“I’ve always wanted others to see me as perfect and without flaws. I always feared not living up to people’s expectations...
but I no longer feel like running away. I finally feel like I can relax.
Every time I started dating someone, I’d think the same thing. Not that I’m the calculating type, but I didn’t want to be at a disadvantage. I’d measure what I was getting out of it, and always tried to hide things so I’d have the upper hand.Â
The results were always the same, too. I was always preparing for a fight that would have no winners. Everything was in in my head. The only person in the right was me.Â
What was I trying to save myself from? What was I holding back from?Â
I don’t know.Â
Why did I do that? I can’t even remember. I was so grateful to hear that he liked me not because I was great, that he liked me in spite of my flaws.Â
I had tests and assignments piling up, but no other worries. I was happy, though I wasn’t sure if it was okay to be happy. I liked that he’d get mad because of me and I liked that he was thinking about me.Â
I just... I just like all of those things. “
- Kwon Eun Gi (Edward) from Chapter 66 of Fools (Manhwa Written by Yeongha, Illustrated by Bagdam)
