryanâs tone, and you smiled. That was more like it, youâd take anything over his behavior earlier. Though, you could still see his fingers fidgeting uneasily with his shirt sleeves.
âWell, what do you say we give those other officers a bit of reassurance?â You peered over Ryanâs shoulder, taking note of how they quickly looked at anything but you. âThey seem a bit antsy, donât they?â
Ryan turned to take a look for himself. When he looked back to you, he remained silent, an eyebrow raised questioningly.Â
âI guess?â
âI mean, Iâm a killer, you know? Iâm dangerous and cunning,â you paused, allowing Shane to scoff and roll his eyes, before continuing, âand most of all, Iâm unpredictable.â
âWhat are you getting at?â Ryan narrowed his eyes, half suspicion, half impatience. You could tell you had his attention.
âIâm just saying, Iâm a bit of a wild card. And letting me roam around unrestrained? Thatâs a pretty risky move, Bergara.â You watched as Shane crossed his arms over his chest, annoyance written across his features. Get to the point.
âPlease, either of us could tackle you to the ground at a moments notice.â
You pretended to inspect your nails, reveling in the way Ryan restlessly tapped his foot against the earth. You let them wait. âYeah, you could,â you drawled, pausing yet again just to piss them off. âBut they donât know that.â
You watched as Shane and Ryan exchanged a look. You sighed.
âRyan, Iâm giving you a chance to look cool. Enhance your reputation? Indulge your ego? Are you getting me?â You waved your hands impatiently.
âOh. So, youâre saying I should-â
âCuff me! Yes!â You interrupted. âMake a big show of telling me to stay in line, maybe even push me around a little!âÂ
Ryan and Shane shared yet another look. âWhy would you want us to do that?â Shane asked, after a moment.
âBecause itâll be fun!âÂ
In truth, you were just sick of Ryan being testy. The way you figured, looking tough in front of his colleagues couldnât hurt his mood, and letting him cuff you and be bossy wouldnât hurt you either. If you wanted to get away, you would, handcuffs or not.
However, that doesnât matter, because Ryan quickly deems your answer to be honest. He gestures for Shane to give him his handcuffs, which he does without argument. During this exchange, you take a moment to look at how ruffled their clothes are. Amazing how quick they were to run off to a cheap motel with a criminal; they hadnât even thought to bring spare clothes.
You turned your back to Ryan and compliantly positioned your hands, hearing the quiet âclickâ of the cuffs and taking gleeful notice in how loose they were. How sweet of him.
And so, into the clearing you went. You did your best to look dispirited as the boys marched you under the caution tape surrounding the scene. Did they really need to use so much tape? You wondered, eyeing the nearly thirty foot wreath of yellow and black. You doubted many people hiked in this part of the woods. Then again, somebody must have, considering the body was fresh when it was discovered.
There were three police officers standing around the edges of the tape circle. Two of them seemed to be doing their best to avoid making eye contact with you, while the other couldnât seem to look away. You threw your most intimidating glare his way, and did your best not to look smug when he immediately turned his focus to his shoes.Â
Ryan gave you a small push, and you took the hint, stumbling slightly on purpose and shuffling forward a bit faster.
âKeep moving!â he snarled. But there was an underlying eagerness in his tone. He was living for the rapt attention he was getting.Â
The officers refocused on you, eyes wide and attentive in reaction to Ryanâs boldness. You mellowed your voice as much as you could without it being obvious that you were faking, and answered him with a shaky, âyes sirâ.
The police officers were flabbergasted, which you took to mean that you had been pretty convincing. After another few seconds of you shuffling closer to the crime scene, one of them spoke.
âWell, Officer Bergara-â
âDetective.â
The woman whoâd spoken looked taken aback. Ryan held his ground.
âSorry, Detective Bergara. Weâre going to head out and leave you to it.âÂ
âAlright.â
She and the other two officers didnât move, at first. They stood where they were and watched Ryan guide you forward, undeniably curious. You kept your head bowed and eyes forward. You stopped moving when you saw the remnants of blood.
âWhat are you waiting for? Isnât it your lunch break, rookies?â Ryan tossed over his shoulder.
None of the other officers responded, but they didnât really need to. Their feelings were written clearly across their faces, meekness and embarrassment being the most prominent. They ducked under the tape and made their exit, the woman whoâd previously spoken leading the way, her steps quick and long in her rush to be away from the site.
