#basilisk-2000

This isn't me trying to be preachy. It's just something I'd like to say, because I find a lot of similarities in some of the behaviors I've seen shown on this blog in regards to Salem and others, that I have somewhat experienced myself.

My statement is mainly regarding the kind of "Oh but I've changed, I'm different now I'm not that person anymore!" behavior that Salem, Majora and even Wis seem to love exhibiting while avoiding accountability. I apologize if this is long.

I'll start off by saying and admitting that I myself am guilty of being a pretty "problematic" person in my past. I won't go over the entire list of shit I've done, but I can admit I was not a good person. The last decade of my life was rough. I did A LOT things that hurt people. Whether or not it was intentional, I still hurt people. Whether or not it was my mental health issues worsening and making my behavior more erratic and explosive, I still hurt people. That's the point. I was reactive, selfish, and unable to take criticism in any way. This was somewhat due to unresolved declining mental health issues and addiction issues I had making my behavior worse over time, but still. I was responsible nonetheless. I still am.

I never liked being told I was wrong, even though I often was. I was deeply insecure and would lash out a lot. It even got to the point where I was so desperate to be liked and accepted that I made friends with the wrong people. If someone was even remotely nice to me, despite any obvious red flags, I would associate with them because I just wanted to be liked. It was that bad. It got to the point that I wrongfully defended someone who was actually disgusting and even was friends with someone who was a proven groomer. People tried to warn me. I didn't listen because I felt like the warnings were personal attacks and I felt I could trust this new friend. I was also told by this person herself that the callouts were "old" and "exaggerated" and that she "wasn't that way anymore" (newsflash, she was and was indulging with very disgusting content during our friendship without me knowing). And I wrongfully defended her. Hell, I didn't even touch her callouts. Never read them. That's where I fucked up.

It was only until my best friend pulled me aside and said "hey you need to actually look at the warnings these people are giving you because this person you're friends with and her other friends are not good people." Because she took some time to look into the issue herself.

When I looked at the evidence, it was like this moment of "oh my god what the fuck have I been doing defending someone like this and associating with anyone like her?" and I cut her off and felt horrified. Ya know? Because I myself am a victim of grooming and SA and know that the kind of content this person was indulging in (she liked loli/shota and lied to me about liking it) was harmful, and the people she was caught associating with (like that groomer mentioned prior) were BAD. PEOPLE. I told myself I'd never get involved with people like her, and yet, there I was doing what I said I'd never do. And why? Because I was insecure and just wanted acceptance. I didn't care where it came from. That realization was mortifying. I felt disgusted with myself. As I should have.

And again, before this even happened, as I said before: I'd burned many bridges in the past over being unable to take criticism well, or needing attention, making mistakes and blowing up over them. I wouldn't say I was abusive, but I was certainly volatile and nasty about it. While some people who I had run ins with in the past did have bad intentions towards me, not all of them did. And I took every criticism thrown at me as a personal attack. Much like how Salem and his associates are doing now. It's not something I'm proud of but yeah. It all just lead up to this point where I realized I had a problem and I was putting myself in the positions I constantly found myself in. After all, if you constantly find yourself in turmoil so many times, do you ever get to that point where you stop and think and go "maybe I'm the problem? I should do something about this."

When this happened, I publicly denounced her, made a post on an old blog apologizing to those I'd hurt through the years and through my ignorance, I nuked all of my accounts, and left the internet for a while to get real help. I got sober, I got some therapy, got some diagnosis done and started working on ways to improve and undo a lot of the toxic behaviors I was exhibiting and internalized within me. I'm STILL working on this, by the way. This shit isn't something you can fix easily. I started working on music again and teaching myself new and healthier ways to cope with the things in my life that had always attributed to making me such a difficult individual to be around. I've also worked hard at being able to take criticism better (albeit I still struggle sometimes lol) and to be a lot more careful of who I associate with. (Though, let's be real. I kind of slipped up again in accepting Majoras friendship last year, when there were many red flags there that I should not have avoided). I've also worked super hard to educate myself on matters I was ignorant towards in the past, and tried to undo and unlearn a lot of harmful mindsets that were ingrained into me during my upbringing that I'd never addressed before. The responsibility to do all of this falls on me, and me alone. As it should for any individual. It doesn't matter what traumas you experienced in the past, or what mental health struggles you face: you are still responsible for yourself and your own actions.

