#bbbback soon

i pulled a jack move this week that i was sure was going to fail but it didn't and thus averted an absolute disaster that was going to happen without said jack move but still i didn't sleep so well last night while i was waiting to find out

i went to an estate sale today at a house that was shaped by what can only be described as dream logic. a tiny boring suburban ranch in front but in back it opened up into some kind of terraced seraglio that descended six stories to a pool surrounded by oversized statues and fugking banana trees

i think my bad friend has alcohol related dementia and i am a bad friend for mostly cutting him out off my life

my appetite has transitioned away from the foods at the core of my summer meals but it has not transitioned to anything so i am walking around feeling the effects of hunger without ever experiencing the actual hunger or the relief of hunger sated which is supposed to be the fun part

i did destroy a couple of homemade burgers last weekend so maybe i am only remembering the bad days

i am messing around with maps lately. mostly doodling but i think there may be something there