#barris

it's so important to me that troy and Harris have chill vanilla sex, like I just don't think they're kinky like hollanov. in the books it's all about them having fun, about troy getting to relax and Harris getting to adore him, I want that sweetness for them these apple-and-dog boys are sweetie4sweetie so romantic it's infuriating literally disgustingly sweet. no-one here is worldly like kip or angsty like hollanov they have NO idea what's going on with cap and his husband they're having cute loving sex with a giraffe plushie underneath them

i will always be troy barrett's #1 defender because i get it. between fight, flight, freeze, or fawn, troy chose fawn and i don't think he's wrong for that. you have to imagine a freshly drafted troy barrett, being on a team full of homophobic dicks, and being roomed with another rookie who is a total asshole but so confident and so loved. he reminds him of his dad, who he's always thought of as the quintessential male, and he thinks about how maybe he could make his father proud if he acted like that too. so he does. he's still scared, so fucking terrified, but now he can pretend. he's good at pretending. at some point, he's barely even pretending, and he's loved for it. he has a family, and friends, and when he really needs a break from pretending, he has his boyfriend. so what that it's all a lie? it's a lie that's keeping him safe. he's not going to bite the hand that feeds him. who cares if his stomach churns a little bit when he calls someone a fag, or if he looks at players like scott hunter with so much envious adoration? his dad is finally proud of him, and it's easier for him to just be who he's supposed to be rather than who he is.