#bereshtook

Do you like to see your friend who ignores you on your dash replying to everyone but you? I don’t want either.

I am truly sorry that you had panic attacks last night, I can't imagine what it must be like. It seems to be a new condition, since you've never talked to me about them before and I have known you for quite a while now. I am truly sorry and I'm beyond glad you're getting help from a professional, it's a very smart thing to do.

But listen.

I don't think your behavior is abnormal, I just think you are inconsiderate of the people around you. The night before, you sent me a message asking me if I was still on a hiatus. The same exact moment you make a text post saying something along the lines of "I have to keep all my friendships alive by messaging people, you ladies never make an effort." >_> Was that directed at me? If so, why be passive aggressive about something you could have easily told me in the message you sent? If so, that is very disrespectful and to tell you the truth, which you already know, it is not the first time you have made passive aggressive posts like this, but directed at different people. Am I not right? 

If it was not directed at me, why post it the same exact moment you sent me a message asking me about my life? Be honest to yourself, I don't even need an answer to these questions, just be honest to yourself so you don't hurt other people. I just need you to understand that by doing this, you lost my trust in you. The first few times, I gave you the benefit of the doubt since I really liked you. I can only take so much tbh.

Ahhhh and about messages. I do get messages from you, the last one I got was the one where you said you don't want to talk about your feelings. I didn't want to push you, so I let it go because I thought if you feel upset, especially if it's because of something you claim I've done, you would be respectful enough towards me to tell me how you feel. I don't know why it's always your messages that fail to appear in people's inboxes, I really don't understand why it's always you. It might be because you do not actually send half of the ones you claim to have sent. So kindly stop blaming me and others, as I've seen on numerous occasions, for not replying to you. If you had sent me a message saying you were as upset as you claim to have been, there is absolutely NO WAY IN HELL I would ignore you. I value my friendships and I know behind every url is a real fucking human being with intelligence and feelings. You seem to throw people away as quickly as you befriend them, considering how quickly you unfollowed me twice without talking to me first. Twice. What do I make of that?

And finally, 

I’m sure if I was committing suicide it wouldn’t matter to you anyways.

O_O