âDamn, Detective B, that was pretty rude.â
âI can put you back in jail, you know.â
âYeah, but you wonât.â You winked at him. You heard him scoff in response and grinned, flashing a look to Shane just to make sure he noticed Ryanâs change in demeanor, too.
Indeed, he did, because he was grinning right back at you, giving a sly thumbs up.
âAlright, hold still.â Ryan commanded, moving behind you. You froze, momentarily thrown off balance. Whatâs he doing?
Then, you heard a quiet âclickâ and felt the weight of your handcuffs fall from your wrists, and, presumably, into Ryanâs palms.
A small thrill ran through you, and it took all you had to conceal your delight. Ryan could have simply kept you cuffed, there was no reason not to. In truth, it wouldâve been wiser to do just that. But he had just loosed you as if it was nothing.
It wasnât nothing.
The best part, truly, was that neither of them even realized how big of a deal this was. Shane was re-attaching his handcuffs to their place on his belt, and Ryan was preparedly unfolding an evidence baggy and pulling on his gloves. Neither of them was even bothering to give you a second glance. Both of them had their guard down.
Around a notorious killer.
Which was, now that you think about it, pretty stupid. As fun as it was to think of yourself as a cunning and smooth, sweet-talking criminal, you knew better than to think you were slick enough to gain this much of their trust this quickly. Any experienced detective, or officer, for that matter, should know better than to give the enemy the benefit of the doubt, especially when the âenemyâ has been known to kill people over Pop-Tarts.
You almost felt bad, honestly. If they continued to trust criminals this way, eventually they were going to get stabbed in the back.
You shook your head. You had a job to do right now, better to ponder Shane and Ryanâs stupidity later.
âSo, fellas, just what are we going to do here? The body isnât here anymore. All we really have to work with is some bloodsoaked leaves.â You gestured to your left, to some leaves, which were, as stated, rather bloody.
âThe scene can hold just as many clues as the body itself. The local police are incompetant-â
âHey!â Shane interrupted.
â-present company excluded.â Ryan continued, âSo, itâs likely thereâs something here they missed.â
âI agree with the big guy. He can see everything from up there, and it doesnât seem like thereâs all that much catching his eye.â
You could see Ryan beginning to grow tense again, so you added, quickly, âBut, maybe we can get some sort of clue from the location itself.â
That got his attention. Only, judging by how quick he was to open his mouth again, probably not for long.
âIf youâre implying we should look for a pattern in where the bodies are being dropped off, forget it.â He deflated. âThereâs only two victims, and thereâs nothing in common location wise. Just random body dumps.â
âNo matter what, thereâs always a pattern of some sort.â
âWhat about with you? You never had an identifiable pattern.â Shane pointed out.
âActually, I did. The one thing my victims all had in common was that they all pissed me off.âÂ
Ryan and Shane both rolled their eyes.Â
âCan you be serious for a minute? People are dying!â Ryan ran a gloved hand through his hair exasperatedly. One look at Shane told you that he was beginning to side with the other man, too.
âI am being serious. Work with me here, alright? Uh, ok, what was the last guyâs name? Eric-something, right?â you snapped your fingers in an attempt to jog your memory.
âEric Daly.â
âGood, ok. Where did Eric live?â
âWhy does it matter? The victims arenât related, we already checked. As far as we know, theyâve never met.â Shane said.
âThat isnât what I asked. I asked where he lived.â
Ryan reached for his phone, unlocking it and beginning to scroll.
âDonât read me the address, take me there. We need a visual. While youâre at it, has this body been identified?âÂ
Ryan nodded, beginning to scroll faster. âYeah, her name was Ruth Bullock. Her wallet was still in her pocket, but there was no cash, just her ID and a credit card.â
Shane stepped closer and cleared his throat to get your attention.
âFirst of all, take it easy.â He gave you a pointed look. You chose not to let it discourage you; you were on a roll right now. âSecond, you donât find it odd that the killer left her credit card?â
âNot at all. Credit cards can be tracked.â You said.
âAlright, Iâve got both of the addresses. You wanna get going now?â Ryan asked, to which you promptly nodded.
âWhoa, whoa. Why? Did we just hike out here for nothing?â Shane positioned his hands on his hips like a mother scolding a toddler.