And for the millionth time: I'm STILL working on all of this. You don't just change over night. I've been working on it for 3+ years now. I came back to the internet just a little bit before getting back into music and posting my shit online. Ever since I've made better efforts to improve myself, I've found my current friendships healthier. I've been more honest with myself. I even came out with my gender struggles (genderfluid) and my sexuality (lesbian) that I'd been hiding from friends and family for years. I've found myself to be happier, and more honest with myself and others. I also now make art that is more organic to me and isn't just made to make other people like me, or to give me validation from strangers who don't actually like me at all but just wanted wanking material. Because I also did used to make a lot of overly sexualized content for that reason. (That and my struggles with hypersexuality and unaddressed sexual trauma but yeah). And ever since I started making art that's actually organically me and is something I enjoy doing, I've never been happier and more at peace. I don't care about the audience attention or size anymore. I just find joy in expressing myself through my art. That's all I need. And in time, the audience has just kind of built itself. Because the people who like my art now appreciate the genuineness and personality within it. And while it's cool and all to have a big audience, now that I've worked on finding validation within myself, I don't really need that external validation anymore. It's not that addictive now. I just like to create. That's what brings me true happiness.

This is something I feel Salem and his associates fail to grasp. They desire the attention from a sizable audience. They desire attention in any way they can get it. It's not good or you. When you focus too much on this desire for validation and attention from so many strangers that don't actually know you, you cannot truly look inside yourself and change. It becomes unhealthy.

Real change isn't something you can brag about (and I stg I'm not bragging about mine. I'm trying to make a point here.) You can't just sit there and constantly announce "I'VE CHANGED I'VE CHANGED MY PAST IS BEHIND ME THAT'S NOT ME ANYMORE GUYS LOOK I'M TOTALLY DIFFERENT NOW" and then lash out at people who are criticizing the repetitive behaviors you are clearly still exhibiting. Real change is about looking inside of you, and around you and being able to criticize yourself and to start undoing those problems. YOU have to put in the work. You can't just get a slap on the wrist, and be on your way to repeat it. And no. No one from your past has to forgive you for what you've done. If you're truly changing as a person, you'd know and accept this. Even if you change for the better, you are still not owed anyone's forgiveness. And YES, you can have good intentions and try to work on yourself while slipping up and making a few mistakes along the way. That's literally what change is all about. Being human, making mistakes and learning from them.

And when you use your identity or mental health struggles as a shield from criticism, you're actually doing so much more harm than good for yourself. AND towards others.

And also, I get it: callout culture is honestly very toxic. Especially nowadays. Yes. There are people who abuse it and use it to ruin other peoples lives. Or they use it to emphasize on problems that could easily just be solved in person and aren't that serious.

But when you're being warned that you are associating with actual predators, or rape apologists, abusers, etc when you already have a questionable history that you clearly learned nothing from? I don't think that's people targeting you for the wrong reasons. While some of the things said on this blog are actually pretty disgusting, I will admit, most of it is not. Most of it is people wanting someone with a large platform to do better and to not spread harmful rhetoric and ideologies to their impressionable audience. I really don't think that's so difficult to understand or for people to ask of you. It's very sad to watch someone like Salem, who is actually a decent artist, refuse to take this in and reflect. Brother, you're still young. You have time to do better NOW at a very young age. Don't be like me and let that shit fester well into your 20s to the point that you have a severe crash and burn moment so low that you almost can't pull yourself out of it. It's not a great road to go down. Trust me. And shit, if you want to make fetish content? Great! You do that. More power to you. But don't act like you're some furry body positivity art messiah when there's many others who make the same type of content as you. Humble yourself. Just be honest with yourself. There's no shame in being a fetish artist, so long as you're responsible about it. This ain't a dis at you either. You clearly have talent. I won't deny that.

