Itās been almost a year now and I still havenāt forgiven my older sister for the way she treated me last Thanksgiving. And now itās our birthday week. (Mine was yesterday and hers is on the 3rd.)
Ā I mean, she DID call me a monster, talk over me repeatedly, made me cry TWICE and made me feel like I was the jerk when Mom kept trying to say she knew one of my friends she had met once better than me... As in getting parts of her actual identity wrong. I didnāt mean for it to be an argument but also Iām never right about anything??? In this house???? And like maybe I wasĀ āoverreactingā but then why keep cutting me off and escalating the situation? I may have bipolar but that doesnāt excuse treating me like the words coming out of my mouth mean nothing. Iām too old to tolerate this kind of abusive shit.Ā Also, she said that my younger sister was brainwashed when she tried to defend me. Even though I often have to defend Violet from Momās anxiety-producing words as well. I understand that I shouldnāt have shouted at Mom but I already apologized to her. Anyways, guess sheās not getting any birthday gifts this year since she didnāt even wish me happy birthday. Also, she hasnāt apologised. Mom wants me to forgive her but she hasnāt apologised because she thinks Iām a monster. Even though Mom is highly biased and shit like that is why she moved in with her boyfriend less than year after she came down here! Like jesus fucking christ, she keeps telling Mom Iām going to fail. She didnāt think I would graduate and sheās surprised Iām going to grad school. Why would I forgive her?! Sheās not the sister I knew 10 years ago.Ā At this point an apology wouldnāt be enough. Mom keeps acting like Iām being petty but I think Iām actually being mature? Recognizing and excising toxic influences is an important part of growing up.Ā
