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Why is IHAZAFACELULZ so devastating to watch?



The answer is because you’re watching a person slowly break and fall further and further into ruin. At the beginning of the channel, you hear Aubree speak with such joy, speak as if everything is going to be great, yet through the progression of the channel, she gradually starts to deteriorate especially as she gains more and more attention online and is isolated from help and her friends, JX1DX1, once a dumb ai simply learning how to even act like a player grows into a heavier and heavier burden on her shoulders, and drags her emotional state through the mud.

Going back to the “fern doesn’t believe me” entry, this was the first instance of someone who Aubree trusted turning their back on her or not believing her, which for a close friend is devastating for an already relatively young Aubree who’s beginning to be tormented by JX1, despite him believing her afterwards, it still takes a heavy toll on her mentally, then takes place the arguments with Bone in the “.DECLINE.” Entry about the stalkerish behavior and the “FOR ANN URGENT” entry shows their slow but painful cutting ties with their only support, one being toxic, Bone, the other not wanting to let go, Ann, yet all this stress building through the starter video remakes(ESPECIALLY on the “nikonowhere” entry where IHAZAFACELULZ learns she’s helpless and anyone interfering is doomed for death, she knows she’s isolated)

And even after all this, they specifically posted the “genesis” entry as a sort of comparison to the before and after, before in Genesis, she sounded so joyful and full of life and happiness and innocent, yet very quickly in the next entry, were brought back to reality, seeing the broken fragments of an Aubree who no longer finds joy in things that previously made her happy, where she feels helpless and lonely and in the “video diary” entry, she yells about her frustrations to her audience and expresses how much she detests how much people watch just to make fun of her or watch and can’t do anything about it, she expresses how much this complete exposure of her privacy has affected her and even breaks down mid video, and admits that she can’t even sleep anymore on top of the torment of JX1 and the whole video is just heartbreaking. Seeing someone deteriorating this bad and breaking over the small span of a year and a half is enough to devastate anyone.