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“You are diagnosed with stage 3, breast cancer (Triple Negative)”. Almost immediately, nothing else registered except that I felt my feet firmly on the ground. “I felt engulfed in a sense of calm- am I in denial??” 10 months later and still receiving on-going treatments, I claim and testify that it was the spirit of God who lifted me up and wrapped me in immediate comfort and that is why I was engulfed. Formed by listening and all the faith formations that made me feel my feet firmly on the ground of the word of God. It was love in the room that very day through my Surgeon, nurse and family who cared deeply for me. The Holy Spirit moved powerfully amongst all of us, , and without doubt, filled us with his comforting love that everything is going to be okay. YES, there is LOVE through my doctor’s kind words, there is Jesus HOPE in being highlighted of the urgency in the matter, there is PEACE there are next steps required. Jesus is the LIGHT and he shows us how. “Deal with what you have, NOT what you PERCEIEVE it to be”. My parish priest's profound words of holy wisdom has pivoted me to focus on speaking life to myself”. “How do I give life to myself?” the wise man says ,"tell the what-ifs” to STOP. STOP. Just STOP.” And since that day, I have been doing so every day and many times through the day, to STOP. Just STOP. Crawling up at 5am is because LIGHT breaks the darkness every single day. Without fail. The wondrous day made by our Lord; is a brand new day to rejoice, to be glad. I am grateful for all the healing he has done for me, now in me, and how he WILL continue to heal me. His spirit enfolds and His love fills my heart. All I need to do on my part is to TRUST and #GetOutThereToFeelGood. Today, I celebrate this Easter Sunday 2021- I participate in His resurrection and renew my baptismal vows. My heart is completely transformed by him, my mind renewed in all these adventures with him since the diagnosis and I cling on to God our father and proclaim he truly exists in my life. Jesus has truly resurrected me out from my rotting tomb and He has RAISED ME TO LIFE with JESUS’ HOPE! #BCFSG #thewickedlightsg #vivreactivewear #hpbsg #sgcancersociety https://www.instagram.com/p/CNPcwlkHztR/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

I have never felt more beautiful with hair for the last 38 years, than I feel today, with no hair and all BOTAK! For everyone who knows me... I spend 3 hours every single day for the last 2 decades dolling up and washing down. I LOVE MY HAIR, EYELASHES AND MAKE UP very very much!!! But being diagnosed with breast cancer has stripped me bare of EVERY SINGLE HAIR on my head, every precious eyelash on my eyelids, and everywhere else!! Not only that, acne hit me from nowhere and crushed me to the ground in the peak of chemotherapy and left me reeling from a bad complexion. This triggered many confusing emotions and left me sobbing at my dining table on many days. Even the lean figure I worked so hard at through a strict daily discipline of clean eating and religious 5am exercises... they were all impossible to keep up as I struggled to survive every day. Because of the side effects, I ended up eating 6 FULL meals a day and terrorizing my closest love ones with food requests from all over the island at odd hours. As I was “losing” myself, I felt I was also losing my mind. I LOST everything I hold dearly of what I envision as beauty. But NO!!! Cancer will be beaten by the Grace from God and Jesus is with me. He brings me so many of you angels to me- it is because of you who have reached out to me in many different ways, that I got up when I fell. Your caring text messages, your hand made gifts, your loving smiles in video calls, your heartfelt prayers, your sincere effort to invite others to reach out with kudo boards and thoughtful gifts. The personal trips you have made to meet me amidst your busy schedule and asking others to pray for me. Despite knowing there could be no answer, you still reached out with your love. You have made me realize that we can “lose” ourselves from time to time, but one thing is for sure- we will NEVER EVER lose the beauty in our hearts. I am personally touched by the beauty of the LOVE in your heart and this is why I feel so beautiful, no matter how I look. In this, I have “lost” so much, at the same time, I have “gained” even more than I can ever imagine. So thank YOU! Photo Credit: @jemanci #BCF #BCFSG #IWD #iwd2021 #sghealth (at Singapore) https://www.instagram.com/p/CMKjjIhHNes/?igshid=5odpwp40ft3p