As you are reading this now, you must know that firstly, I don’t want to be talked out of this. I need to do this for you and Stefan. I’ll take whatever the consequences are. No matter the pain.
Last night you were in the hospital and I was waiting for that anti witchy thing that Enzo injected with to wear off and whilst I was holding your hand, I was thinking about what Tyler said. And I told you to leave me in there with him because it was my mess. But you didn’t listen to me, you had to save me and get hurt in the process. We got lucky this time but what if I couldn’t get you to a hospital in time or maybe a wound is too deep to cure? You would die again. You deserve to live a fruitful life. With me dragging you into my messes, how are you going to live that life that you’ve always wanted when your always in harm’s way?
Stefan is marked because of me. You’re always pulled in my messes. I ruin the lives of those I love. And it doesn’t matter what I do, I’m what’s wrong.
You always save me, Bonnie. I was in the Phoenix stone and you dragged me out of that hell. And what did I do? I nearly killed everyone and the images of me strangling the life out of you haunt me at night. Sometimes I just want to rip out my own heart than rather I let myself hurt you anymore.
So hate me if you will but know my intentions are to save your life. That’s why I’ll remove myself from the equation. I’ll desiccate for you because I know I love you and I wouldn’t be able to move on or live with myself knowing that Bonnie Bennett saved my life but I couldn’t save hers.
You gave me hope that tomorrow was worth fighting for and I never want you to lose hope in yourself. So find somebody, love them, admire them and believe in them.
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