âI guess so, yeah. Thereâs nothing useful to the case here, and if there was, the other officers probably picked it up. Unless you feel like thereâs something else we need to do here?âÂ
You mimicked his action, and stepped towards him, chest puffed and an eyebrow raised dramatically in mock-challenge. Shane yielded, huffing dramatically and shaking his head.
âNo, I guess not.â He looked to Ryan.Â
âHow far is the first victimâs place?â
âProbably about a half hour. It shouldnât be too hard to find, though. Iâm pretty sure itâs just down the road from my apartment.â
âEh, still. Just GPS it to be safe.â Shane commented.
You nodded your approval, and surveyed the scene one more time. Nothing caught your eye, and you almost felt disappointed. Where was the fun, piece-it-all-together mystery? One of the best parts of mystery movies and novels is the big reveal, after all. Where the protagonist figures it all out right after it seems all is lost. But you canât piece it all together if there arenât any clues.
Stop pretending this is a movie. This is real life, there isnât always a big reveal. You never had one, after all, you scolded yourself.
âYou coming?â
You twisted around, and tried to cover up how startled you were. You need to focus.
Shane was a good few hundred yards away, and Ryan wasnât far behind. Ryan looked from Shane, to you, and back, and you took the hint, leaping into a sprint to catch up with them. You slowed upon reaching Ryanâs side, taking a few seconds to catch your breath.
When you turned to address Ryan, he was already looking at you, the corner of his mouth quirked down in what you assumed was worry. After a moment, he spoke.
âAre you⊠alright?â he spared a glance back at the clearing, as if he would see whatever it was youâd been staring off at.
âYeah, yeah, Iâm good.â You took a deep breath, and exhaled it, allowing your shoulders to relax. âSee? Iâm chill. As the kids would say, Iâm-â
âDonât,â he warned.
âGucci.â
âGoddamn it.â
But you didnât miss his muted chuckle, or the humored look in his eye. So, you consider your awful use of slang worth it.
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âPurple carpet and yellow walls? Maybe this guy deserved to get murdered.âÂ
You raised one of your hands expectantly, and werenât surprised in the slightest when Shane high fived you. The man had too much taste not to.
Getting in had been a bit of a challenge. Ryan wasnât in any mood to go to the police station and ask for the keys, but, it seemed, he also wasnât in the mood to try your idea to get in. You didnât really know why. The guy was dead, what difference would a smashed window on his house make?
In the end it didnât matter, because Ryan, being his detective self, had a lockpick kit in his car. He made semi-quick work of getting everyone inside, although looking at the decor, you almost wished he had left his kit at the hotel.
âOh my god, Ryan! You have to come see this!â Shane cackled. You were near enough to see that it was a decorative throw pillow. On it was a rather cartoony rendition of a ghost, and, while you thought it was cute and fitting to the almost-autumn season, you didnât quite understand the significance.
Ryan brushed past you, clearly curious as to Shaneâs find, and immediately deflated.
âOh, fuck you!â he laughed.
âWait, I donât get the joke?â Shane and Ryan turned to you, quickly catching onto your puzzlement.
âLittle Ry guy here believes in ghosties.â Shane explained, patting Ryanâs shoulder mockingly.
âOnly because theyâre real! Honestly, the fact that you donât believe in them is just-â Ryan began heatedly, before you cut him off.
âWhoa there, fellas. Ghost stories later, murder stories now. Look around for anything that might signify he was threatened, or something. Evidence that someone had a grudge against this guy.â
âAnd if we donât find anything, what? We wasted a day and broke into a house for no reason?â Shane asked. âNot that Iâm against that, I love some good, old fashioned breaking and entering. But Iâm just saying, the longer we take to solve this, the more victims thereâll be.â
âWell, if we donât find anything here, we go to the next victimâs house. And believe me, Iâm aware of the stakes.â
âBut do you care?â Shane asked, his tone goading.
You opened your mouth, ready to lay it on him, when Ryan quite literally stepped between you.
âShane, enough. We were joking around just a few seconds ago. Things are tense, I get it, but letâs save the fighting for when weâre not breaking the law.âÂ
Shane visibly relaxed, sighing quietly and looking away. You were surprised at how quick he was to obey, heâd, seemingly, been ready to throw down just a minute ago. Still, you werenât complaining, this was much better. He absentmindedly picked at the ghost pillow, and Ryan stepped aside.Â
âCome on, keep looking around. If you find anything, let me know.â
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You found nothing. Nothing of importance, at least. The second victimâs apartment was equally as barren of evidence, and it seemed, as far as you could tell, that neither of them had ever met each other, which shut down that potential connection before it could even be proposed. Until someone close to the victims came forward with any possible clues, there really wasnât all that much that could be done.
