#beetjr

I still feel bad for abandoning this blog I always felt absurdly self-conscious about my art, I still do. I’ve never been good at making friends online or in real life so as a lonely sensitive child I always found it really tough and anxiety inducing to put my work out there without any sort of peer encouragement. let me just say that there are people who simply disassemble without kind words, I am one of those people. Recently I’ve started posting art online mostly because of college and because I really need the exposure at this early stage of my career and I can’t help but think back to my youth and feel like I wasted so much time just suffering without being seen. I don’t want to blame it on myself or the art communities I tried to join because it’s really no ones fault, it just makes me really sad and makes me anxious to think I could end up back here again