#beamsandsundrops

I was tagged by the beautiful Hannah. For real, go and look at her tumblr, my mind has been blown by her theme and I don't even care about stuff like that, but it's just so perf. 

Questions from Hannah:

1) What’s the band you would give your life to stop breaking up?

The 1975, I don't even care what anyone says, I love them. Also the idea of never seeing them live again totally breaks my heart. I have a signed poster and I'm not even slightly ashamed. They are the bomb diggity, in my opinion. 

2) Which book character do you find most relatable?

I don't recall ever hugely relating to a character actually. Women are often portrayed as highly submissive or totally badass, and I don't think I possess either of these qualities. I felt slight empathy for the boy in the beginning of Looking for Alaska, however (I HAVEN'T FINISHED IT DON'T RUIN ANYTHING). But yeah, I totally feel being the victim of a social hierarchy and trying to make other people think you're cool (when in reality, I'm really not).  

3) Alcohol or cigarettes?

Alcohol, I'm not a fan of the whole smoking thaaang. Drunk Lauren is also my favourite kind of Lauren. Unless of course we're talking about metaphors, then cigarettes, most definitely. 

4) What’s the most embarrassing thing you’ve done in front of a member of the opposite sex?

Hahahahahaha. Omg where do I start?! One time I got a bit drunky, got on a table and begged my ex to take me back. Not a high point, I must admit. Another time I went to pay for something and there was this hella pretty cashier, seriously he was godly and I was trying so hard to play it cool.  He said how much money I needed to pay for my items and I reached into my pocket to put some change on the desk and all I pulled out and put on the desk was a tampon. That was cool. This is one of many, many reasons why I'm single. (But it was his fault though really, if he hadn't been so pretty I would've been paying more attention on the money siGH)

5) What is your favourite film of all time? (sorry I know that’s a terrible question)

I'm not a movie person at all so this is very difficult. However, I do love Romeo and Juliet, The Great Gatsby and Moulin Rouge, so probably anything Baz Luhrman, idk, I think that's all I've seen of his, but I adore them yay

6) What is the most stereotypically rebellious thing you’ve done?

Skipped a lesson (which I've done once) hahahaha, I'm just not a badass, I like to play it safe #boring4lyf #thisiswhynoonelikedmeatschool #forreal

7) Do you fear death?

At the moment? Yes. I have so much I want to accomplish! But in the long term, it isn't something that frightens me. Living to a horrifically old age frightens me omg no thank you. 

8) Why did you last cry?

I cry on the daily hahaha, I have a lot of feelings. Today, like most days, it was about how I'm incapable of everything I'd like to achieve and how much I hate my thighs and my face and uGHHH. It's all very vain. 

9) Are you, or have you ever been in love?

I believe I have been, however, one day I may look back and be like 'psshhtt that wasn't love'. We'll see. Love is a weird thing and being a proud english student, love are sex are among my favourite things to talk about, so I'm going to leave it there before this becomes an essay. I wish I was naturally talented enough to take lit at uni :(

10) What did you last dream about?

It's no secret my dreams are hella messed up. I went to my psychology teacher about them and she says they're a manifestation of bad breakups and low self esteem (lol). Last night I was pushed off a cliff by the friends of someone I used to be very close to. You probs weren't expecting that answer hahaha soz

11) Do you write?

Just to top off my cringey existence, I write music. I write a lot of music. Like I said, I have a lot of feelings.

NEW PREGUNTAAAAAS

1) Would your childhood self be proud of the person you are?

2) What is one talent you would love to possess?

3) If you were a ghost, what kind of ghost would you be?

4) Opinion on goats?

5) If you were given £1,000,000 but were told you weren't allowed to keep it or give it to any of your family, what would you do with it/who would you give it to?

6) Is there anyone who you feel does not get enough attention? Could be an author/person/musician, idk you're the one who's supposed to be thinking of the answer

7) Robots or dinosaurs? And why

8) Do you have a favourite card in a deck of cards?

9) Favourite card game?

10) Book you could talk about for hours on end? Why?

11) Why is thinking of questions so difficult?

Answer them if you wanna, tag me if you do so I can read answers!

I feel like I've just answered a past paper or something omfg. 

(That's the first time I've tried to link a blog so I hope it worked hahhaa) 

anyway... 

Rule 1 - Always post the rules Rule 2 - Answer the questions of the person who tagged you and write eleven new ones. Rule 3 - Tag eleven people and link them Rule 4 - Let them know that you’ve tagged them 

1. Which do you prefer, the beginning or the end of a book?

Definitely the end because I can't deal with the stress of not knowing things

2. Dogs or cats?

Dogs every time, I really want a puppy

3. What is your favourite eye colour?

I don't really have a preference because I just think eyes are beautiful really

4. What do you think is the most important quality in a person?

To be sympathetic, tough love is far from my favourite thing, it just makes me feel worse. If you're sympathetic, you can have fun with a person when they're happy and help them feel better when they're low because you make them feel supported and not stupid for feeling they way that they're feeling.

5. Favourite quote at the moment?

"That is part of the beauty of all literature. You discover your longings are universal longings, that you are not lonely or isolated from anyone. You belong" - F. Scott Fitzgerald

6. The ability to move forward in time or backwards?

Defo forwards, I'm dyinggggg to find out who I marry (if it happens) and what car I'll be driving in 10 years time hahaha

7. If you could merge two animals into one to create the ultimate animal, what would they be and what traits would the creature have? Also what would it be called?

Firstly, this is the best question ever. Probably a cat and a giraffe for the pure hilarity of such a huge animal purring and meowing. And I'd call it purranisaurus rex ofc because I love dinosaurs.

8. Most important modern day movement?

Equality for all sexualities hell yeah hell yeah, I mean why isn't it already a thing?

9. Hat, gloves or scarf?

Scarf, I love my Tom Baker-esque scarf to death, I don't care what anyone else thinks, it's beautiful in my eyes hahaha

10. Favourite Harry Potter character?

Hermione, easily, she is everything I aspire to be, she is just phenomenal in my mind. She's intelligent and she doesn't care if that makes her unpopular to begin with because she is happy doing her own thing and then she turns into this badass heroine and UGH I JUST LOVE HER, SHE HAS MY RESPECT <333

11. What do you think of the Fault in Our Stars trailer? 1-5 

That bloody book. That bloody film. I will die when I see the film, just as I died when I read the book and watched the trailer. It's soul crushing but completely life changing. I don't agree with the casting of Gus, but Hazel is beautiful. I think the trailer really captures the fun in their relationship and gives a good hint of what's to come without giving everything away.

NEW QUESTIONS:

1) Favourite word?

2) What's the one thing you REALLY WANT TO DO before you die?

3) What was the last book you read and how was it?

4) What's the next thing you want to buy?

5) Ultimate feel good song?

6) Favourite joke?

7) A travelling experience you want to have?

8) If you could be anyone for a day, who would you be?

9) Shakespeare: awesome or outdated?

10) If you could make a speech to change the world, what would it be about?