I feel 95% of the people on this blog do want what's best for you. It's not being done out of malicious intent. Others clearly not so much, but yeah. Although many of the things you've done I don't think are that easily forgivable. Even so, you still are at a good point in your life where you could actually reflect and change.

That's really all I have to say. Sorry if it's long or repetitive. It was just something that was stewing in my mind as I took the time to really digest all the shit here. Seeing a bit of similarities between my past behaviors and the shit Salem and CO are showing now, it was pretty jarring to say the least.

That burner account that was mentioned today, the sonadowcanon acc? Yea, thats 100% Majora. I can say from experience bc this exact account was used to harass Luluyam last year around this exact time after Kev fell off her radar.

Not the tumblr version though. Oh, nono. THIS version.

Same account, same "mod name", same everything. Its easy to tell this is Majora, from having access to nsfw art in original quality that only Majora would have and sharing it publicly, [which, btw in multiple states in the US, including Florida, which she has publicly gone on record to say she lives in, constitutes as *revenge porn* and can be held up as a FEDERAL CRIME in court.] to even her own insistence of celebration of her own birthday bc she couldnt gloat about it on her main.

Yea, pooks, we know its you

Another thing I wanna comment on, as a BIPOC myself is that she claims herself to be a POC HERSELF which??? No? We all know youre white. You shared pictures of your family on your old tumblr, the now deactivated cultc0re acc. Theyre all white through and through. This also makes me wonder why she insists on saying she was doxxed bc she shares SO MUCH info about her family publicly, yet when someone called in a wellness check, she immediately cries doxxing.

LIKE? THIS WAS YOU!!!

Anyways thats my ramblings over with. I gotta clock back on. Peace 👍"

god damn. this is fascinating. and absolutely, undeniably majora, having to defend herself, on an alt.

lmao.

Majora is not a wildlife rehabilitator. Majora is supposedly broke and homeless, so how does she have a home AND a disabled "pet" raccoon? (rhetorical)

Keyword: Disabled. The raccoon in question is legless. This poor raccoon should be with someone who can properly care for it - such as at a wildlife sanctuary - rather than with Majora, who is clearly not equipped to handle caring for the poor creature. Not to mention keeping a wild animal as a "pet" is dangerous to you and your family - there are no available preventative rabies vaccines for raccoons.

so bodybag or majora or whatever she wants to be called [ lokistinywaist / brianpilled ] wants to reblog palestine based posts to virtue signal and keep eyes offa her? hey bodybag. former oomf of urs that got sick of ur victim complex, here: do u remember the time u cried about being stalked and harassed because of the last callout post made on u while you were stalking and harassing someone else who tried to cut you off? do u remember how you used the genocide of palestine as a way to get attention on urself and make urself "more of a victim"? and how did she do that, one might ask? u made a post about palestine gofundmes (even though prior to this u never once shared anything related to the genocide) in the middle of ur whiny rants about being called out, and then shortly after, bragged about the fact that no one brought up how u made a gfm post for palestine. cause you were clearly trying to paint this picture that people were just ignoring ur "good deeds" and only trying to focus on the bad parts to make u look bad?

well don't take my word for it!

a few of us remember that actually.

this was 6 months ago i think. i dont have the date anymore but its fairly recent. i never got why no one called more attention to this but i remember she deleted it shortly after the one artist she was harassing mentioned something about it on her main account.

using an ongoing genocide like this isnt a good look. u and salem are perfect for each other. best friends for life!

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these people claim to be leftists. yet. their abusive personalities, use leftist politics more as a weapon to harm others, rather than as a tool for justice.

