Thinking about my sexuality is weird and is complicated by being on this site since I was 12. Most days I feel like a troll, completely unattractive. I don't see why anyone would have a crush on me. Ive become friends with girls and thought they might be homophobic due the language they've used only until later it turns out that they are gay/bi. I've had crushes on both girls and guys, each and every time thinking I just really wanted to be besties with them and later going "oh." The guys I've had crushes on tend to be quite feminine... I've also seen lesbians on tv for male pleasure. I used to make my dolls kiss. I don't know what my feelings are and what I identify as really. I've been scared of "coming out" because of classmates, but now I don't know.
