After two years in this weird smelling place, I call it home more often than the place I grew up, and prefer to spend all my time in this home rather than that one. Crazy seeing as I didn't even want to live here in the beginning. My friends are now my family, my brothers and sisters, older and younger, annoying and wise. They've almost literally carried me through the days when I didn't want to get out of bed and have celebrated with me on the days when it felt like nothing could go wrong. I can always hear their voices, their footsteps, their laughs from all the way down the hall. Hugging is a daily ritual among us, as are five o'clock dinners. We have inside jokes that no one outside the circle would ever understand, or even find funny, but send Molly off on a laughing fit for a solid ten minutes each time they're mentioned. Cereal killers, What's Going On, Puff, being offended, that's what she said, Kate being weak, me being a ginger, What?, Jeff's chicken dance, etc. My favorite thing is being able to head up to the lobby, stand at the desk for no more than five or ten minutes, and have someone come along to hang out with. I think I spend more time at the desk alone than anywhere else collectively - waiting for lunch, waiting for dinner, keeping whoever's working the desk company, waiting for a one on one with Crystal, hoping to catch Nick to walk to class, relaxing after hall council, making a four hour 12-4 shift seem shorter with the help of friends, etc.
I'm going to miss not going out on the weekends because I wouldn't dare miss a movie night in Dillon's room. I'm going to miss Tuesday/Thursday lunches with Nick and Jeffrey. I'm going to miss all the five o'clock dinners. I'm going to miss working a job where my friends can keep me company the entire time. I'm going to miss keeping Molly company at the desk and then having to go to the bathroom. 'm going to miss walking around Beddow in boxers, and socks, and a huge sweatshirt. I'm going to miss hug lines in front of the desk and pretending to fight Dillon and constantly watching Molly pretend to be offended. I'm going to miss THEY'RE TAKING THE HOBBITS TO ISENGARD and late night study sessions in the conference room/my room and being able to walk up a flight of stairs and see a smiling face when I'm having a bad day.
Our lives have been more delicately woven together than Charlotte's web. Moving out is going to attempt to tear apart something beautiful. But the difference between a spider web and our friend group is that we are unbreakable. We are invincible. Almost as if we have the Deathly Hallows in the midst of us - able to conquer death.
Gosh I love us. I love us so much it does actually hurt. Fet, and Molly, and Dill, and Jeffrey, and James, and of course, Nick. Aside from Rach and Muj, they're the best friends I've ever had. How dare life come by and try to separate us. I've never been so sure of "friends forever"actually meaning something as I am with these people. They've changed my life in unspeakable ways.
