#beautifulness

The nature and animals of THE LION KING (1994) & TARZAN (1999)

I am a villain. Deep down, I am one. At least, I want, DREAM, to be one.

I want to be the person who doesn't care about other people opinions about them. The person who can do whatever they want without fearing the consequences. The person who can just get up and go. The person who can make decisions easily. The person who does not get anxiety attacks every time they're asked to say something to a stranger, talk in front of people... The person who would know and be sure that they are enough. The person who could get yelled at and would not respond with tears.

But I am not a villain.

Not in front of people. Not when it comes to real actions. When it comes to real life and real situation, I am a villain, who was born to be the hero.

I care about other people opinions about me, sometimes even too much. I can't always do what I want because I'm scared that it'll hurt someone who, theoretically, shouldn't care at all. I can get up and go only after weeks of thoughts, because I know that it'll hurt. I can't make decisions easily, because I am scared that the future-me will hate me for them. I can easily get an anxiety attack If I'm asked to say something, when I need to talk when I don't feel comfortable to, when I hear that someone may experience romantic feelings for me, when I just want everything to stop... I'm not a person who's sure that they are enough, because I know I am not - I don't know enough, I don't to enough things, I'm not old enough to do some things... But I'm ok with it. And I am definitely not the person who can get yelled at. I will burst in tears after a second. I fear stupid things, and care too much.

And this is who I am.

I am ok with it.

Even though I want to change.

I love myself now.

And if I'll change, I'm going to love the previous-me.

Black Bastard-- I mean Black Bomber!!

Remember that he is beautiful.

also me: finds 35 different women all beautiful for their own unique appearances without comparing them to each other or thinking they're less for lacking a specific trait

Well, this was my entry for the Magicians fan art contest..  I didn’t get to be a semi-finalist this time, but it was a cool project and I learned a lot. :) It’s called ‘Unity’.