Discouraged, you and the boys headed back to the hotel, stopping for Burger King on the way and eating in silence in the car.Â
By the time you made it back to the hotel, the sun had gone down and you were exhausted.
You collapsed onto the shitty mattress, knowing youâd wake up with an aching back and not managing to care. You were out almost instantly, your eyes falling shut and your mind shutting down. The last thing you saw was the burning red numbers of the alarm clock and the bedside table, imprinting 10:12 P.M. on the inside of your eyelids. You dream of nothing.
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You wake to the same sight you fell asleep to; the glow of red numbers. 2:29 A.M. It seems much harsher now than it had earlier; more of an angry glare than the gentle illumination it had been. Youâre still tired, and after a moment, you press your head back into the cheap and flat expanse of your pillow. Shane is fast asleep and snoring on the equally small and shitty bed on the other side of the night stand, and youâre more than content to let the sound lull you back to sleep.
Only, you canât.
Something is wrong, and to be quite frank, itâs annoying as hell.
Sleeping under these conditions is already difficult, but once you fall asleep, you should be able to stay that way until morning. Whatever it is thatâs keeping you up is a pain in the ass.Â
You take a moment to work up the energy to open your eyes, caught in the purgatory between sleep and consciousness. When you finally pry your eyes open and scan the room, itâs apparent what was wrong, and perhaps what had woken you up in the first place. Ryan was gone.
His cot of blankets was scattered all over the floor, and really, what a shitty thing to just leave laying there. Shane or you could trip on your way to the bathroom if you werenât looking where you were going. How inconsiderate.
Still, in a way, it makes things seem even more wrong. He must have left in a hurry, and saying you werenât curious as to why would be a blatant lie.
You scooch your way to the edge of the bed, and creep out of the room,stopping only to grab a room key. You pass the front desk, where the attendant hardly spares you a glance, focused intently on a rerun of some baseball game playing on an outdated and low quality TV on the wall.
As you step out into the parking lot, you begin to wish youâd bothered to put your shoes on. The asphalt is cool to match the changing of seasons, and you donât doubt that itâs littered with glass by the way it sparkles in the weak light of the half moon. Still, you step forward, turning every which way in hopes that youâll spot Ryan.Â
And you do.
You just barely see him, hunched over and sitting on the concrete of the sidewalk. Heâs on the side of the parking lot with the fewest cars, and from the looks of him, heâs far from alright.
You take a hesitant step towards him, but stop almost instantly when a car speeds down the road, headlights flashing in the corner of your eye. You turn slowly to look. No other cars follow, and the air stills again.
I could go. I donât have to stay here.
Youâre almost floored by the fact that this is the first time the thought has occured to you. Itâs true; despite your agreement, you donât have to stay here. The living arrangements were less than exemplary, and the only reason you had agreed to help was due to the promise of freedom. But you could just go now, there was nothing stopping you. And whoâs to say that they would keep their end of the bargain anyway?
You turn to face Ryan again, and watch as a visible shudder runs through him. Another car races past behind you, and you make up your mind.
You take a few more careful steps in Ryanâs direction, mindful of the obvious broken bottles, and manage to not step on any glass. Which, in truth, is quite the accomplishment.Â
You get close enough to see that heâs shaking, and you feel your heart drop at the sight. Jeez, what happened?Â
âRyan.â Your voice is too loud, practically echoing through the parking lot. Ryan jolts, and you cringe. âSorry.â
By now, heâs turned to face you, and your heart sinks even lower at dark circles beneath his eyes, and at just how disheveled he looked. This wasnât the effect of having just climbed out of bed; this was distress in its purest form.
A few steps closer, and you find yourself sitting down gingerly beside him. Heâs still looking at you in silence.
âUh, how long have you been out here?â the additional question of âand why?â goes unsaid, but you can tell he catches it.
âDonât worry about it.â His voice is hoarse, and youâre hit with an icy shock as you realize that heâs been crying.
âToo late. Iâm worried.â You try to chuckle, but your words had come out much more wobbly than you intended, not humorous enough and far too genuine for your liking.
