๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ซ๐จ๐จ๐ฆ ๐ฐ๐๐ฌ ๐ช๐ฎ๐ข๐๐ญ,ย ย ย the kind of quiet that didnโt feel peaceful,ย ย just heavy.ย ย ย there was a chill in the air,ย ย ย even though the heater had been running for hours.ย ย ย the suitcase in the corner was half-packed,ย ย clothes messily folded like someone had started and stopped,ย ย ย unsure if they were really leaving.
seth stood by the window,ย ย ย arms crossed over his chest,ย ย ย his reflection barely visible in the glass.ย ย ย city lights flickered behind him,ย ย ย but his eyes werenโt focused on anything.ย ย ย his jaw clenched every few seconds,ย ย ย like he was chewing on words he couldnโt say out loud.
nikki sat on the edge of the bed,ย ย ย her fingers tangled in the hem of her sweater,ย ย ย tugging at the loose threads.ย ย ย she hadnโt said much since the argument died down. (if you could even call it an argument.)ย ย ย it was more like a quiet unraveling.ย ย ย too many things left unsaid for too long,ย ย ย and now everything was bleeding through the cracks.
โ you donโt get it. โย ย seth finally said,ย ย ย his voice low,ย ย ย tired,ย ย ย but edged with something that sounded like frustration.ย ย ย or maybe just heartbreak.ย ย ย โ iโm not trying to push you away.ย ย ย iโm trying to figure out how to not fall apart with you standing right here. โย
he turned around slowly,ย ย ย eyes meeting hers,ย ย ย softer now.ย ย ย broken,ย ย ย even.ย ย ย โ i love you, nikki.ย ย ย but sometimes it feels like loving you and being with you are two different things.ย ย ย and i donโt know how to make them fit anymore. โย
he ran a hand through his hair,ย ย ย pacing for a second before stopping in front of her.
โ i donโt want to lose you โย ย ย he added,ย ย ย quieter this time.ย ย ย โ but i donโt want us to keep pretending weโre okay when weโre both holding on by a thread. โ
he knelt down in front of her then,ย ย ย looking up like she was the only thing tethering him to the ground. like if she walked out now,ย ย ย he wouldnโt stop her,ย ย ย but it would wreck him completely.ย ย ย โ just tell me what you want โย ย ย he whispered.ย ย ย โ tell me what we are.ย ย ย because iโll fight for us if thereโs still something left to fight for. โย