#bavardages

tyding up toasty fresh laundry is such a relaxing task. yes, I'm once again procrastinating by doing house chores. but it's like relaxing, and easy, and always the same. I need this right now.

I'm very dumb. I was going out to buy groceries and I only realized in front of the store that I didn't have my wallet w me. I took the subway four times ffs. No, five times actually. But I have my books, a new tote bag (I stopped at the library only to buy it) and fooood. I was so bothered but now that I'm back in my dorms, everything's fine, and I'm going to make myself some brunch!! Oh and I have croissant!! Idk better remedy than sugar and buttery goodness.

Vous regardez/lisez quoi ce soir ?

I'm listening to hyehwadong by Park Boram, and argh, I just love this song.

talking to my mum on the phone is such a healing time. it's in the way she says she loves me whithout saying she loves me. things like waiting that I'm the one calling her, even if she's worried. telling me to buy some meat, to eat something good. to sleep well. I love talking to her because she grounds me. She helps me put things in perspective, even if things go crazy. I just hope that someday I can repay her, even if it's only in half

everytime I talk to the phone with my relatives I feel so much like a grown-up and a child at the same, trying to act like I've got my shit together while I'm dying inside because Why did you call me?? do you want me to die of stress?? just kidding, I love my uncle. It's awkward but sweet, like yo, I'm happy you are alive, but i've nothing to say to you, see ya!

some guy came screaming in the corridor. didn't seen him but like I was scarred as shit just hearing him. I clearly didn't miss men's angry voices. I felt like a vulnerable little girl, not fun. at least my friend is in the same dorms as me, so I could call her and she comforted me.