what an episode! you though surrender benson was a hard episode to watch well this episode was even worse but both episodes were extremely good. it's time for Lewis's trial. Olivia is working with Barba on her testimony. she zones out and day dreams and in her day dream she kisses her therapist and Lewis catches her and holds a gun on her and says what he said when he kidnapped her " welcome home detective benson" she has daydreams because if the trauma of the trial since it's coming closer and she has to come face to face with her attacker William Lewis. we all know that we were having trouble breathing. the beast is back! Olivia stop daydreaming and she continues with Barba and he lets her know that he only has one more pre trial motion before the trial can begin. Lewis wants to have a deal and says that he raped Olivia with the other charges and he wants to plead guilty. he says that he wants to spare her the trauma of a trial. yeah right that is just another way to get off. he tells Olivia and she goes on and says that she wouldn't let him do that to her. that " he didn't have the balls to rape" she says no he cannot do that to her. the worst part is that Lewis decides to represent himself. oh great is all I was thinking. the trial... fin testifies that him and Rollins got to liv's apartment and the furniture was flipped over and there was duct tape with blood on it and a pan with burned flesh and keys on the stove. Lewis asked him if he had time to plant evidence to frame him. which was rediculous. amaro was then questioned by Lewis about Olivia's way of questioning him when he was arrested. amaro said she may have came off flirty because it was a tactic to get answers for his benefit. but Lewis being the freak he is thinks she was flirting with him and she wants him. not even close Lewis. he also asks if Olivia shot the police officer.the evidence showed that Lewis prints and liv's prints are both on the gun. it makes sense that liv's prints are on the gun because it's hers. amaro said it was impossible for her to shoot the police man bc she was on the floor with ductape over her mouth handcuffed. Rollins testified that they found mrs Mayer hanging in her closet and there was a blood trail going to her room. Lewis tries to say that Rollins framed him with the evidence. she says it's not true. which is true. they didn't frame him of plot this kidnap. Lewis is again a freak. the captain was said to testified but we didn't see his scene. it's said that he said he was worried for Olivia. she is like a daughter to him so why wouldn't he be. Olivia testified which honestly was the hardest scene to watch. she explains how she got home and he was in her house and she couldn't reach for her gun. he ductaped her and tied her up and held a gun to her head. then he drove around with her in the trunk where a police man was shot and she said it was awful. then she was brought to a beach house and tortured more. Lewis tried to ask about her father again but the judge forbided it. he tortures her while she's on the stand and humiliates her. poor liv! he says they had sex but we all know that's not true. she calls him an insane freak which he deserves and says rape is not sex. which is totally true. her time in court is over finally we were feeling the pain for her. the maid says that Olivia told her to leave and Olivia says she was concerned for her and her daughters safety and didn't want the maids daughter to be taken away since she wasn't legal. Olivia says repeatedly that she did what she had to do to survive and that meant subduing Lewis. she testified previously that he put her gun in her mouth and threatened to shoot. he didn't know because he wanted to take some time with her. Olivia has a session with her therapist and she thinks she was wrong for subduing him even though he hurt her and he deserved it. he almost died but he deserved it. her therapist asked her if she would be okay if she let him go. meaning she did what had to be done. her therapist made many points that helped her realize what she did was right. she was Nervous the jury would think she's lying. Barba assured her that he had 100 questions for him and no matter how he answered him he was gonna go to jail and serve 25 to life. sentencing... he was not guilty of rape he was guilty of kidnaping and assault of police officer. he tells Olivia that it's over and that he would be in prison for the rest of his life. 4 months later! the most shocking part!!!! he fakes a seizure we think and his doctor tells him they are getting him out of there and he was getting help. could he be getting out? let's just hope he's in a hospital prison. it's be done we saved and believed benson!

Pablo did an incredible job. Although I can't say that I want to see him back, I really like his performance, it was so real.

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