He gives you a weak smile, and you do your best to return it.Â
âI feel kinda stupid right now, to be honest.â He admits.
You tilt your head, silently urging him to go on.
He takes a deep breath, and when he exhales, his breath is subtly visible. Itâs colder out than you thought.
âIt was just a nightmare. I donât know why it rattled me so much, but-â he clenches his jaw and clips his sentence abruptly.
His voice is strained and muted, raw with emotion, and you feel a pang of sympathy for him. You begin to open your mouth to ask him for more details, but he shakes his head, and you obey.
Things are quiet for a bit, after that; a merciful silence for both of you. Somewhere nearby, a cricket chirps, and if things werenât so somber, youâd laugh at the timing.
âHow do you do it?â
You flinch at how harsh the sudden noise is in contrast to the stillness of the night air, but youâre over it quickly, attention moving to how intently heâs looking at you. You play dumb.
âDo what?â
âYou know.â His voice is pitiful, a defeated croak. âKill people.â He adds, but you know heâs aware you understood perfectly well the first time.
âUsually with a knife?â Now isnât the time for jokes, and you know it, you know it, you know it. But by now itâs second nature, and you arenât in the mood to try and fight it.
âWhy?â
Thatâs a damn good question. Why do you do it?
Maybe just because you can. Maybe simply because itâs just so easy to do it. So easy to slip away from the scene, away from the bright and flashy blue and red lights. Maybe you like the chase of it, the feeling of being pursued by the very best, and still always being one step ahead.
Maybe you like the attention; seeing your face on national TV, knowing you have to be oh-so-careful or else you could be recognized, but being careless anyways just so you can continue to outrun everyone else. Continue to be the best at the worst possible thing.
Maybe itâs just your nature. Maybe you were born ruined. Maybe youâre just a sick fuck and always have been. It could really be as simple as that.Â
You say none of this.
Ryanâs looking at you, but youâre staring down at the faded white paint lines of the parking lot, just to have something to focus on.
When you do respond, itâs not an answer to his question.
âThe nightmare isnât the only thing bothering you, is it?â
He looks a bit stunned, so you give him a minute, before repeating yourself.
âNo. I guess not.â Itâs his turn to pretend the parking lot has something interesting to offer, and you smile bitterly, wondering if his train of thought is anywhere as serious as yours had been a moment ago.
In the face of silence, you decide to keep talking, nerves rising and forcing words out of you.
âYouâve been weird all day today. Youâre irritable and fidgety and snappy. What is it about this case that has you so bothered? I mean, you do this for a living, you canât always be like this.â
âYeah, youâre right.â
You werenât expecting him to give the admission so freely, but you donât miss the tension that leaves him after saying it, so rather than teasing him, you stay quiet and let him speak.
âSomething is different about this case. Itâs sticking with me, and,â he huffs out a breath humorlessly, âItâs fucking awful.â
He goes on, âI canât get it out of my head. It isnât just a passion for solving the case. I have to. I have to get this over with, or Iâm going to lose my mind. My skin has just been fucking crawling since that first victim.â
Youâre dumbfounded. You honestly hadnât expected him to spill it all like that. Which isnât to say you were disappointed that he had, but- damn.
âThen I guess weâd better get on it, huh?â the words came out on their own, and you mentally cursed yourself for not saying something better. Something more comforting, or really anything besides a shittily timed joke.
âYeah, I guess so.â
In the midst of the awkwardness, you stand, brushing pebbles and bits of gravel from your legs, and offering Ryan a hand to help him up. He takes it wordlessly.
âIâm- I think Iâm gonna go in now. Go back to sleep if I can manage, with olâ officer Shaneâs snoring.â You look to the sickly orange light leaking through the doors to the lobby, and move to begin the walk back to the room.
Ryan stops you, though, gripping your forearm and stilling you with ease.
Itâs no secret that the two of you have spent most of today purposefully and obviously avoiding eye contact with one another. But Ryan takes that effort and shoves it now, eyes fixed on your own and brimming with intensity. At this angle, the moonlight hits his face nicely, making his eyes look less like their deep brown and more of a light tan, almost unnatural. But nice, nonetheless.Â
His hair is messy and flopping down into his face a bit, and if you werenât so on edge over his sudden serious attitude, you would make fun of him for it.
