#backtopresent

"Hi!"...

"How are you?"

"Nice seeing you after so long.."

...

OK. Got it. Im having a hard time thinking of the things what might happen OR what is probably WILL happen. Gotcha! I mean, I always heading in to the future to make sure the scenario will enclose good. Or to be sure. Yes, sometimes surprises never last for really as good as we wanted. 

But let me tell you of the day I headed for this day. Sort of the things which was happened before I thought of something bad between me and the person Im talking to...

This was happened a year ago. And maybe the greatest nightmare I had. OK. This isn't a nightmare. This is TRUE. I mean, I swear to God I wish its a nightmare but, "Que sera, sera!" What ever will be, will be. But then, The sad part, I am not prepared that this will happen. I thought this will NEVER happen. Ever in my whole life.

And back to this day, when I am thinking of what will happen If that person and I meet again for the first time. I DON'T KNOW. Seriously, I can't imagine that kind of day will come. When me and that person meet again, I really don't know how to react. Can I just say, "I don't want to see you!" or "Ugh, I miss you! Can we work things out?" or a little hum of silence. I know a year has passed but I really don't know why Im feeling this way. I was just guessing that maybe a little weird, little awkward, little greetings. I am not prepared. That feels when I headed back to the time I am not expecting things, same as this kind of worries I had today. And maybe for the rest of the days before the final day comes... That's why I am heading back to present, keeping the urge to make things better... For real. 

"Que sera sera, What ever will be, will be." 

♬