"The brainpilled person changed her name again

https:// www.tumblr.com /brainpilled-archive/776490509425328128/letting-you-know-she-changed-her-username-again?source=share"

I am genderfluid. I am afab but genderfluid. I came out like 2.5 years ago after secretly struggling for a very long time with my identity and gender. And I am TIIIIRED of that mf "Bodybag" or "Majora" (oh my God, stop changing your name) discrediting me and constantly perpetuating this whole "CIS WOMAN" shit. You god damn hypocritical fuck shit. "WAAAAH THESE TRANSPHOBES ARE ATTACKING MEEEE" and then you proceed to say some of the most transphobic shit ever on your blog about trans mascs and cis lesbians while also misgendering ppl on purpose that you hate? Get the fuck over yourself. Yeah I know all about those posts you've made. Very weird stance to take for someone who claims they're always being "targeted" because she's trans. That kind of rhetoric just sounds...IDK, transphobic and lesbophobic? Weird.

I never drew rape art of you. I made nsfw of our ocs and you fucking know that. And when I did make it you even praised it at the time. It was ONE. Image. Also, I'd like to point out that she once willingly posted this art in public on her Instagram account with minors following it to "get back at me". It was not censored. Really classy.

And before she comes here claiming it was rape art, it was a bit on the kinkier side. She herself even requested me to draw shit for her in the first place! That's it! I don't have it anymore, nor do I have evidence of her praising it. I know that doesn't help my credibility but when I cut ties with her I tossed everything because the shit she put me through was so traumatizing I didn't want to even have anything involving her near me. I thought I could just cut her off and be left alone. But fucking no. She has tried to also use my coping mechanisms as a rape survivor to paint me as a noncon fetishist.

At risk of making ppl look at me funny, or in disgust: yes. I do partake in making CNC based artwork. PRIVATELY. AS ADVISED BY A THERAPIST. My assault happened a long time ago, but I never actually got help for it until recently. It has been life altering and has left me with constant feelings of shame and disgust over myself and my sexuality for years. Due to my trauma and my disorder (diagnosed bipolar schizoaffective) I also struggle with hypersexuality. It's not great. And when she told me she understood that, I thought I could trust her and talk to her about it. We TALKED about it. I never even showed her my private art of that nature, even. None of my friends have seen it. I keep it private. In fact, the only nsfw art she ever got out of me is the one of our ocs that she's claiming is rape art of her. What the actual fuck, dude???

I don't have many friends, and yes, even at my age, I'm kinda socially inept and trust way too easily. That's on me. And no, I do not post any of my vent art of that kind online, and I have't even drawn anything like that in months now due to making progress in therapy. The fact that I even have to come here to say this and talk about shit I'm genuinely ashamed of due to my trauma is a lot. I have been in on and off therapy to help me with my trauma and mental health problems for a while now. I'm still trying to improve myself as a person. It's not easy. And I am sick of having her paint me as this disgusting person when she knows full well I'm nothing like she claims.

I stupidly made the mistake of trusting her in the very little time that we knew each other. That's on me. I can admit that. But I do not deserve to have the claims she's throwing at me being made rn. Or EVER. Bitch I am TIRED of your ass. SO MANY of us are. I NEVER talk about you. I try to avoid you and avoid talking about you because every time your name gets brought up, I genuinely become anxious and sick.

I have tried to avoid this blog. I have tried to avoid her and her friends and anyone else for nearly a year now. I am tired, dude. I am fucking tired.

Believe me or not, I do not care anymore. I am done. I didn't even fucking touch her stupid fucking callout this time but I see that isn't enough for her. You tell everyone I am obsessed with you, but YOU are obsessed with ME. Clearly.

You make me sick, Majora. Stop using serious matters like rape as a fucking prop in all this and anything. Holy shit there is a special place in Hell for you.

This is the only time I'm making a statement about anything. I don't like being told this mf is still making these claims about me. Fuck off.

And to everyone else affected by her or ppl she associates with, I am sorry. And if anyone is disgusted by me for what I just admitted, I understand. I will not be coming back, and I do NOT want to be made aware of anything that mf posts in regards to me again. Thanks.