As it was, you remained where you were, his arm still holding you in place, and his stare still locked on you.Â
You could tell he wanted to communicate something to you, something important, and you remained unspeaking, waiting.Â
Finally, he slid his hand off your arm, exhaling and slumping over a bit. He looked almost pained, and for a second you were gripped by the urge to change your mind; to leave.
Spoiler: you donât.
âAre⊠are you okay?âÂ
He nods, and when he lifts his head again, he looks just as tired as before, but in much better spirits. âSorry, Iâm just tired.â
âWell, uh. Iâm gonna go in now, if youâll let me.â He laughs, finally, and you feel a genuine smile capture your lips. Things are gonna be okay.
âIâll be in in a while. I just need to think for a bit.âÂ
You nod understandingly, and begin the trek back to the room, content to go back to bed and maybe talk more about everything in the morning.
As you reached for the door handle, expecting and anticipating the wave of warm air the (rickety, but efficient) furnace would provide, you heard a yell of your name.
Facing Ryan once more, you cocked your head, both amused and weary.
For a minute, it seemed like there was meaning in his tone. A type of plead in his eyes. You waited.
âUh, earlier.â Heâs lowered his voice from his initial yell. Shitty hotels arenât the type of environment where loud noises past midnight are encouraged.
âYeah?â
He hesitated.
âYou, uh. You called Shane an officer.â
âYes, I did. He kinda is one.â
âNo, not really. He- while heâs working with me, heâs considered a detective, too. Just so you know. So heâs Detective Madej, not Officer Madej.â
âGood to know. Iâll keep that in mind.â
With that, you enter the building.Â
You know better than to think that was what he was planning to say. He chickened out of whatever it was, that much was obvious. But now you were curious. Not curious enough to let it keep you up any longer, but definitely curious.
But hey, now you know that you had been calling Shane by the wrong title. Not that you particularly care, of course, but still; you learn something new everyday.
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When Ryan comes inside nearly an hour later, he finds that youâve not only used one of the hotel issued towels to hold the door open (which is both courtious and idiotic, he thinks, because while he did forget to grab a key in his rush for fresh air and space, anyone could have come into the room), but youâve also rearranged his nest of blankets on the floor; whether for his benefit or yours, he isnât sure, but heâs grateful nonetheless.
Shane is snoring peacefully, with his face buried in his pillow and his feet dangling off the bed. Ryan smiles fondly at the near-giant, and moves towards the other bed, stepping lightly in hopes to avoid creaky spots on the worn floor.
Youâre tangled in the generic hotel-issued blankets, fingers clenched tightly around the fringe, and your face relaxed. In your sleep, you give a quiet hum, and roll over, keeping the blankets held tightly against you.
This is creepy; watching your friends sleep is creepy, Ryan thinks, turning away. He doesnât linger on just when you went from being a detainee to a friend in his mind. He doesnât think about it. Itâs not important, itâs not itâs not itâs not.
With a sigh, he turns back to his cot and settles in. He idly wishes to himself that Shane had left the TV on for ambient noise, but as it was, he fell asleep quickly.
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Sheâs afraid. Sheâs terrified, and it shows, because this is the type of terror that you canât hide. The kind of overtaking fear that makes the concept of even attempting to seem collected pointless.
She screams. Quite a lot actually, but itâs nothing duct tape wonât fix, and it wonât last much longer.
Ruth Bullock was going to die. Whether she had seconds or minutes or hours left, she had no clue. But she knew it. She knew it the second the steps on the gravel behind her had sped up, and she was right.
At 5:44 A.M, she is killed. A fatal puncture to her right lung.
At 6:17 A.M, her body is left at a randomly chosen spot in a nearby forest.
At 7:48 A.M, a young woman hiking with her dog on her day off stumbles upon Ruthâs body.
By 8:32, the scene is taped off and swarming with police. An email has been sent to the case detectives.
Detective Ryan Bergara deals with bodies, with murder, with chasing killers in his day to day life. He is highly regarded in his profession.
But something is different this time.
Something is wrong. Something is wrong. Something is wrong. Something is wrong. Something is wrong. Something is wrong. Som
Hey! I loved the fic where the reader goes with the boys to tombstone. I wanted to request a ryan x y/n fic. We all know he works super hard for bfu. Maybe hes up late one night editing and the reader tries to get him into bed ( with lots of fluff, cuddling, and maybe some seduction to convince him to go to bed đđ) thanks. Have fun!
