#balanced perspective

Through meditation and Kundalini Yoga we are taught that one pointedness brings more peace into our lives, improving health and enhancing feelings of wellbeing.  It removes stress as we are committed to one action, one path, one task, and gives a sense of direction and purpose to our lives.  It helps to direct our thoughts and actions to achieve our goal and removes obstacles that would otherwise distract our attention.  But how do we find our point?

This is something I am constantly reviewing in my life.  So am I missing the point? Should it not be a stationary goal?  In reviewing the point, am I stealing away my own ability to succeed at my goal?

Many people commit to one career for years, perhaps for life, but this has not been my way.  Until the age of 28 my point was to earn as much money as possible, to live in as much material abundance as possible and, it seems subconsciously, to create as much suffering and self destructive patterns in my life as possible, within a framework of boundaries set by my conscious mind.

When I choose a different path, my point was to learn and share that learning.  To study philosophy and yoga and to share the teachings. The point that motivated me was my own sense of suffering and a determination to prevent other people facing avoidable stress, depression and anxiety, especially children.  To this end I taught in Schools and moved around Europe wherever I felt drawn to teach, learn and share.

Somehow the point never felt quite sharp enough. It was a general focus of attitude but did not have fixed goals, outsomes intended that allow a sense of achievement.  How many Schools is enough?  How many children do I intent to teach?  The point was a universal point.  One I wanted to see taking shape through society as a whole, with me a part of the jigsaw, but not defining my goal too tightly.  Why?

Well there is an underlying point that has greater intensity in me.  My greatest passion is to pursue a life of courage and joy.  To embody my soul.  To serve my destiny, without knowing what it is.  To be open to my intuive self to move where pulled, to change direction when needed.  But how does this shape my life? How do I visualise this goal or to know when it is achieved?  How do I gain a sense of satisfaction?

Im realising it is not a very grounded point.  I find it easy to live in dreams, to create fantasy and magic in my world but what about the daily tasks, the small steps that build to form the greater picture?  Its been a wonderful journey, touching incredible souls and helping to create a future more focused on wellbeing in Health and Education.  I have made a difference but what about the small things in life?

Its wonderful to have a vision of a golden me, stood atop a mountain, surrounded by a golden aura, living in peace with myself.  How does this translate to my daily actions, to what I eat, where I go, what I do?  The point is to ground the vision.  To live my life with clear goals.  To embody the vision in a human form.  To relate my senses to my point.

So I want a golden aura. woo hoo, so what? If I can’t touch it, see it, smell it, taste it, know it, then it doesn’t hold true power in this 3 dimensional reality.  It may be working on a universal vibrational level, but if its not embodied in my words, thought and actions, if I don’t sweat my body to form it in this plane of existence, where is it real and how will know I’ve achieved it?  It has helped me form a healthier, happier me, in truth it really has, but I still lack feelings of achievement because my goals are so spiritually focused.

A few weeks ago I was invited to a forge, which made me incredibly excited.  I love the elements and have always had a passion and deep respect for skills that shape with the elements.  To be invited there was a dream come true.  It happened to combine with a day of moving house and travelling abroad so my clothes on the picture were not consciously chosen for forging….I am no glamour puss.  I digress. I was asked to make a point, apparently the first task of all the students.  I was so nervous and very aware that the point held symbolic significance for me as well as being a fun activity to shape.  I gave myself over to the joy of learning and accepted my nerves and anxiety.

I did quite well, surprising myself.  But more to the point, was the point itself.  Hammering, firing and shaping, forging my point in the elements made me consider for the first time just how grounded my point still needed to be if I am to achieve any sense of satisfaction, any shape to my goals in this reality.

So what is my point right now? To set down goals and steps that shape a point of my existence, that use my skills and embody my joy and passion to form my own arrow of thoughts and actions to a measurable goal.  In truth, I do not know what point I will forge.  I know a healthier, happier me should be formed by each measurable step, but more than this, I know there will be clear tasks that are real, achievable, embodied, to focus my senses on achieving.  It will be a point that balances mind, body and spiritual needs and carves out a creation that relates to all three.