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I think the discourse I saw the most around this ending was Jax related, and It truly just comes to show how fake a lot of people are about their support about mental health 😭

Before watching this all I saw was people calling Jax horrible things and either saying he (she) had been babied and she should've been "punished" and acting like she is literally Satan on earth, and I honestly was expecting something way less real than we got in this episode

Her scenes were pretty well written, and as someone who has struggled a lot with self hatred and suicidal thoughts before it just hit really hard, I get it shes unlikable, but thats what mental illness does to you!! Being traumatized is not an excuse for acting like a dickhead, yes, but it is an explanation. Specially when in this case the show is not justifying her, it doesnt have to, what happened happened, shes fucking killed herself!!! Thats the consequence!!! ,not of her actions, but of the entire situation. Thats the final consequence of mental illness, of the refusal of helping and the refusal of getting help.

Mental illness is not pretty, its not cute crying to yourself with sad music and staring at the window on rainy days. Mental illness is visceral, it's treating others like garbage cause you do not have the energy to care about how your actions affect others when you dont even care about yourself, its a pain so profound it eventually starts seeping from your fingertips and staining everything around you.

And not only does this show depicts that in a very real way, but it shows you why, Jax was terrible cause she didnt wanted people to care about her, she hated herself so much that she pushed anyone that treated her as a real person worthy of love away because she couldn't handle that.

And theres also the other elephant in the room, which is Jax being obviously transfem and how much her internalized transphobia and misoginy dictates her actions. I cannot speak for other trans people, but I can speak of my experiences and how much a non-supportive environment can lead you to internalize A LOT of harmful beliefs. I myself struggled with internalized transphobia for many years, and it is something that took so much self reflection to not only notice but change about msyself. Yes, Jax is a misogynist (or in this case has internalized misoginy) but what people dont seem to understand these emotions come from a lot of trauma, it doesnt make it okay of course, but the thing is characters dont have to always be perfect. Real people are messy, they contradict themselves, they're cruel sometimes and thats okay, that doesnt mean they deserve to die or to feel like theyre not worth it.

People were talking about the plot points of this finale in such a disingenuous way, and honestly kinda doing what Jax is shown to do, exaggerating and taking shit to the extreme just to make it as ridiculous as possible and not deal with it LMAO. They were calling Jax a woman abuser for... pushing her mother and thinking she may have seriously hurt her, when her mother was abusive to her in a vulnerable moment such as trying to come out, and honestly a very real moment too as someone whos coming out was a complete and utter disaster and who is in a place that is NOT supportive.

I think the line that hit me the most was when Pomni is hugging her and she simply whispers she doesn't wanna go... The realization that you didnt want to die, you just wanted things to stop hurting so much...

And then theres Caine (im really glad hes back, he may be my favorite character simply cause hes cute and i like robots that try so hard to understand humanity, yall know this) who even after hurting everyone so much, self reflects and decides hell change for the better. The complete opposite, he doesnt shut himself in and instead decides to try and trust that they will at least hear him out, kinda like a different ending of what Jax could've done if things didnt snowball into something so big.

I feel a lot of people missed the point of the show, they were expecting some sort of epic mystery with likable little blorbos or whatever, when this is just a sweet condensed message about mental health, and how even in the worst situations theres ways to move forward; that you gotta try your best to be there for the people around you and in turn trust they will be there for you too.

I dont think it was a perfect episode tho, the pacing was a little weird specially at the start and end, then there was this montage abt Jax with a song, and I get what they were going for but it kinda took you out of a really emotional moment. I feel this could've benefited of being 2 episodes honestly, one for this Jax plot line and another for the Caine plotline, cause even tho i get why theyre just one episode it feels kinda abrupt (?) im not sure. And i do wish we had seen more of other characters (Pomni specially!!)

But overall it was a pretty nice (albeit expected) ending, that i feel it wouldn't been such a disaster if it hadnt been released on theaters, it really has the vibe of an internet series ending, so seeing it be broadcasted to such a wide audience (who a lot are like 8 year olds) is kinda bizarre, specially considering how explicit a lot of this episode is.

Theres also the fact i keep seeing people saying how Jax is "not trans" and that "It isnt confirmed" and I just wanna say, some of you fake allies cannot handle seeing a trans person pre-transition and during their transition and it shows. God forbid an actual trans storyline happens cause some of you will not respect a trans character unless youve already perceived them as that gender since the start, so keep hcing a bunch of normative characters as trans just so you dont have to see the ugly/real side of trans experiences and still feel woke (okay sorry random tangent, but like some people gotta start thinking)