Will block: overcoming and healing
Been days where I want to write something down and then I either forget or lose confidence in writing my thoughts. Well finally got the drive to write another recollection once more.
As of now, I have been trying to get myself to be more open and take more opportunities, whether it is trying ask someone out or just getting back into my old hobbies and creating and making stuff.
Itās hard when my Will does not seem to exist when I want to do something or make something happen⦠Especially now that I have moved on from most of my roller coaster past⦠Well most.
So far Iāve been doing well choosing what I want to be. Iām happy with my family; my friends; my school (well mostly haha); happy with what I do. But of all things, there is always that empty spot where there should be someone or something else⦠And that is where I falter every time.
Seems anyone I try to get interested in, something seems to throw itself in the way and then nothing works out. Whether itās distance, sheās interested in someone else, or not interested in anyone periodā¦
Seems Iām a hopeless romantic⦠As if life doesnāt want to make it easy for me to be with someoneā¦
I donāt want to be alone⦠Yet why does my Will not allow me to take that hardest stepā¦