#beleafs

I am the type of person that will wake up early asf in the morning (usually I wake up 6:30AM or earlier, which is 15 minutes before my set alarm), but I will not start getting ready until at least 2 hours have passed. I've gone days were I just sit in my bed for 4 hours before even planning on getting up. And by days I actually mean, EVERY fvcking Sunday.

So u might be wondering what happens in these 2 hours of nothing? (well, tbh, you're probably not wondering, but I'm gonna tell u anyways bcuz this my page, but continue reading).

Well, as many of my fellow Mary Jane lovers know, waking up everyday from a weed comma takes some time in the morning. A lot more time if u wake n bake immediately after u wake up (which i do...EVERYDAY). But other than that, this time is very important to me. I am able to process yesterday, plan for the future, and enjoy that present moment. I always have to have music playing at all times so, the vibes are always immaculate in the morning. It's a REAL icing on the cake, if my cat chooses to lay on my lap. And this morning he did <3.

The reason behind the beginning of my mornings being so calming and beneficial are all because I am very fortunate that my current job allows me to come in, at the time that I please. As long as I arrive before 12PM and get my job done before closing time, my employers do not care. And if I ever needed to come in later than 12PM, it would just be a quick call away and I can show up at the time I want. My managers are all very chill characters in my life. I've met about 3 managers and the owner so far, but they throw the word manager around like a hot potato, so there's probably another manager I haven't even met yet. Since the location of my position is in Buckhead, all the employees are also potheads (yes even the owner!). So yeah... I come in BLAZED every morning unapologetically.

After another hour of getting ready and rollin up another one for the car ride to work, I finally step out of my apartment and head to the car. I was so pleased knowing I found a parking spot right in front of my apartment the night before. While making this small walk to the car, I realized it finally felt like fall. If you are not a GA resident then you might not know GA has about 12 seasons instead of 4, and today we finally transitioned from Second Summer to Fall. The slight breeze, cool weather , orange leaves in the wind and the big shining sun providing enough sunshine to keep you warm combo was HITTING this morning.

I got in my car, and the first song that plays is Came from Scratch (ft. Quavo) by Gucci Mane. As Quavo's small yet strong intro before the chorus begins, I spark my blunt and begin driving. Suddenly all the smoke hits me at once, and my mind starts expanding, and comes to the conclusion that I am the biggest star in my universe. A sun.

Being the spiritual being I have become, I know my soul has been through many lifes previous to the one I am living in now. As I get older and evolve spiritually, I begin to recognize my true form and purpose. I don't know much yet but so far what I know is: I am not from earth (although I'm not exactly sure where I am from,I know my soul originated from some other galaxy or universe, maybe even another dimension). I suddenly see a universe in front of me, and I quickly realize I am staring at it through a sun's POV. This hasn't been the first time my being just spiritually transcended into another reality, I usually let the vision play out since it only lasts about a minute or two, but I knew in my current reality I was driving out of my neighborhood, so I just closed my eyes and awaited that small yet powerful feeling of transcending back to earth. As I snap back to reality, my ears immediately pick up Gucci Mane's lyrics:

"I shine too hard, offend folks without even opening my mouth"

, and my mind connects the vision, this specific line in the song, and my first ever #wordvomit post, almost there. Previous to these events, I was a feeling a little lost. I've recently have gotten this huge motivation boost, and usually when I get these types of episodes, I burn out very quickly. I slowly have been feeling myself start falling into old habits and I knew a major come down was coming. And like all my come downs, my soul likes to fixate on my biggest question: What is my purpose here?. After feeling so gloomy, a couple days later, my mind comforts me by letting me see one of my other realities showcasing I actually am a sun. That was definitely an Aha! moment for me and my motivation started to come back.

It's amazing how my mind works and how vivid it has become. I am slowly opening a gate into my past lives, which allows me to reflect and move accordingly in this lifetime. Realizing the way my brain and this world are both heavily connected, was the biggest eye opener in my spiritual journey so far. I know my soul is ready to fulfill its next journey after earth, but while I'm here, I'm gonna roll up and make the most of it.

This was a reminder that I just have to calm these egoistic thoughts and just accept the present for what it is. The present is beautiful and after having to go through so much this summer, I need to take a step back from my ego and just wanting rush to the finish line. The turtle always wins the race. Just gotta stop and smell the flowers.

I belief earth is the hardest journey my soul has experienced yet. Being a human is not easy. Controlling emotions of greed, envy and anxiety is tough, and discouraging, but keeping your cool, and learning to enjoy even the worst of times seems almost near impossible when life hits you with all types of curve balls.

Life has its great falls but it also has it's mighty highs. I personally am finally in one of my mighty highs in life and coming to this phase after such a great fall, has made me appreciate all the peace I have finally achieved after working my a$$ off.

I hope after reading this, you can leave with this: