#b;thoughts

And I'll be fine on the outside

So I just sit in my room after hours with the moon

And think of who knows my name

would you cry if I died

Would you remember my face?

You said, "How does a man like me love a woman like you?"

I said, "Hold me until I die, and I'll make you brand new."

Come on and wrap that blade of grass

Around my finger like a cast

Cause even though the church burned down

I'll be your queen without a crown

I've been so lonely in this field

Fighting a battle with no shield

Come on and wrap that blade of grass

… So tell me everything is not about me But what if it is? Then say they didn't do it to hurt me But what if they did? … I wanna snarl and show you just how disturbed this has made me You wouldn't last an hour in the asylum where they raised me So all you kids can sneak into my house with all the cobwebs I'm always drunk on my own tears, isn't that what they all said? That I'll sue you if you step on my lawn That I'm fearsome and I'm wretched and I'm wrong

Were you sent by someone who wanted me dead?

Did you sleep with a gun underneath our bed?

Were you writing a book? Were you a sleeper cell spy?

In fifty years, will all this be declassified?

And you’ll confess why you did it

And I’ll say, “good riddance”

Cause it wasn’t sexy once it wasn’t forbidden

I would’ve died for your sins

Instead, I just died inside

And you deserve prison, but you won’t get time

You’ll slide into inboxes and slip through the bars

You crashed my party and your rental car

You said normal girls were boring

But you were gone by the morning

You kicked out the stage lights

But you’re still performing

And in plain sight you hid

But you are what you did

and I’ll forget you, but I’ll never forgive you

I’ll tell you something right now

I’d rather burn my whole life down

Than listen to one more second of all this bitching and moaning

I’ll tell you something about my good name

It’s mine alone to disgrace

I don’t cater to all these vipers dressed in empath’s clothing

God save the most judgmental creeps

Who say they want the best for me

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No, you can't come to the wedding

I know he's crazy but he's the one I want

Spending my last coin so someone will tell me it’ll be okay

Please

I’ve been on my knees

Change the prophecy

Don’t want money

Just someone who wants my company

Let it once be me

Who do I have to speak to

About if they can redo the prophecy?

Who do I have to speak to

Cause I’m a real tough kid

I can handle my shit

They said

“Babe, you gotta fake it till you make it.”

And I did

Lights camera bitch smile,

In stilettos for miles

He said he’ll love me for all time

But that time was quite short

Breaking down,I hit the floor

All the pieces of me shattered

As the crowd was chanting “more!”

I was grinnin like I’m winnin

I was hitting my marks

Cause I can do it with a broken heart~

I’m so depressed

I act like it’s my birthday

Everyday

I’m so obsessed with him

But he avoids me