#basically no

screencaps and brief explanation of tactics under the cut

Hello my little coronalets! Let’s get started this week on all of our fun times, here in the sort of strange pause of the world. 

Tomorrow: I’ve got a bunch of shit to do for my other jobs, but that night, Jackbox games night! We enjoyed this so much that I threw it again! Come have some social interaction, starting about 6:30. 

Wednesday, April 15th: Doc hates everything! Have you voted yet? FEEL MY HATRED FLOW. 

Also the podcast ep gets released for Patrons! 

Thursday, April 16th: During the day, we’ll have more April Showers writing! COme join me for delicious, delicious angst! 

That night, on Patreon, I’ll be teaching you how to make Peanut Butter Coins! (Previously called Peanut Butter Jew Gold, because I love few things like being Anti-Semitic to myself) THis is oddly similar to a candy created by reeses! ANd yet you can make them in your own home! Gasp! Awe! Shock! 

Friday, April 17th: Utena Musical! On the Patreon! I’ll also hopefully have some stuff cued up for that night! 

BUT ALSO THAT NIGHT, OPEN TO ALL PATRONS: Mike and Jill’s 80s Movie watching jamboree! I have no idea what movie it is this week! 

Saturday, April 18th: Bad Lesbian Advice! I am the definition of “Wrong answers only” my little Patrons, please come join me for socially distant fun times! Send in your questions!

one little girl ( a transfer ) with dirty blonde hair wandered over to where harry was ( hiding from the harry hunt, probably ) and offered to play. she went home, talked to her parents about the nice boy with the funny hair. her first friend at a new school, her parents were thrilled. 

on privet drive a conversation on the same interaction took place, cast in an entirely different light. dudley took to reporting back about harry’s behaviors ( at times pointing at fresh bruises to state that was after a rather good chase ), quick to pick up on the attention given to the other when it came to matters out of their control. they wanted to know if he did anything odd, and his making any friend was definitely out of the ordinary. ( it infuriates them, of course. harry isn’t supposed to talk to other children at school, it reflects poorly on the dursleys ). 

the girl didn’t mind the other kids rallying behind dudley’s teasing. and her parents did their part - trying to pin down a cagey petunia at school pick-ups, and finally getting her on the phone after a few weeks of losing connection. there’s an attempt to set-up a playdate, it’s rebuffed. 

he’s troubled, petunia says. only safe around other children in moderation. seeing someone, the very best in child psychology - vernon chimes from the other room. they recount the issues of his parents, how difficult it is to remind dudley how loved he is while the other takes up so much of their energy and attention. maybe when things get sorted with him, but the way she slams the phone down tells harry she didn’t mean that one bit. 

(This is like a flowing ‘poem’ if you can even call it that.

I just needed to get my thoughts out and this was the closest thing to me

Yeah)

Depression took so much from me

It took my entire sense of identity

My mind was full of words for love,

Hurt, comfort, the unknown

And now it’s just an empty crevice in the universe

It took so much for me

To feel all in the extremes or nothing

What seems better

What feels worse

The choice at first seems simple but paints a road for me

Of

Nothingness

It leaves you empty

Desperately copying what seems to be the norm

I simply just don’t think I know who I am anymore

All of me seems buried

To scared to let it out

“What if I become like that again?”

The fear is all consuming

To be a human is a job

A road

A lifeline cut off at 17

It took it all away from me

And now that I am better

Am I really?

Because instead of feeling

I am a but a false image of reality

Even I don’t know me

A road

Of all consuming

A road

Of neverending

To find myself again

To abandon fear of what I knew

I must take that road again

The one I blocked for all of