Sorry the requests are coming out so slow yâall, Iâve been having a pretty bad case of writerâs block but I promise Iâm working on them! I hope you enjoy this fic Anon!
 Ryan sighed, running his hands over his tired face, through his dark locks of hair. He glanced at the clock as he yawned, eyes widening slightly as he saw how late it was. He was currently working on the most recent most recent episode of Unsolved they had filmed, and heâd been editing for about 3 hours now. He wanted everything to be perfect. Picking up his headphones again he slipped them on, leaving on side off in case (Y/N) needed him for something, even though he doubted they would. The wind outside blew against the windows, a soft whistle echoing throughout the house, rain fell softly outside, pattering against them as the storm outside went on. It usually didnât rain in Cali, so the calming sound of the storm was welcomed on this calm late night.
 Yawning, (Y/N) stretched, eyes fluttering open as they sat up. They glanced at the clock, frowning as they realized that Ryan wasnât in bed yet. Stretching once again they got up, stepping down off their bed, humming contently as their feet hit the soft carpet. They stepped out into the hallway, shivering slightly at the transition from carpet to hardwood flooring. Their hand found the wall, guiding themselves as they walked through the halls. Noticing a soft light coming from the office they sighed, yawning softly as they padded their way into the small room.
 Ryan didnât notice as (Y/N) walked into the room, too absorbed in his work to take in all of his surroundings. Biting their lip, (Y/N) smiled, taking in the appearance of their boyfriend before they went to coax him into bed. He wore a black sleeveless shirt and grey sweatpants, his strong tan arms looked even better in the soft glow of his desk lamp. Ryan jumped, his headphones falling around his neck as he turned towards his partner. âOh..hey babe.â He looked back at the clock, confusion falling over his face. âWhat are you doing up? Thought you went to bed.â He mumbled sleepily, wrapping his arms around their waist, resting his head on their lower stomach as they were standing and he was sat in his office chair.
 âI could as you the same question, love.â They replied softly, their voice quiet against the sounds of the night. Running their fingers through his soft, curly dark hair. They loved when he didnât do anything with his hair, it looked so soft and cute all curled. âYou shouldâve come to bed hours ago..itâs late.â Ryan nodded, sighing as he pulled away. He rested his large, strong hands on their hips, looking up at them. âI know..Iâm sorry babes, Iâm just trying to get this done.â A clap of thunder sounded outside, making the pair jump, their hold on each other tightening softly. Ryan chuckled softly, his voice deep, slightly raspy from not talking for so long. It was his âsleepy voiceâ as (Y/N) called it. âCome on love..come to bed.â
 (Y/N) placed their hand over his, intertwining their fingers together softly. Ryan nodded, turning around in his chair so he could save his work. He closed the programs and shut off his computer, stretching with a groan, standing up from his chair. âOhh everything hurts.â (Y/N) giggled softly, wrapping their arms around him, placing a soft kiss on his cheek. âThatâs what happens when you sit in that chair for hours on end love.â Ryan rolled his eyes and smirked, kissing them deeply. He hooked his arm under their legs, holding onto them as he picked them up bridal style. âYeah yeah, I get it. Iâll try to stop staying up so late working babe.â
 (Y/N) smiled, yawning as Ryan began carrying them to their bedroom. âGood.â Setting them down on their bed, he kissed the top of their head, slipping his sweatpants off and throwing them in the laundry basket in the corner. He flopped down on the bed, sighing in content feeling the soft mattress under his sore back. Smirking, Ryan looked down, feeling a nudge on his arm. âAlright, come here you.â He whispered, wrapping a strong, muscled arm around their shoulders, pulling them close against his chest running his fingers through their hair. They laid there in silence, listening to the sound of the rain, the odd couple of cars driving past every-so-often.
 âI love you Ry..â (Y/N) mumbled, their voice soft and sleepy against Ryanâs chest. He smiled, kissing their forehead gently. âI love you too baby.â There was a pause, the sounds of the night filling the silence as they laid together, limbs tangled, the covers laid gently over them. âThank you for always being hereâŠmaking sure I take care of myself.â (Y/N) looked up at him, kissing him gently. âYou donât have to thank me loveâŠitâs my job.â They smiled at each other, both yawning as they laid back once again, slowly falling asleep in each others arms, the sounds of the rain droning on in the background as their soft snores began to fill the room.