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Okay, so this day I finally got to officially meet Darren Criss.

I say officially because I’ve met the guy once (but I didn’t manage to say anything really) and I have had plenty of opportunities to go up to him and just snap a photo with him, but I never did. Because I always thought I would be bugging him and I never wanted to have a short brief meeting with him like that, I wanted to legitimately talk to the guy. And I was given this chance by the wonders of fate, and I’m so eternally grateful for it.

First of all the show was amazing, I got so emotional so many times, I pretty much cried the whole show because I was front row center with my amazing friends getting to see the guy who has helped me in so many ways. I was with amazing friends, and we were so lucky to be the very few that day who managed to get deluxe VIP. And I actually managed to get it by being on the wait list! Just got an e-mail the day before! It was absolutely insane, and I was not mentally, emotionally nor financially prepared for this moment. Despite how long I’ve been waiting for it to happen.

Fast forwarding to after the show.  

After a lot of waiting, a lot of stairs and a lot of nerves, it was finally time. 

The moment I walked into the VIP room, there he was with his arms outstretched, beckoning his hands toward me, saying “Come here!”  I hugged him so tight after giving the most high pitched “HI” I think I’ve ever said in my life. Next thing I know, we were posing for pictures. The pro one was first, where we just smiled (what I wanted anyway). And then I see Corey getting ready with the Polaroid. Now the whole day and moments before I had yet to come up with any freakin’ idea for a pose with Darren. When he’s about to lift up the camera, I notice Darren’s not moving, so I’m like “Uh, so I don’t know how to pose for this one” And he’s just like “I don’t know man, whatever works” “Ah, I don’t know” and I start seeing him put up his hands, and I kind of just copied, and we both made a pouty face and voila! the photo 



lol, I actually love how it turned out, so not planned, but I love it. 

 After that, Darren starts looking for a pen I think he dropped and he’s like bending down and on the floor looking under the sofa, and found whatever it was he was looking for. Then he’s telling me, to “Sit! Sit down, get comfortable” I sat down and felt like I was rocking myself in the sofa the whole time. Lol, my nerves were not evident in my voice though, like AT ALL. I was talking to him so calmly. The first thing he asks is where I’m from. And I always debate saying where I’m from just cause I know no one’s heard of the actual city I live in, but I said it anyway which was “Downey” and he’s like “Downey?” I was like “Yeah!” “Downey?! Where’s that?” and we kept going back and forth and I said “It’s just a suburb area, like just a small little place”. And he stops me and says “Ohhhh, the suburbs! Okay “JUST” the suburbs (kind of like mocking me as if it really is a grand place) and I’m kind of just agreeing, (because its really just a small town) and he’s like: No, man you gotta be like DOWNEY man, I bet it’s THEE suburbs, its the place to be. like its fucking DOWNEY!”  And I was just laughing and said, “yeah okay”.

Then his tone immediately calmed down, and he’s crossing his legs, and he’s just like, “so how’s the drive from there?” I was like oh, not too bad, about 20-25 minutes.”Cool, cool. So do you go to concerts often” We are legitimately just small talking here, but I am just firing back answers ‘cause he is non stop asking me questions and just really seemed interested too. So I told him I’m trying to go to a lot of concerts now that I’m out of school. And he’s like “wait, what does that mean you’re out of school, like for the summer? Or the semester?” I said, oh for the summer! I And he’s asking me where I go to school, and what I’m studying, and he is just ASKING EVERYTHING. And I am calmly answering back! I told him where I went and told him I’m studying photography, and this asshole does the sexiest like French accent asking me “so what type of photography do you like doing?” as if he’s interviewing me, with his hands linking with each other in front of him, and I’m just like wtff, uggghhhhh…and answered, uh concert photography? Lol. I told him I couldn’t bring my camera in to the show which totally bummed me out, but he’s telling me he appreciates what I do he’s like “that’s cool though, ‘cause it’s all about living in the moment, man that’s awesome” and I’m just sitting there , agreeing, “uh huh exactly”. Like a dumb idiot, lol. Then he asked me if I had been to the House Of Blues before, and I told him I was just there last week to see R5. And he paused, he’s like “R5?….. Oh! Riker’s in that!” I was like “YES HE IS” haha. It was so cute though. It’s like there was a small flicker of pride in his face at that little fact.

Anyway, Corey gives him the pictures of us and he leans in closer to me, like our knees are touching, and he’s like “Okay, my mind is going scrambly crazy right now, could you tell me your name one more time, I’m sorry” I’m like “Oh, it’s Ana.” And this fucker is looking at me directly in the eye, like his face is so close to mine I don’t even know how I was breathing, but he continues and says “And that’s A-N-A right?” I directly looked him back in the eye and slowly said “Yeah, just one N.” to make sure he got It right. “Oh, just one N” (like he’s mocking me again!) he continues and says “Next time it’s gotta be like yeah, it’s one N! it’s A-N-fucking-A.!” And I smiled like an idiot and promised I would say it like that next time. 

Afterward I think it’s already time to wrap things up, and I was like “AH, I have gifts!” I literally had no time to prepare for this moment, so my go to things are a drawing, bracelet and/or letter. And I had all three for him, lol. I first gave him the bracelet I made, and he immediately put it on, freakin’ sweetheart. Then I told him I made him a drawing but I didn’t really know what it turned into and he’s like “that’s the greatest way to introduce a drawing, let’s see it” and even Corey laughed and came to look. It was his initials like heavily detailed in random drawings, and the background was a blend of the human album art/warbler album art and his listen up tour colors. I really didn’t like how it turned out, but he said the detail on it was awesome, and I said thank you.  And he’s standing up at this point, and then I said, “Wait one more! Here’s a letter” and he said “Oh thank you, my favorite, I love letters” and he hugged me one more time, and said,” hey if I’m ever in Downey!” I was like “I’ll be there!” Lol and as I’m walking out I stopped one more time and told him the show was amazing, the new music is fantastic and that I couldn’t wait to hear the album. He’s like “Yeah I can’t wait either, it’ll be a while, probably another year, but hopefully soon everyone can jam out to It. “ I said thanks and continued to walk out the door floating on air and in complete euphoria.

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