#bakka

and I updated my ocs!

This was a really wild clip! But let’s be honest, it was also the biggest gift to see Even and Isak singing on stage together!

Thanks to @skamfairy  and @grilledisak for helping me!! you are my heros! 

Here are my thoughts to this scene:

We saw a girl singing before Even, and it was pretty much in the background, still very noisy, people are chatting and not really listening to her.  

When Even goes on stage and the melody of “imagine” starts, everything gets calmer and not just Sana’s interest shifts onto stage, but everybody else’s - and I think, in this moment it isn’t just a POV thing, but reality. What does this mean? My thought is that Julie wants us to see, that after all Even has been going through, he is in a situation where he is “heard” - people like him, he found new friends, people listen to him, he is seen, not just by his close friends but by everyone! And this is so important for Even! As I am pretty sure, due to his bipolar disorder and due to what we know about Bakka and what happened back then, Even must have felt misunderstood and NOT seen for who he is, very often in his life (and still does - sometimes).

So, why is he singing “Imagine”, one of the most peaceful songs ever?

Starting with the first sentences “imagine there’s no heaven” followed by “no hell below us” and “Imagine all the people living for today…” The “hell” reminds me of what Yousef told Sana, that Even wrote some stuff on a fb page about “people going to hell” when they are gay… and it’s the moment when he looks up to Isak, like to assure himself, that he is not going to hell just because he loves this gorgeous boy and Isak is nodding, agreeing! It’s good! After all it’s good for Even…

Then there is coming the lyrics “living for today”, that does remind me about the “minute for minute” theme. Also, living in the now- don’t look back! The Evak theme!

But now it gets intense; The “balloon squad” comes in, and Even sees them.

 He struggles with the lyrics and it's Isak who immediately jumps up and helps him (I could write 2 pages just about this but I keep it short for now). Isak is there when Even struggles and Isak catches up at the parts “Nothing to kill or die for- And no religion too”. 

Nothing to kill or die for - Even tried to kill himself after the Bakka incident, and this is the moment when Even sees the balloon squad entering! Coincidence? I don’t think so… but now there is Isak. Isak, who stands next to Even and helps him at this moment - but also Isak, who helped Even the last time he wanted to die (S3- O Helga natt). So Isak sings the first lyrics and Even follows him... and then the “magic” happens - it's not just Isak who helps, it’s also the boy squad. We can see Magnus (Magnus, whose mother is also bipolar) initiating the whole boy squad singing the chorus loud. And not just the boy squad - everybody in the room does! We see all the people smiling, singing, hugging, kissing- everything is so peaceful!

So this song is such an “Even” song- and all we learned about him so far is, that he is a really peaceful character. When he was talking to Sana about his past, you could see how scared and hurt he was, but even then, he asked about the boys, his former friends, he still cares for them. His face softens, his body is relaxing. Even is a peaceful and caring person. This song IS Even.

But of course, that’s not everything- I think it is also “foreshadowing”- there is tension, there are struggles! We learn this right after the “Imagine" scene- when there is a fight between the boy squad and the balloon squad (it’s not a coincidence that we don’t see Even fighting- he is the peaceful person, remember). But I am pretty sure it was about Even (The boys and Isak aren’t that kind of guys who fight for themselves but for their friends- in this case Even!). We see “shit goes down” right after everything was so good and peaceful.

But, I also think, it's Evens peaceful heart (and Sanas) that will bring everything into place- this song is a message to the fans, that even when shit goes down, it will be good in the end! It will be good for Even but it also will be good for Sana and everybody else who struggles this season! I still believe that Even is Sanas mirror (I made a huge post about this with @skamfairy here) - and that whatever closure we will get, it will connect the both of them. Sana is the person that this songs fits at well as Even.

Heartbroken